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A Purposed Focus.

I have been moved by many of the devotionals by Oswald Chambers in his book ~  My Utmost for His Highest, this January. Actually January has been a pivotal month here in ’09.

God has move mightily. In my life, in my husband’s life, in our home and marriage! I feel another shift going on inside, all of these areas…it’s a slow moving shift, but a shift just the same. The slow motion shift feels as if it has an embedding effect. This is not just an epiphany, it’s a heart and life change.

 Am I making sense? Well bare with me, please.

It feels permanent, not that God is not a constant permanent in our lives, but He did give us free will. I feel as if I have softened, in that I have been persuaded to determine my life toward God. Hey I keep hearing it’s a process. Ah! But it is not…it is right now. God’s perfect timing is now, especially in reference to all those “attacks” we Christians talk about. Now mind you I believe that a good 90% of the attacks we claim to be from the enemy, are actually us on our own. Now, now. Don’t get defensive, the enemy is in on it, but in our “lack of knowledge” and confusion as to “God’s timing”, we seldom see the part we ourselves play in these attacks. For the most part, we become willing participants in our own dilemmas simply by wavering in our faith and getting ahead of God in our situations. Now, yes God knows we are going to do these things and when we are going to do them. But He will not force Himself on us, or but in when we choose to take care of our own business.

I have altered and altered and adjusted my life, diligently in the last 3 years! It’s been a long 3 years!   =/

I have been losing me and making room for God! !!!!!!!   less of me and More of God!!!

My sponsor/friend and I have been working on focusing and improving ourselves. I get it… to stop seeking a better me is to stagnate and for a person like me that can be like suicide.

However, I need to focus on a better me in reference to God and Christ in me. Each word I get from God, though; from His Word, from a devotional, from a sermon at His altar, screams switch your focus to Me, not you…Me, Christ, God, Father, Holy Spirit…

There fore I find myself dwelling on where the “recovery” programs fit in my God.

I am healed, I am recovered, I am who I am in Christ, it all must fit in Christ. Sometimes I feel like others feel that I am making excuses to avoid the work each program takes. There was a time, however, this is vitally different.

I have given my life to Christ. I find my prayers and conversations with God always contain a request to be in His presence, in His lap, in His arms.

I find myself desiring a platform where I can imagine or dream a setting in which I am having a morning cup of coffee with God, with all three of them really, where I can just engage in getting to know them. Let me be clear, I am reading a Christian novel, The Shack by William P. Young  

 And the book has the feel and platform I just described, but does that matter. Whether the book or I, myself originated that desire, it is now a desire for me. A comfortable, familia-like relationship with the Father. However, I could have, to, gotten the inkling from my current favorite song, Hope Now by Addison Road.

The point is I desire a much closer relationship with God now. And, further more I feel the shift required that will make that a major part of my life! It’s that amazing and just so much more!

So, all of that to get here. Today I read the aforementioned devotional, and I read the one from January 27th, coincidentally my birthday. And once again, It read:

“Take no thought for your life.” Matthew 6:25   Loud and clear if you ask me.

Take no thought for your life, or “Be careful about one thing only, your relationship to me” The Lord says.

Loud and clear!

I must say if nothing else, God is wonderful to me.

So while giving God all of the honor and glory I bid you all Great Blessings.

A Life Changing Read

A Life Changing Read

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Fireproof…Interview with Kirk Cameron

Check it out. Good Movie.

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WordPress creator Mullenweg is many bloggers best friend –





WordPress creator Mullenweg is many bloggers best friend –

Go Matt! My husband brought me this article just now, from work! Take a read.


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The residual anxiety continues to plague me…

On the Hopechest blog I posted a page in “Casting my Burdens upon the LOrd” or whatever title in that realm it is…Burdens or Cares. Aren’t they slightly different things or am I indulging in the Literal-ity of things again. I’m going to write my own dictionary someday…I mean this language has been watered down, diminished and revised to be lesser anyway! Why not make up my own stuff…Webster and Merriam have been rolling in their perspective graves for years with what is contained in their volumes of the word!!!

Anyway, I must focus here!

It’s my birthday…hence the tweety glitter I posted for myself. And I have purposed not, NOT, to allow myself to expect the same old life format as I have always expected. And while focusing on the amazing Hand of God in my life…and I am blessed, I know this. I was blindsided by anxiety attacks, severe ones, yesterday. The only way it could have been worse is if I had been driving, especially with the gas prices these days! LOL.

Anywho! Its my birthday and Don gave me a beautiful card…and he wrote:

“We shall do the Impossible This Year!”

As horrible as I physically and emotionally feel from the anxiety hangover, this is the most wonderful thing I could have received.

My husband, a wonderfully intelligent and gentle man, is also very quiet.  His emotions are always something I am left to define on my own, and I am not good at it. I make up for it in communicating what I am defining this as, so that he can correct me if I am wrong.

A quiet man...says much!

