Learning to Live , Again, On Purpose.

My Heart Aches this morning…

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Sadness is a new emotion for me. God had revealed recently that I filtered most emotional experiences through anger. Sadness was something foreign to me just a few months ago, still now it is an odd feeling.

This morning I heard sorrow in my youngest son’s voice again, he is losing his treasure this morning. A difficult time for this young man who holds so much love within him. He has experienced way to much loss in his tender young life.  I ask God to help us to understand.

Knowing that God does all things in our best interests helps, but the ache. I sit here at this computer crying from sadness, this is something I have never done to my knowledge. Knowing God has this in his hands, that He will protect all hearts involved, yet the pain and sorrow does not abate. No wonder I chose to be angry all that time. This is undefinable to me, and now, whether or not I like it, it is undeniable.

I ache for my child, for his treasure and for relief from this sadness.

Author: Hopeannfaith

Welcome, I'm Andrea ... HOPEannFAITH ... I write and take pictures as a way of expression. These are gifts given by a loving and indulgent Father, to a headstrong and stubborn daughter, with much to say. A semi-retired social worker/secretary, I now call myself a writer. I've published one internet article and written many blog posts. However, publishing does not make one a writer, anymore than taking a box camera to the park makes one a photographer. What makes one who and what they are? Well God for one ... formed me before the foundations of this world (Psalm 139); and many, many years after putting away my passion for wordsmithing and picture taking He gave it back ... in droves. I am a culmination of my choices and experiences. It is here that my experiences color the world in print and color. It is my goal to reach just one soul a day with love ... encouragement ... understanding or just letting that soul know that they are not alone where they are today. This is about creating ~ all of it. Creating a HOLY and SACRED place where the ugly truth can be healed and the beauty of a moment or a tear can brighten a day for the experience. Why HOPEannFAITH? Hopeannfaith is my inner child, and she is maturing, as she should have done all along. She is learning all about how Faith fulfills Hope. She is learning how to live. HOPEannFAITH ~ the wonder twins all wrapped up in one, me. These are my Journey Journals ~ written and visual. I welcome your company. I welcome your friendships. My Journey is in the light ~ although I have and will share the shadowy corners and the dark ~ so you know that you are never alone there. If we hold hands in the dark, and we walk, side by side, through the shadow, we will reach the Light together. In relationship with one another and with the Light. Blessings.

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