And I decided to check out the family tag. I came across a blog post that was an very interesting question.
What were you doing 24 years ago? was the question…and of course it got me thinking.
This time 24 years ago I had been married for just short of a month, and was about 5 months pregnant with my James. The marriage was already not going well, but at 20 I had hope. We lived with my Dad, an alcoholic, and I was not yet aware that my new husband was cheating on me. All my mind mulled over was the bright future I would have. A baby and a husband who loved me and many years ahead of us.
It would be 4 months later, on his due date, that my eldest boy would enter the world and change my life. It would be a very short time later when I would kick my husband out of the house. Amazing! I haven’t thought of these things in a very long time! Shortly after kicking him out, I would make the mistake and let him come home. Naive, it would begin a very painfully hopeful three years. Of course it ended badly.
In that time we would have a second baby, my youngest boy. Also born right on his due date. We would move into a commune like household with my brother, his girlfriend and my two year old niece, my sister and my husbands brother. Terrible from the onset!
My husband would continue to cheat on me, right in my own home, with everyone! And I mean every and anyone! I grew up quickly and as much as that was a time of poor and immature choices, I cannot regret it. Like the writer of the other blog to regret that time in my life would require that I regret my children. And they are amazing kids! Men!! When did that happen?!
What I find, too is that to regret that time in my life would require that I regret who I am now. God makes no mistakes. Humans do. So he took some bad life choices on my part and turned them 20 some years later into quite a good life.
1 Corinthians 13:11
When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things.
I find God amazing! Faithful to his children, faithful to provide, protect and love. Just amazing.