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Fearfully and Wonderfully Made

Fearfully and Wonderfully Made

I’m coming off of several weeks of ciaos.

At work (Church) we moved the offices upstairs…spent a few weeks that felt incredibly unproductive. During which the church hosted it’s 1st Antique Car and Truck Show, held a Women’s Conference and has our favorite traveling Minister in for 2 weeks!!!

We literally had 2 weeks of Sunday! Actually this is a wonderfully Spirit filled time…yet it is incredibly exhausting as God does surgery within!

I’ve been in God’s surgery suite for several years now. You younger readers start now, is my educated advice. After 40 years of garbage cluttering and infecting my Spirit, Body and Mind, the surgery appears, on the surface ,to be quite debilitating. In the end it is worth every cut and stitch…however, during the process that is hard to see!

Coming off of all of these God centered activitites I have been filled, refreshed, renewed and blessed. God graciously confirmed, daily, within these events, that I am on track with what He is doing in me. I say “in me”  because it is literally my “self” that He is transforming. The rest of my life, apparently, follows quite obediently!

Apparently, I have graduated from dealing with my emotions and mental state, and to focusing on my physical health.

For many years I completely ignored that my weight issues were a health problem and that they were, in fact, a result of the emotional and mental malady. Even as a seasoned social worker I was able to deny that I had these issues. Basically I simply ignored it! Proof that we live daily under the Grace of God!

I say this because I am literally morbidly obese at this moment, and that is a definate health issue! You can read my article here, along with other articles in the same title.

God revealed to me at the age of 40-ish that I had to deal with the emo-mental  [ a new word for my dictionary 🙂 ], first, to be equipped for my calling and ministry. Still don’t know what the ministry is, but know the callings! Hey, I’m blessed like that! Yet, still I was able to ignor the physical, figuring if God was going to focus on the emo-mental,that the physical was not an issue. Further proof that my humanity can even cloud what God is doing directly in me!!! Can anyone say Grace?

Recently, somewhere in the past several weeks of ciaos, I realized my emo-mental was healed. I WAS WHOLE!!! I felt the Holy Spirit bubble up…like a boil, nothing soft and complacent goes on in me! The Holy Spirit has a distinct personality in me, a full and rolling boil

The Holy Spirit in me...

The Holy Spirit in me...

Still better than that, I clearly know that the boiling sensation has healing properties. In the last months time I have felt this sensation constantly, and with each beat of my heart I can feel it more intensly. The revelation came, somewhere in the ciaos, that as my heart beats the Blood of Christ reaches ever part of my body with healing! How awesome is that revelation? With each beat of my heart I feel (physically) the presence of the Spirit; John 14:25-27

The Gift of His Peace 25 “These things I have spoken to you while being present with you. 26 But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all things that I said to you. 27 Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

Reminding me and healing me with all God has given me in my meager 8-ish years of obedience!  And if anyone thinks that I was, somehow, superobedient every second of that 8 years, I ask you to open your eyes! Not one of us is obedient, even unto the Lord, at all times! He knows He made us human, and our humanity is a daily battle. Knowing thought that by The Christ we have victory over this battle, daily, makes for a quick win each morning. These days, it was not always like this for me. Be encouraged though, knowing that if God will do these things for me, they are already done for you!

So there you are. I am working on my Quest of Healing, with the best trainer available! He is with me each day, we talk, we plan and we enjoy the company of one another with no stress or condemnation in the relationship.

I feel great today! And there are things of loss and sorrow going on in my life! There are many things that are happening that are would have totalled me, devestated my being. God has alerted me in the ways that I hear Him. Devotional, waking me and bring to my spirit, in His comforting voice that things are going to be a bit hard for a time. Always faithful to let me know that I know that He is with me at every corner. That He has gone ahead and prepared things so that I will not be harmed in what it is I have to encounter. This gives me peace and the courage to face those things and those people who are going to be in my path.

I thank my Lord and Savior right now for His faithful and skilled hand. I am grateful and humbled that the All Mighty God takes the time to give me the heads up, while the comfort of the The Holy Spirit boils up within me! So in this time of transition and transformation, this time of loss and sorrow, I will strive to have a conscience without offense toward God and Man. Acts 24:16

In Jesus Name.Amen.

Finding joy in my relationship with God, in my circumstances.

Psalm 42:10-11            

10 My adversaries taunt me,
    as if crushing my bones,
    while all day long they say to me,
    “Where is your God?” 

11 Why am I so depressed?
    Why this turmoil within me?
    Put your hope in God, for I will still praise Him,
    my Savior and my God.

I will praise Him, I will sing Praises to my Savior and my God!



Author: Hopeannfaith

Welcome, I'm Andrea ... HOPEannFAITH ... I write and take pictures as a way of expression. These are gifts given by a loving and indulgent Father, to a headstrong and stubborn daughter, with much to say. A semi-retired social worker/secretary, I now call myself a writer. I've published one internet article and written many blog posts. However, publishing does not make one a writer, anymore than taking a box camera to the park makes one a photographer. What makes one who and what they are? Well God for one ... formed me before the foundations of this world (Psalm 139); and many, many years after putting away my passion for wordsmithing and picture taking He gave it back ... in droves. I am a culmination of my choices and experiences. It is here that my experiences color the world in print and color. It is my goal to reach just one soul a day with love ... encouragement ... understanding or just letting that soul know that they are not alone where they are today. This is about creating ~ all of it. Creating a HOLY and SACRED place where the ugly truth can be healed and the beauty of a moment or a tear can brighten a day for the experience. Why HOPEannFAITH? Hopeannfaith is my inner child, and she is maturing, as she should have done all along. She is learning all about how Faith fulfills Hope. She is learning how to live. HOPEannFAITH ~ the wonder twins all wrapped up in one, me. These are my Journey Journals ~ written and visual. I welcome your company. I welcome your friendships. My Journey is in the light ~ although I have and will share the shadowy corners and the dark ~ so you know that you are never alone there. If we hold hands in the dark, and we walk, side by side, through the shadow, we will reach the Light together. In relationship with one another and with the Light. Blessings.

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