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No one comes to the Father except through Me…

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July 31,2008

My Uncle Lee’s viewing was this evening. I was really stressed, it progressed throughout the day, until I realized that I was having mild anxiety attacks. I began praying in tongues and thanking the Lord of my life for His faithfulness to me. I have to admit I probably caused most of my issues today. However, with consistant prayer I did well.

My family behaved mostly in a milder version of their usual behavior. I thank God for this. I stressed about my mother and brother, and God handled it for me. While my mother spoke about my uncle, her brother-in-law, I prayed in tongues and I believe this helped both my mother and I get through it.

The VFW performed a ceremony and my father participated in it. I was impressed by all of Military presence in the room. My cousin’s 20 year old son, a Marine, in full dress. Matt is leaving for Iraq in 3 weeks. Keep him in prayer. My uncles and father honoring my Uncle Lee’s patriotism. It was heart wrenching.

Finally my uncle’s Pastor spoke and he shared that my uncle, who I know was saved, spoke to him regularly about Jesus. My uncle knew he was dying for months. I believe he made his peace with God and was at peace with that as well. The Pastor used these scriptures to eulogize my uncle, it was touching and many of us could speak the scriptures with him. With all my issues about my family, I have to say God spoke loudly this evening for me to hear. These people are saved. No matter their worldly behaviors and human natures they are His children. I am overjoyed by this, thank you Jesus.

These beautiful scriptures gave us comfort in the knowledge that our loved one is home with the Father. Jesus said…

Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me. In My Father’s house are many mansions; if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you to Myself; that where I am, there you may be also. And where I go you know, and the way you know. Thomas said to Him, “Lord, we do not know where You are going, and how can we know the way? Jesus said to him, ” I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.

 The Way, the Truth, and the Life
John 14: 1-6


I believe even the un-believers in the room were comforted by this. If there were un-saved in the room.

My brother and his fiance showed up near the end. This made me nervous again. So much pain and animosity between us. I forgive him for the pain he has cause, yet I must use wisdom. I counsel with my sponser to control the rage and sorrow of my life with my family. My brother, I miss him, just is not safe for me to deal with now. This makes me sad, very sad.

So I go to bed this evening in prayer. That my family have peace and joy. That somehow they understand what it is I have to do now to survive. I thank the Lord Jesus Christ that he lent me his words and countenance today. That He held my trembling heart in His hands and that my heavenly Father held each of my tears in his hand.

I’ve lost two loved ones in just over a month. My humanity stands amazed that I can survive that, with the plans and hopes I had for Shane Jr. and the memories I am left with for my uncle. It amazes me that God made us strong enough to deal with this.

Let not your heart be troubled…God has this!


John 14:1

 The funeral is tomorrow…

Blessings All.



Author: Hopeannfaith

Welcome, I'm Andrea ... HOPEannFAITH ... I write and take pictures as a way of expression. These are gifts given by a loving and indulgent Father, to a headstrong and stubborn daughter, with much to say. A semi-retired social worker/secretary, I now call myself a writer. I've published one internet article and written many blog posts. However, publishing does not make one a writer, anymore than taking a box camera to the park makes one a photographer. What makes one who and what they are? Well God for one ... formed me before the foundations of this world (Psalm 139); and many, many years after putting away my passion for wordsmithing and picture taking He gave it back ... in droves. I am a culmination of my choices and experiences. It is here that my experiences color the world in print and color. It is my goal to reach just one soul a day with love ... encouragement ... understanding or just letting that soul know that they are not alone where they are today. This is about creating ~ all of it. Creating a HOLY and SACRED place where the ugly truth can be healed and the beauty of a moment or a tear can brighten a day for the experience. Why HOPEannFAITH? Hopeannfaith is my inner child, and she is maturing, as she should have done all along. She is learning all about how Faith fulfills Hope. She is learning how to live. HOPEannFAITH ~ the wonder twins all wrapped up in one, me. These are my Journey Journals ~ written and visual. I welcome your company. I welcome your friendships. My Journey is in the light ~ although I have and will share the shadowy corners and the dark ~ so you know that you are never alone there. If we hold hands in the dark, and we walk, side by side, through the shadow, we will reach the Light together. In relationship with one another and with the Light. Blessings.

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