A quiet man...says much!

So as I deal, as quietly as possible, with this anxiety hangover, I will dwell upon my husbands words. Because I love it when he is profound and answers my questions without me having to ask. And what he wrote and the entirety of the card he chose confirms our choices of late, in the Lord. And because the words he gave me for my birthday sound just like these words that I have been enthralled with!:

step out into the Irresistible Future with Him.” ~ Oswald Chambers

Thank you, I think I will.

Blessings to all of you from me to you on my birthday! =)

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White House Politics News – Obama takes presidential oath again after stumble

White House Politics News – Obama takes presidential oath again after stumble.

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God’s Picture Skit

Winterfest 2006 – the same DVD as the Lifehouse Drama, Skit. It can be purchased here:

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In God’s Protection!

Yesterday was like any other day, really. I picked up my friend and we were going to work at our church. I’m the secretary and she volunteers. The only difference about today was the awesome Word of God spoken and prayed over us the night before and the soft, dry and swirling snow.  I posted her recollections, her testamony e-mail here.

This is mine:

I picked up PO and actually we were pretty quiet this morning. Quite unlike us, except for of late. God has been working actively in both our lives and we have periods of quiet in each other’s company which is quiet peaceful and comfortable. This was one of those times, as I recall it, PO remembers us discussing and laughing about something ~ I distinctly remember thinking about how quiet we were this morning as I turned onto Beach Blvd. ~ whatever?

I drove as usual toward route 9, probably doing about 40 mph. I probably should have been driving slower but the roads were not bad and the snow was drifting over the road lightly in the wind, not sticking. My car has ABS as well and I am a seasoned winter driver, I was secure in all of this.

As I came around the familiar blind bend the backend fishtailed, at first it felt managable and I remember myself says [maybe I thought] ooohhh!  And then the car was all over the road! Having driven for years in horrendous weather I managed to do everything wrong this day! OF COURSE!

I tried to break ~ duh~ and I did not pump the breaks either! So the car began to spin, as that is what would happen.

Now this is where PO’s and my recollections agree:

Everything went into slow motion. I remember thinking “My God ! we are spinning!”, but not feeling fear or panic. Like normal people would. I had the sensation of spinning in a bubble {I call this God’s bubble, I’ve experienced this before!} of calm. I just remember feeling a bit disoriented until I realized we were spinning and then I focused. I saw fences and mailboxes close by as I spun what I believe was the 3rd circle ~ then suddenly I was gliding backward in a straight line, on an angle. This is when I realized I was landing the car in the yard of that last mailbox and it’s house! The properties on Beach Blvd. are all close knit little bungalows, beach houses from the 30’s through the ’50’s and the frontages of these properties was very small!

I said out loud “Thank you Jesus!” , just as PO said “Okay God you got this!”. I then hit the edge of the properties lawn covered in leaves dusted with snow. I put the break to the floor and thought ” God stop this car!”, I thought I had said this out loud, but I don’t think so. You’d have to ask PO. Anyway, God did what I asked and the car came to a rest with PO and I looking down the road, east again.

PO had me pull up a bit so she could check for damage. Nothing but leaves on the bumper. I knew I had not hit anything. I also knew that God had secured that not me!


Just tire tracks in the leaves and snow. Thank God for fallen leaves, I may never allow my yard to be raked again! LOL!  Those leaves saved PO and I and someone’s home! Not to mention the 3′ stump that God parked my car against, like the softest kiss you’ve ever experienced. Just the sensation of a touch, nothing more!

Aside from the roller coaster sensation PO and I felt nothing negative. We were strangely calm and at peace. We both know this sensation, as well, it is the Peace of God beyond your understanding! PO prayed over the car as we pulled out ~ I prayed quietly, in agreement, I think she prayed Psalm 91:11, you can check her version that I posted ~ after the now present traffic (4 cars east and 2 west) going east to turn around and head back. Stopping only for the appropriate road signs and traffic lights. Oh and WAWA, PO wanted a coffee, where we ran into Bill and Scott. While leaving we prayed ~ the same way~ God’s protection over all of our friends and families.

The most amazing thing, aside from watching God’s hand move in my defense??? Would be no traffic on Beach Blvd. at 9:15 AM !! That is unheard of ~ really! ask anyone! No traffic on Beach Blvd. could trigger the second coming!

I know that I am blessed! I know that I am safe from all harm!

Part of the Word spoken over my husband and I the night before rings in my spirit…

” You have already experienced the Hand of God in your lives, you have experienced how He works in your life…there is so MUCH MORE! It is time to step out and do the things you have thought impossible, undoable in your lives ~ DARE, God says DARE TO…”

So I am more excited to … step out into the Irresistible Future with Him.” ~ Oswald Chambers


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God is doing something BIG!!!

My husband and I have been on a fast since the beginning of the year. It’s a God thing. It’s a unity thing. The results are becoming quite evident though. Very evident.

