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The Truth of Surrender…

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Matthew 16:23-25

 23But he turned, and said unto Peter, Get thee behind me, Satan: thou art an offence unto me: for thou savourest not the things that be of God, but those that be of men.

 24Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me.

 25For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: and whosoever will lose his life for my sake shall find it.

Surrender for Devotion: Oswald Chambers ~ My Utmost for His Highest

” The surrender here is of my self to Jesus, my self with His rest at the heart of it”

To have the rest of God  we must surrender our self  to His will.

” Then the remainder of the life is nothing but the manisfestation of this surrender..”

Surrender is the result of Faith. An understanding that we should only trust that which is imparted to us by God. The ability to trust solely in God, when nothing in the natural appears to be going the way we suppose it should. We are able to surrender our self to God when we understand faith, in it’s fullness. Chambers says that we need no longer “suppose” or question anything in our life when this surrender  has taken place.

We say, as Christians, that we want an unbroken relationship with God. We profess to want to see or seek His face…but do we? Are we willing or even able to make the sacrifices in our lives to truely do this thing? I know we are built to desire this fulfillment, because we all search for this. Even those who are not yet saved are searching to fill this void, they just have not been enligthened yet. Still, are those of us who have even the slightest inkling of what it is we ask, ready to do this thing?

Chambers warns, ” Beware of a surrender which you make to God in ecstacy [a passionate moment with God]; you are apt to take it back again. It is a question [request] of being united with Jesus in His death, until nothing ever appeals to you that did not appeal to Him.”

The thing is God knows the heart of us. He knows when the request is genuine. That is why, often, we believe we have surrendered and then question why nothing seems to have changed in our lives or selves. It is because we have only surrendered in our minds.

Have you surrendered? Has anything changed?

I have been surrendering for about two years now. Things have been revealed, things have been removed. Things that I thought would be restored have been done away with…this was and remains painful. I sought God and wanted restoration with my family [on my terms of course], and I thought this would be done. A restoration occured [within me], but my family ties were severed, as they had to be. Let me clarify. I still have a relationship with my family members, however now, there are boundaries. As much as I wanted what I thought would be parents and siblings that were “normal in behavior”, this could not be done. They were not willing to change in that manner. So Father God turned it to the benefit of the one who sought the reconciliation. Althought the dynamic of the relationship has not changed for them, it has for me. I no longer fret about why they don’t accept me for me, and I am trying to accept them for who they are. Not what I expected at all, upon this request of God.

However, I surrendered.

” After surrender – what?” Chambers goes on…” The whole of the life after surrender is an aspiration for unbroken communion with God.”

To only want the things of God. To have no other ties to this world, except for our temporary exisitance on this earth, at this time. To seek only the Truth as set forth by God the Creator. A rough life choice, I’ll admit, but I have come this far.

I am, by no means, good at this. Each transformation is harder and more painful than the last. I find myself peering inward often, checking myself. Finding at times that I do not recognize myself, and wondering what it is I actually asked God for here.  Yet I realize that what I seek cannot be found outside in the world, nor can it be given me by the man that I cherish, or my lovely sons…My desires have changed. Odd.

I go back, often, into the self of hopeannfaith’s carnal desires, knowing disappointment will prevail. I am, after all, very human. What am I to do?

I press on toward the goal of the promise, as Paul did…Ever looking upward…

Blessings All.

Author: Hopeannfaith

Welcome, I'm Andrea ... HOPEannFAITH ... I write and take pictures as a way of expression. These are gifts given by a loving and indulgent Father, to a headstrong and stubborn daughter, with much to say. A semi-retired social worker/secretary, I now call myself a writer. I've published one internet article and written many blog posts. However, publishing does not make one a writer, anymore than taking a box camera to the park makes one a photographer. What makes one who and what they are? Well God for one ... formed me before the foundations of this world (Psalm 139); and many, many years after putting away my passion for wordsmithing and picture taking He gave it back ... in droves. I am a culmination of my choices and experiences. It is here that my experiences color the world in print and color. It is my goal to reach just one soul a day with love ... encouragement ... understanding or just letting that soul know that they are not alone where they are today. This is about creating ~ all of it. Creating a HOLY and SACRED place where the ugly truth can be healed and the beauty of a moment or a tear can brighten a day for the experience. Why HOPEannFAITH? Hopeannfaith is my inner child, and she is maturing, as she should have done all along. She is learning all about how Faith fulfills Hope. She is learning how to live. HOPEannFAITH ~ the wonder twins all wrapped up in one, me. These are my Journey Journals ~ written and visual. I welcome your company. I welcome your friendships. My Journey is in the light ~ although I have and will share the shadowy corners and the dark ~ so you know that you are never alone there. If we hold hands in the dark, and we walk, side by side, through the shadow, we will reach the Light together. In relationship with one another and with the Light. Blessings.

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