July 16, 2008
Today I was at peace.
My plans to visit my uncles were handled by Father God. I was in deep dread, not emotionally ready to deal with my family. This still feels very wrong, yet I know and believe that I am to only lean on God’s understanding of this situation. I am not emotionally or logically able to decipher what to do with all of these souls. So I willingly, willfully leave them to God.
He provided me with escape today. My uncle was having a procedure done and would not have been up to a visit upon his return from the hospital. I pray to God that he, my uncle not be in too much pain, that he not suffer. I realize there are consequence to a life lived like hell. I also know my God to be merciful. My God never wills His children to have pain and misery. I pray my uncle submits to the direction to trust God in this and let God do a work in him. I pray this knowing that my Jesus will petition the Father for me and Father will grant my petition.
Looking up, I give all honor and glory to Father God in all of this. That he will give a state of Grace to my uncle, my aunt, my mother and grandmother too. I pray in all faith, knowing, that mercy and grace are given to all of us in this time of pain and sorrow.
Today I walked in the peace of God. He fought my battles today…