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                                                                                                            Psalm 139:14-16

14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.



15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.


Psalm 142:2-4


2 I pour out my complaint before him;
before him I tell my trouble.



3 When my spirit grows faint within me,
it is you who know my way.
In the path where I walk
men have hidden a snare for me.

4 Look to my right and see;
no one is concerned for me.
I have no refuge;

no one cares for my life.


Psalm 119:10-12



10 I seek you with all my heart;
do not let me stray from your commands.

11 I have hidden your word in my heart
that I might not sin against you.

12 Praise be to you, O LORD;
teach me your decrees.


Here I am again, dealing with yet another hidden layer of anger. It has been an incredibly difficult couple of weeks. Somethings are in physical disarray, like we are doing an office move at work. What looks like too many chiefs and not enough indians is causing misunderstandings and some outright rudeness.

God continues to bless me with scripture at the beginning of my days to stand up to what I face. It appears that my issues revolve around what I think is correct in what others are doing or not doing. And definately in the areas of respect and courtesy on the part of other people. It is about integrity.

Other things are in intellectual and emotional disarray. Apparently moving is an issue for me…can you say CHANGE? 

At home things have been tense, as well. Yet I remained in the word and listened for God and my family (sons) found favor. Both have job opportunities after months of unemployment. This is awesome. Some legal things that were looming in one of their lives was resolved in a manner in which  was requested in prayer. Favor.

Regardless of what I am seeing God has this in hand. And I know this in my Spirit. I am really blessed this way.

Yet what I see still causes my flesh, my being to rise up in what I see as righteous indignation!  But is it righteous? I don’t know.

All I know is that the last time I got this fatigued from frustration God broke something in me…so I am expecting a breakthrough of some kind, of a huge kind. This much frustration, when conquered, usually means big blessings. I am expecting.

So what I gleened from these scriptures that God gave me three days ago is this: God knows who I am, and knows what it is I am going to do in each situation. It is God alone who knows my way when I become frustrated in my walk…and it is always God alone I seek when I get this way.

So I put on my garment of Praise and honor my God, regardless of this current layer of rage I am physically feeling. God removes what He reveals, I understand…I just wonder just how much rage actually resides within me. How I long for this part to be completed.


Author: Hopeannfaith

Welcome, I'm Andrea ... HOPEannFAITH ... I write and take pictures as a way of expression. These are gifts given by a loving and indulgent Father, to a headstrong and stubborn daughter, with much to say. A semi-retired social worker/secretary, I now call myself a writer. I've published one internet article and written many blog posts. However, publishing does not make one a writer, anymore than taking a box camera to the park makes one a photographer. What makes one who and what they are? Well God for one ... formed me before the foundations of this world (Psalm 139); and many, many years after putting away my passion for wordsmithing and picture taking He gave it back ... in droves. I am a culmination of my choices and experiences. It is here that my experiences color the world in print and color. It is my goal to reach just one soul a day with love ... encouragement ... understanding or just letting that soul know that they are not alone where they are today. This is about creating ~ all of it. Creating a HOLY and SACRED place where the ugly truth can be healed and the beauty of a moment or a tear can brighten a day for the experience. Why HOPEannFAITH? Hopeannfaith is my inner child, and she is maturing, as she should have done all along. She is learning all about how Faith fulfills Hope. She is learning how to live. HOPEannFAITH ~ the wonder twins all wrapped up in one, me. These are my Journey Journals ~ written and visual. I welcome your company. I welcome your friendships. My Journey is in the light ~ although I have and will share the shadowy corners and the dark ~ so you know that you are never alone there. If we hold hands in the dark, and we walk, side by side, through the shadow, we will reach the Light together. In relationship with one another and with the Light. Blessings.

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