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God answers a Mother’s pray…

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My Son recently started to go to church, voluntarily! This is an awesome answer to a mother’s prayer. As if that is not enough God gave this Book and Chapter today…Matthew 24 ( my son’s name is Shane Matthew, his birthday (21) is today the 24Th! Again clear message from God! My son has lived a hard life…his childhood was not the greatest, and his choices as an adolesent to present have been poorly made. God said, in His Word…Matthew 24:2-8 (NAS)

Jesus speaking:

“Do you not see all these things? Truely I say to you, not one stone here will be left upon another, which will not be torn down.”

As He was sitting on the Mount of Olives, the disciples came to Him privately, saying,”Tell us, when will all of these things happen, and what will be the sign of Your coming, and of the end of the age”

And Jesus answered and to them said, “See to it that no one misleads you. For many will come in my name, saying ‘I am the Christ’, and will mislead many. You will be hearing of wars and rumors of war. See that you are not frightened, for those things must take place, but that is not yet the end. For nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom, and in various places there will be famines and earthquakes. But all these things are merely the beginning of birth pangs.

Well if you are a Christian you understand the concept of a Word from God. If you are or not a Christian here is a bit of clarification. Understand that God uses His Word (the Bible), primarily, to speak directly to His children. Its an awesome thing!

My son is 21 today. Like I said my children’s childhood was not a great one. By the time my son was about 14 I realized he was headed down the wrong path. I had not yet returned to a church life. My youngest boy was an addict! I was a social worker, how could this happen!?! Genetics, family history, all those secular lies flooded my tortured mind! The tough love commenced, it was incredibly difficult on the entire family. We returned to church very soon afterward.

Shane has had a tumultuous relationship with the same girl, since they were about 12. Again his decisions were not great. For about 4 years the family attempted to adopt this girl into our family. This was met with contempt, drama, and manipulation from her and my son. We made some bad, indulgent, parental choices here as well. I am still dealing with the repercusions of changing the rules to those of a Christian household! They respect the rules, not without comment though.

Anyway, I spent many a prayer, conversation and dare I admit, arguements with God about this boy. I took him and left him at the cross a multitude of times. Only to go back for him, right before Jesus could grab his hand! This was one exhausting mountain! Finally I resigned myself to that Shane meant what he continually said “Church is not for me, its not my thing.” I would ask him if he thought he was a good person and was worth God’s forgiveness. His answer was always no. I finally left him to God. Praise Jesus! (I’m just a bit stubborn)

Well if you know anything about addictions and those afflicted with one, you know the kind of days, months and years our family endured. I even put my own son out of the house, not once but three times. I did it, I could have let my husband brunt the blame, and he would have, but I wanted Shane to know that it was me. Everytime Shane was told that he had no right to make his mother watch him kill himself. The retort back was predictible “I’m not going to kill myself, Mom !”  Ahhh! but he had a disease that wanted him dead, and he didn’t even know it.

My prayers too, were predictible. God when are you going to help me with this? When will you call him to You? How will I know its You, Father? Why don’t You hurry God? Yes, all that, more and variations on the theme! If you are a Christian, and especially a Christian parent, you have probably been there at one time or other.

Well today, as I wrote at the start and with the scripture book and chapter God answered all of those questions. My son has been in church, of his own volition, for the last three weeks. In that time his demeanor, behavior, and family participation has greatly improved. Praise Jesus. I say nothing to Shane. I give all Thanks, Glory and Honor to God.

God is good All the time.

Author: Hopeannfaith

Welcome, I'm Andrea ... HOPEannFAITH ... I write and take pictures as a way of expression. These are gifts given by a loving and indulgent Father, to a headstrong and stubborn daughter, with much to say. A semi-retired social worker/secretary, I now call myself a writer. I've published one internet article and written many blog posts. However, publishing does not make one a writer, anymore than taking a box camera to the park makes one a photographer. What makes one who and what they are? Well God for one ... formed me before the foundations of this world (Psalm 139); and many, many years after putting away my passion for wordsmithing and picture taking He gave it back ... in droves. I am a culmination of my choices and experiences. It is here that my experiences color the world in print and color. It is my goal to reach just one soul a day with love ... encouragement ... understanding or just letting that soul know that they are not alone where they are today. This is about creating ~ all of it. Creating a HOLY and SACRED place where the ugly truth can be healed and the beauty of a moment or a tear can brighten a day for the experience. Why HOPEannFAITH? Hopeannfaith is my inner child, and she is maturing, as she should have done all along. She is learning all about how Faith fulfills Hope. She is learning how to live. HOPEannFAITH ~ the wonder twins all wrapped up in one, me. These are my Journey Journals ~ written and visual. I welcome your company. I welcome your friendships. My Journey is in the light ~ although I have and will share the shadowy corners and the dark ~ so you know that you are never alone there. If we hold hands in the dark, and we walk, side by side, through the shadow, we will reach the Light together. In relationship with one another and with the Light. Blessings.

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