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Controlled demolition…

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Determinedly Demolish some Things ~  Oswald Chambers

The Demolition of strongholds...

The Demolition of strongholds...

” Casting down imaginations and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God”  2 Corinthians 10:5
Well I must say this is where I have been in my life a lot lately. Demolishing the things in my life that seperate me from understanding God. First it was actually relationships with people. Primarily members of my family. Now, its how I react to certain people in my life.
I have not been able to just decide not to like someone. No, I want to mold them into a likable person. NO it isn’t even that valiant. I just smolder in my dislike of them. How very Christian of me!!
Chamber’s devotional for September 8th says that deliverance from sin is not deliverance from human nature! It seems my nature of late has not been a good nature.
He goes on to say that ” There are things in the human nature, such as prejudices, which the saint has to destroy by neglect; and other things which have to be destroyed by God’s Spirit, by the Divine strength imparted by God’s Spirit. There are some things over which we are not to fight, but to stand still in and see the salvation of God…”  I do not know what those things are, but I have to fathom that if I cannot find my way to putting something out of my life, it may be one of those things. 
I did a “homework assignment” given by my sponsor. It was to write the “whys” of my negative feelings for two people I have had personal issues with lately. When I say personal, I mean they do not necessarily know I’m having a problem. Their personal opinions and behaviors have run me spiritually ragged lately. However, I don’t say anything because I fear I will say what exactly is on my mind.
Usually I am able to find some diplomacy with these issues, however I am having issue with diplomacy right now.
I do not think these things have actually raised themselves against God in my life, so much as I need to determinedly demolish these things… So I did the assignment…and came to a place where I was happy with my self discovery…
I do not like when others are rude and mistreat other people. I do not like when people speak to others with obvious disrespect or obvious distain. I feel it is unnecessary negativity, and only causes harm.  And then, I really passionately dislike it when the offenders shrug it off, when called on the behavior. In my view, justifying themselves and or their behavior, with the understanding that what I or someone else thinks about it means nothing.
I find their behaviors and the consequential reactions to correction very worldly, while professing Christianity. Ultimately, I believe, this is bravado, a self esteem problem with in them. That they actually fear the differences in the other  people that they are treating poorly. Then they search for agreement , or like one of my kids try forcing upon others their point of view in an attempt to get backup for  their very poor behavior. Not all of them are young people, unfortunately. Lately however,  I find that many of them are.
I do not believe how opinionated I am…must always have been. I believe at this point I am no better that the individuals that I speak of here!!! I am frustrated !!
Now I deal with my “adult children”. As best I can. I have been told to leave them be, that they are adults. However, I am a firm believer that even adults need correction. I mean I get enough from my sisters to make up for a whole childhood of discipline. We have an agreement, we try to live as biblically as possible, therefore we have agreed to try to help each other to stay on the path.
All the while ignoring the kids indiscretions, behaviorally.
So is this a wait and have God move, or a personal predjudice that I must destroy by force?
Not knowing the answers for this one…I continue to look up from the bottom of the well that is Hopeannfaith…
Blessings All.

Author: Hopeannfaith

Welcome, I'm Andrea ... HOPEannFAITH ... I write and take pictures as a way of expression. These are gifts given by a loving and indulgent Father, to a headstrong and stubborn daughter, with much to say. A semi-retired social worker/secretary, I now call myself a writer. I've published one internet article and written many blog posts. However, publishing does not make one a writer, anymore than taking a box camera to the park makes one a photographer. What makes one who and what they are? Well God for one ... formed me before the foundations of this world (Psalm 139); and many, many years after putting away my passion for wordsmithing and picture taking He gave it back ... in droves. I am a culmination of my choices and experiences. It is here that my experiences color the world in print and color. It is my goal to reach just one soul a day with love ... encouragement ... understanding or just letting that soul know that they are not alone where they are today. This is about creating ~ all of it. Creating a HOLY and SACRED place where the ugly truth can be healed and the beauty of a moment or a tear can brighten a day for the experience. Why HOPEannFAITH? Hopeannfaith is my inner child, and she is maturing, as she should have done all along. She is learning all about how Faith fulfills Hope. She is learning how to live. HOPEannFAITH ~ the wonder twins all wrapped up in one, me. These are my Journey Journals ~ written and visual. I welcome your company. I welcome your friendships. My Journey is in the light ~ although I have and will share the shadowy corners and the dark ~ so you know that you are never alone there. If we hold hands in the dark, and we walk, side by side, through the shadow, we will reach the Light together. In relationship with one another and with the Light. Blessings.

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