Good Morning All
Well today everyone in the family should be finally converging upon the great state of New Jersey. My Uncle died monday night at 8:30 pm. I visited my mom that morning where she proceded to do to me what she always does. I did not handle it well. I mean I lost my temper and tried to force her to get medical attention for a hurt leg. She refuses! Imagine a grown women allowing a whole family who is in deep grief to wait on her as if she were an invalid. The range of emotions I have are a constant ebb and flow, I don’t know what to feel at this moment.
I left her after she informed me that I do nothing for her and for the very first time did not go back or call. She has made her decision, I cannot change her mind. Seriously she made this decision on how to treat me many years ago. Whether immature or not, I have tried all of the things I can think of to garner her love and attention. Orphans are sad creatures…adult orphans who did not realize they were abandoned, because the parents were there in body, is pathetic.
So I am sad and angry, yet again. Just more than a month since my grandson passes away, another family member passes. This feels like too much, yet I know that God does not give me more than I can handle. My sponser/friend says I’ve done things correctly…I don’t know.
I have to go to work.
I’m looking up…counting on God to handle this pain and sorrow.