God has move mightily. In my life, in my husband’s life, in our home and marriage! I feel another shift going on inside, all of these areas…it’s a slow moving shift, but a shift just the same. The slow motion shift feels as if it has an embedding effect. This is not just an epiphany, it’s a heart and life change.
Am I making sense? Well bare with me, please.
It feels permanent, not that God is not a constant permanent in our lives, but He did give us free will. I feel as if I have softened, in that I have been persuaded to determine my life toward God. Hey I keep hearing it’s a process. Ah! But it is not…it is right now. God’s perfect timing is now, especially in reference to all those “attacks” we Christians talk about. Now mind you I believe that a good 90% of the attacks we claim to be from the enemy, are actually us on our own. Now, now. Don’t get defensive, the enemy is in on it, but in our “lack of knowledge” and confusion as to “God’s timing”, we seldom see the part we ourselves play in these attacks. For the most part, we become willing participants in our own dilemmas simply by wavering in our faith and getting ahead of God in our situations. Now, yes God knows we are going to do these things and when we are going to do them. But He will not force Himself on us, or but in when we choose to take care of our own business.
I have altered and altered and adjusted my life, diligently in the last 3 years! It’s been a long 3 years! =/
I have been losing me and making room for God! !!!!!!! less of me and More of God!!!
My sponsor/friend and I have been working on focusing and improving ourselves. I get it… to stop seeking a better me is to stagnate and for a person like me that can be like suicide.
However, I need to focus on a better me in reference to God and Christ in me. Each word I get from God, though; from His Word, from a devotional, from a sermon at His altar, screams switch your focus to Me, not you…Me, Christ, God, Father, Holy Spirit…
There fore I find myself dwelling on where the “recovery” programs fit in my God.
I am healed, I am recovered, I am who I am in Christ, it all must fit in Christ. Sometimes I feel like others feel that I am making excuses to avoid the work each program takes. There was a time, however, this is vitally different.
I have given my life to Christ. I find my prayers and conversations with God always contain a request to be in His presence, in His lap, in His arms.
I find myself desiring a platform where I can imagine or dream a setting in which I am having a morning cup of coffee with God, with all three of them really, where I can just engage in getting to know them. Let me be clear, I am reading a Christian novel, The Shack by William P. Young
And the book has the feel and platform I just described, but does that matter. Whether the book or I, myself originated that desire, it is now a desire for me. A comfortable, familia-like relationship with the Father. However, I could have, to, gotten the inkling from my current favorite song, Hope Now by Addison Road.
The point is I desire a much closer relationship with God now. And, further more I feel the shift required that will make that a major part of my life! It’s that amazing and just so much more!
So, all of that to get here. Today I read the aforementioned devotional, and I read the one from January 27th, coincidentally my birthday. And once again, It read:
“Take no thought for your life.” Matthew 6:25 Loud and clear if you ask me.
Take no thought for your life, or “Be careful about one thing only, your relationship to me” The Lord says.
Loud and clear!
I must say if nothing else, God is wonderful to me.
So while giving God all of the honor and glory I bid you all Great Blessings.