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Today…Looking up…

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Rays of the Sunflowers 

I’m better today. The sorrow was muted, somehow. Everyone was better today, even the boy. I guess he’s not a boy is he? I was able to communicate at my women’s group today. Tolerance was low though. Having a hard time with the ladies who seem to me to be self involved.  The younger ladies, they just are rude and self indulgent at times. They then have the audacity to bring correction or confrontation to the elder ladies. I just have a low tolerance right now.

I did however manage not to lose my temper or say something equally as rude back, in retaliation. I guess that is good. I am grateful that the Holy Spirit is close to my surface these days.

Gently he stops my first jerk reactions, I know this because I am powerless in my humanity to be kind these days. Honestly kindness is not my forte or nature. The Holy Spirit is soft and kind when I am not and has guided me expertly to a kinder demeanor.

As I look to the skies for my Father’s help the empty sorrow flutters in my heart. I thank Him for his grace and mercy as I continue to do those things I know to do, while remaining numb still. I am comforted by the fluffy clouds that float by…babies who have gone home find joy in these I want to believe.

It has been 10 days now, and we are better today, all of us. Looking up and Thanking God.

Author: Hopeannfaith

Welcome, I'm Andrea ... HOPEannFAITH ... I write and take pictures as a way of expression. These are gifts given by a loving and indulgent Father, to a headstrong and stubborn daughter, with much to say. A semi-retired social worker/secretary, I now call myself a writer. I've published one internet article and written many blog posts. However, publishing does not make one a writer, anymore than taking a box camera to the park makes one a photographer. What makes one who and what they are? Well God for one ... formed me before the foundations of this world (Psalm 139); and many, many years after putting away my passion for wordsmithing and picture taking He gave it back ... in droves. I am a culmination of my choices and experiences. It is here that my experiences color the world in print and color. It is my goal to reach just one soul a day with love ... encouragement ... understanding or just letting that soul know that they are not alone where they are today. This is about creating ~ all of it. Creating a HOLY and SACRED place where the ugly truth can be healed and the beauty of a moment or a tear can brighten a day for the experience. Why HOPEannFAITH? Hopeannfaith is my inner child, and she is maturing, as she should have done all along. She is learning all about how Faith fulfills Hope. She is learning how to live. HOPEannFAITH ~ the wonder twins all wrapped up in one, me. These are my Journey Journals ~ written and visual. I welcome your company. I welcome your friendships. My Journey is in the light ~ although I have and will share the shadowy corners and the dark ~ so you know that you are never alone there. If we hold hands in the dark, and we walk, side by side, through the shadow, we will reach the Light together. In relationship with one another and with the Light. Blessings.

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