Let me tell you, we’ve fasted before and been successful…for 21 Days! Seriously!

At that time my husband did a total liquid fast. He only had soup and boost when absolutely necessary, and the soup was tomato type. No solid food.

I did a liquid Daniel fast, whole fruit and vegetable drinks, with a boost when the need for protein made itself evident.

That fast went fairly easily, after the first week or so we did fine.


This fast, is a one week First Fruits Fast…giving ourselves to fasting and prayer for 2009.

Oh man ! I am hungry! I really don’t remember this kind of hunger taking me to prayer the last fast. With each hunger pang I pray what is on my heart…faith, hope, prosperity, unity, people etc.

Yesterday, my day was way too unstructured!  Once again on a Daniel Fast  had a baked potatoe with broccoli with mushrooms…I was just surfing around on the internet, not being productive at all, when I decided I wanted to eat something. I decided to wait a bit longer and went into the bathroom for something when I had a thought. I should say the Holy Spirit spoke up and asked are you hungry? The answer was no! The urge to eat something immediately subsided! I stood looking in the mirror amazed.

Now, I confessed here before that I hear the voice of God audibly. And I will admit here, again, that I believe I am blessed this way because of my brick of a head! Often the voice has been scolding and loud! (:

The voice was so crystal clear this time! Like this…crystal clear sound…

Crystal Clear Voice of the King

Crystal Clear Voice of the King


It was amazing…I thought I had been blessed with His voice before…this was dynamic and comforting in the same breath!

I was not hungry.

Now, I have been focusing on my Health and Finances with God.   So suddenly I realize.

I have not suffered with breathing problems for a couple of weeks now.

Glory to God!

 My leg aches and pains at night have all but disappeared. 

Praise God!

 My recent and intense neck, shoulder and arm pain are gone too.

Thank you Father for your faithfulness to me!

That (the neck, arm and shoulder) was because I listened finally to the Holy Spirit…Pain Gone! 

So I know that I know that God is doing a HUGE thing here. It is absolutely incredible. So regardless of what I hear, see or feel…

Proverbs 3:4-6 


 4 Then you will win favor and a good name
       in the sight of God and man.

 5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
       and lean not on your own understanding;

 6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
       and he will make your paths straight.

I will not lean on my own understanding!

To once again quote my favorite Devotional ~ Oswald Chambers:

I will continue to “step out into the Irresistible Future with Him.”




January 2009 is Mega Memory Month!

Mega Memory Month  



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This month I plan to memorize Philippians 1 ~ the whole Chapter!

Philippians 1

I’ve memorized scripture, both from revelation from God the Father and for Bible School! A whole chapter though…we will see. I am excited!

So here we go…I am a day late in beginning…I did try to talk myself out of this task. I do think it will be fun!

Philippians 1

 1Paul and Timothy, servants of Christ Jesus,
      To all the saints in Christ Jesus at Philippi, together with the overseers and deacons:

 2Grace and peace to you from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ.

Thanksgiving and Prayer

 3I thank my God every time I remember you. 4In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy 5because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, 6being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

 7It is right for me to feel this way about all of you, since I have you in my heart; for whether I am in chains or defending and confirming the gospel, all of you share in God’s grace with me. 8God can testify how I long for all of you with the affection of Christ Jesus.

 9And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, 10so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ, 11filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ—to the glory and praise of God.

Paul’s Chains Advance the Gospel

 12Now I want you to know, brothers, that what has happened to me has really served to advance the gospel. 13As a result, it has become clear throughout the whole palace guard and to everyone else that I am in chains for Christ. 14Because of my chains, most of the brothers in the Lord have been encouraged to speak the word of God more courageously and fearlessly.

 15It is true that some preach Christ out of envy and rivalry, but others out of goodwill. 16The latter do so in love, knowing that I am put here for the defense of the gospel. 17The former preach Christ out of selfish ambition, not sincerely, supposing that they can stir up trouble for me while I am in chains. 18But what does it matter? The important thing is that in every way, whether from false motives or true, Christ is preached. And because of this I rejoice.

   Yes, and I will continue to rejoice, 19for I know that through your prayers and the help given by the Spirit of Jesus Christ, what has happened to me will turn out for my deliverance. 20I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. 21For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. 22If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know! 23I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; 24but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body. 25Convinced of this, I know that I will remain, and I will continue with all of you for your progress and joy in the faith, 26so that through my being with you again your joy in Christ Jesus will overflow on account of me.

 27Whatever happens, conduct yourselves in a manner worthy of the gospel of Christ. Then, whether I come and see you or only hear about you in my absence, I will know that you stand firm in one spirit, contending as one man for the faith of the gospel 28without being frightened in any way by those who oppose you. This is a sign to them that they will be destroyed, but that you will be saved—and that by God. 29For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe on him, but also to suffer for him, 30since you are going through the same struggle you saw I had, and now hear that I still have.