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The Private Mission…Disciplined Worship

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” When thou wast under the fig tree, I saw thee.” John 1:48

God sees us. We reveal our true selves in our private worship. And if our worship is overshadowed by the work we do, we deceive ourselves in that we believe we are ok, spiritually. One crisis, though, will prove you.

I revealed myself over the last several months in the midst of the chaos that has been my life, my journey. Some of it was quite disheartening for me.

Todays devotional in My Utmost for His Highest ~ Oswald Chambers

” We imagine we would be all right if a big crisis arose; but the big crisis will only reveal the stuff we are made of, it will not put anything into us.”

We believe we will be up to the challenge of a crisis, because we are Christians. This is only true if we’ve done the work of personal work in our private life of worship. We, again, go back to discipline. We, again, go back to God guiding our lives instead of self, or worse those around us.

I have admitted here that I work with a sponsor, often. The “alcoholic” drinking was put down nearly 20 years ago, without the understanding that I had had a problem, at the time. Yet, like many, I continued to live the life of a dry drunk. My abuse of the drink was very short lived, yet it was what it was. So that is where I am today. Seeking to uproot and destroy the negative within me. My sponsor says “we must seek to improve ourselves, always”.

However true this is, I must put all of the work up against the Word of God. Otherwise I am simply seeking the face of God, without the Spirit of God’s guidance. What do I mean? Well we all seek the face of God, sometimes and some people do it without knowing what they are truly looking for. Without the information we wander around under the fig tree, not knowing there is sustenance right above our heads.

For a Christian to become that blind and distracted is a shame. Yet, we remain human, therefore self involved, and we miss the mark.

Chambers says ~ that we take the stance…

” I can’t be expected to live the sanctified life in the circumstances I am in; I have no time for praying just now, no time for Bible reading, my opportunity hasn’t come yet; when it does, of course, I shall be all right.”

No! We won’t!

God has made it our responsibility to keep the Spirit within us strong. It is my responsibility.

With discipline I have learned to pray all the time. Now, easy, I do forget at time. However praying in tongues is something I do by rote, at the back of my thought. I am hardly surprised that when a situation crops up I find that I am already praying. It is a blessing.

This devotional today tells me its about my Worship of my Lord in private. When we are home, we think we are nolonger under the gun of representing a life of worship. No one sees us right? Wrong, God sees us. I think he must be in frustrated wonder, like a parent gets, when we go through these things without using the tools that were provided with the Atonement.

Chambers says ~ ” The workshop of the missionary munitions is the hidden, personal, worshipping life of the saint.”

Munition: Defense

Missionary: a person undertaking a mission, a religious mission

If we are on the mission of Christianity our defense is the renewal of our minds and lives in the Word of God and the Worship of God.

We gain no defense and fail the mission when it is wordly tools we use to refresh the spirit. Its like that afternoon shot of caffeine…a great jolt of energy¬†and then a long falling to the earth. Our spirit needs protein, just as the body requires in the flesh.

Its in what we put in, when no one is looking.

Blessings All.

Author: Hopeannfaith

Welcome, I'm Andrea ... HOPEannFAITH ... I write and take pictures as a way of expression. These are gifts given by a loving and indulgent Father, to a headstrong and stubborn daughter, with much to say. A semi-retired social worker/secretary, I now call myself a writer. I've published one internet article and written many blog posts. However, publishing does not make one a writer, anymore than taking a box camera to the park makes one a photographer. What makes one who and what they are? Well God for one ... formed me before the foundations of this world (Psalm 139); and many, many years after putting away my passion for wordsmithing and picture taking He gave it back ... in droves. I am a culmination of my choices and experiences. It is here that my experiences color the world in print and color. It is my goal to reach just one soul a day with love ... encouragement ... understanding or just letting that soul know that they are not alone where they are today. This is about creating ~ all of it. Creating a HOLY and SACRED place where the ugly truth can be healed and the beauty of a moment or a tear can brighten a day for the experience. Why HOPEannFAITH? Hopeannfaith is my inner child, and she is maturing, as she should have done all along. She is learning all about how Faith fulfills Hope. She is learning how to live. HOPEannFAITH ~ the wonder twins all wrapped up in one, me. These are my Journey Journals ~ written and visual. I welcome your company. I welcome your friendships. My Journey is in the light ~ although I have and will share the shadowy corners and the dark ~ so you know that you are never alone there. If we hold hands in the dark, and we walk, side by side, through the shadow, we will reach the Light together. In relationship with one another and with the Light. Blessings.

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