Today was a very sticky, hot day. The result was a battle to keep my attitude in check. I stayed to myself and wrote and leapfrogged articles on Helium.com after church, all day. It was a quiet day. When we opened the front door and chained Buster so he could sit outside, the breeze was nice and refreshing. Don worked hard today, as well. In all it was a nice day.
A friend called and innocently asked about my family. This dredged the bottom of the well. I have succeeded well at staying out of the situation going on in the family right now. To my knowledge all is well and my uncle is still with us.
My friend asked after my mother, who she knows is here. This brought to my realization that she still has not called me. I believe she will not. She is waiting on me to make the contact. I did see her at my aunt and uncles house on Friday…so…
I think my friend was simply trying to reach out to me…however the conversation did not have a good effect on me. I’m afraid the result was just me complaining and venting. My friend is going through things in life as well. She already has the charge of a very needy and negative friend right now. I don’t think she needed so much negativity from me. I’m sorry, Sissy. I’m sorry.
I release this resentment and negativity back to the pit of hell where it belongs. I purpose not to indulge in this behavior anymore. I ,once again, give my family into the hands of my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. I know that I know that He and only He can give them all peace. I know that this is not my job and will leave them in His able hands. I humble myself and in thanksgiving submit to the fact that I am unable and unprepared to show the unconditional forgiveness and mercy that Jesus will give to them all. I thank Him for the release from this termoil that I will recieve.
I continue to Look up…from the bottom of Hopeannfaith’s Well of Emotions…
Our God is a loving and merciful God.
In Jesus Name