Sadness is a new emotion for me. God had revealed recently that I filtered most emotional experiences through anger. Sadness was something foreign to me just a few months ago, still now it is an odd feeling.
This morning I heard sorrow in my youngest son’s voice again, he is losing his treasure this morning. A difficult time for this young man who holds so much love within him. He has experienced way to much loss in his tender young life. I ask God to help us to understand.
Knowing that God does all things in our best interests helps, but the ache. I sit here at this computer crying from sadness, this is something I have never done to my knowledge. Knowing God has this in his hands, that He will protect all hearts involved, yet the pain and sorrow does not abate. No wonder I chose to be angry all that time. This is undefinable to me, and now, whether or not I like it, it is undeniable.
I ache for my child, for his treasure and for relief from this sadness.