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A Purposed Focus.

I have been moved by many of the devotionals by Oswald Chambers in his book ~  My Utmost for His Highest, this January. Actually January has been a pivotal month here in ’09.

God has move mightily. In my life, in my husband’s life, in our home and marriage! I feel another shift going on inside, all of these areas…it’s a slow moving shift, but a shift just the same. The slow motion shift feels as if it has an embedding effect. This is not just an epiphany, it’s a heart and life change.

 Am I making sense? Well bare with me, please.

It feels permanent, not that God is not a constant permanent in our lives, but He did give us free will. I feel as if I have softened, in that I have been persuaded to determine my life toward God. Hey I keep hearing it’s a process. Ah! But it is not…it is right now. God’s perfect timing is now, especially in reference to all those “attacks” we Christians talk about. Now mind you I believe that a good 90% of the attacks we claim to be from the enemy, are actually us on our own. Now, now. Don’t get defensive, the enemy is in on it, but in our “lack of knowledge” and confusion as to “God’s timing”, we seldom see the part we ourselves play in these attacks. For the most part, we become willing participants in our own dilemmas simply by wavering in our faith and getting ahead of God in our situations. Now, yes God knows we are going to do these things and when we are going to do them. But He will not force Himself on us, or but in when we choose to take care of our own business.

I have altered and altered and adjusted my life, diligently in the last 3 years! It’s been a long 3 years!   =/

I have been losing me and making room for God! !!!!!!!   less of me and More of God!!!

My sponsor/friend and I have been working on focusing and improving ourselves. I get it… to stop seeking a better me is to stagnate and for a person like me that can be like suicide.

However, I need to focus on a better me in reference to God and Christ in me. Each word I get from God, though; from His Word, from a devotional, from a sermon at His altar, screams switch your focus to Me, not you…Me, Christ, God, Father, Holy Spirit…

There fore I find myself dwelling on where the “recovery” programs fit in my God.

I am healed, I am recovered, I am who I am in Christ, it all must fit in Christ. Sometimes I feel like others feel that I am making excuses to avoid the work each program takes. There was a time, however, this is vitally different.

I have given my life to Christ. I find my prayers and conversations with God always contain a request to be in His presence, in His lap, in His arms.

I find myself desiring a platform where I can imagine or dream a setting in which I am having a morning cup of coffee with God, with all three of them really, where I can just engage in getting to know them. Let me be clear, I am reading a Christian novel, The Shack by William P. Young  

 And the book has the feel and platform I just described, but does that matter. Whether the book or I, myself originated that desire, it is now a desire for me. A comfortable, familia-like relationship with the Father. However, I could have, to, gotten the inkling from my current favorite song, Hope Now by Addison Road.

The point is I desire a much closer relationship with God now. And, further more I feel the shift required that will make that a major part of my life! It’s that amazing and just so much more!

So, all of that to get here. Today I read the aforementioned devotional, and I read the one from January 27th, coincidentally my birthday. And once again, It read:

“Take no thought for your life.” Matthew 6:25   Loud and clear if you ask me.

Take no thought for your life, or “Be careful about one thing only, your relationship to me” The Lord says.

Loud and clear!

I must say if nothing else, God is wonderful to me.

So while giving God all of the honor and glory I bid you all Great Blessings.

A Life Changing Read

A Life Changing Read

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Fireproof…Interview with Kirk Cameron

Check it out. Good Movie.

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WordPress creator Mullenweg is many bloggers best friend –





WordPress creator Mullenweg is many bloggers best friend –

Go Matt! My husband brought me this article just now, from work! Take a read.


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The residual anxiety continues to plague me…

On the Hopechest blog I posted a page in “Casting my Burdens upon the LOrd” or whatever title in that realm it is…Burdens or Cares. Aren’t they slightly different things or am I indulging in the Literal-ity of things again. I’m going to write my own dictionary someday…I mean this language has been watered down, diminished and revised to be lesser anyway! Why not make up my own stuff…Webster and Merriam have been rolling in their perspective graves for years with what is contained in their volumes of the word!!!

Anyway, I must focus here!

It’s my birthday…hence the tweety glitter I posted for myself. And I have purposed not, NOT, to allow myself to expect the same old life format as I have always expected. And while focusing on the amazing Hand of God in my life…and I am blessed, I know this. I was blindsided by anxiety attacks, severe ones, yesterday. The only way it could have been worse is if I had been driving, especially with the gas prices these days! LOL.

Anywho! Its my birthday and Don gave me a beautiful card…and he wrote:

“We shall do the Impossible This Year!”

As horrible as I physically and emotionally feel from the anxiety hangover, this is the most wonderful thing I could have received.

My husband, a wonderfully intelligent and gentle man, is also very quiet.  His emotions are always something I am left to define on my own, and I am not good at it. I make up for it in communicating what I am defining this as, so that he can correct me if I am wrong.

A quiet man...says much!

A quiet man...says much!

So as I deal, as quietly as possible, with this anxiety hangover, I will dwell upon my husbands words. Because I love it when he is profound and answers my questions without me having to ask. And what he wrote and the entirety of the card he chose confirms our choices of late, in the Lord. And because the words he gave me for my birthday sound just like these words that I have been enthralled with!:

step out into the Irresistible Future with Him.” ~ Oswald Chambers

Thank you, I think I will.

Blessings to all of you from me to you on my birthday! =)

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White House Politics News – Obama takes presidential oath again after stumble

White House Politics News – Obama takes presidential oath again after stumble.

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God’s Picture Skit

Winterfest 2006 – the same DVD as the Lifehouse Drama, Skit. It can be purchased here:

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