This morning I woke up feeling down. When I think about it, this downward feeling began sometime yesterday. With many things going on physically, emotionally and of course just the day to day things, I can lose track of my joy. I imagine many of you know what I mean.
All of Easter week joy built up and it’s tide rose within me right on through Resurrection Sunday. I was joyful, excited and strong. Yes, I felt an immense sense of strength. All things were well, better than well, joyful.
I was ending my beverage fast; which I did successfully. Even now 2 days later I have only had 1 cup of coffee. 🙂 I must admit it was wonderful, but I desire tea now, not coffee. A fast 21 days or longer will change you lifestyle in regard to your fast choices, that is proved here. I was writing, even though it was/is primarily poetry, which doesn’t happen to be as lucrative. However, each poetry form I learned, yes learned, was inspired by the Spirit of God. Each poem was powerful, pointed out by my writing peers, and I trust them.
So the joy of the LORD most definitely delivered strength.
Now, back to the day to day, I must be mindful of my emotions and words.
As I pointed out, we have had the reinforcement of what our words effect in our lives taught @ the River. I have had friends point out that this is old teachings; for me it was a good review and there was new revelation, as well. I got much out of the teaching/preaching. Of course I am obedient that even if I find these teachings tedious there must be something in them the Lord requires me to hear.
This morning’s tea with God was quiet and not as exciting as I would have liked. Obediently, I went into yesterday’s devotions and last Wednesday’s sermon to find something to go on today. As easy as God makes my time with Him, and his tone for the day, sometimes my flesh doesn’t find the ease in His presence. These are odd times, now, and I must admit that I don’t like them.
I do not like when my flesh takes over. It has a defined heaviness to it, a sense of malaise. Blessedly I now feel it instantly and wonder how I ever carried that for almost 40 years! Think about it; before you learned to hand the day to day stressers and the full on crisis’ to God; you carried that weight. Is it any wonder I am obese?
April 7, 2010
I have returned. I had to leave for work yesterday morning before I completed this. I had every intention of finishing when I returned home, alas I could not. The day to day took hold and ran away with my day…and my good intentions! 🙂
I find myself, again, in this sense of unease. Much of it is physical, however, much of it feels like a roadblock, spiritually. I desire forward movement in this transition our church is going through. My human nature wants answers, solutions and the plan. Yet the powers that be are not being forthcoming as yet. So I sit quietly, pondering the possibilities, knowing that I will be moved forward in God’s time.
I am going on the teachings of late. Minding what comes out of my mouth. Taking each thought captive and that is tedious as I am one to attempt to analyze all possibilities in a situation. Fully knowing that I am imagining far worse than could occur. So I reign in and capture these thoughts to give to God.
So I continue today to tap into the strength that God provides for me. I will trust God. This is His church, and His children, and His plan for us is Hope, Prosperity and Unity. He does not forsake us, even when we feel that He is far away.
I pray as David prayed; and when I am unable I pray in the Spirit. He takes my petitions and concerns straight to Father, explaining me, my condition perfectly to Father.
I am reminded of the scripture from a day or so ago. Romans 8:38
Nothing can seperate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life; neither angels or demons; not our fears for today or our worries about tomorrow. Not even the powers of Hell can seperate us from God’s love.
So no matter my current mood or condition God remains here with me. Waiting for me to stop letting the day to day and the unknown distract me from His plan.
I leave you, now, with this post completed. Hoping it is cohesive enough to minister to someone. Let me know how you deal with the day to day and your distractions. What tools do you use to return to the path God has for you. Lets get to know each other. This journey home is more enjoyable when we go together.
David prayed: “Grant me Your strength” Ps 86:16 and “God arms me with strength” Ps 18:32
I leave you to go to prayer with my focus for today: ” I love You O’LORD, my strength. O’ my strength, I will sing praises to You, for God, You are my stronghold, the God who shows me lovingkindness.” Ps 18:1 & 59:17
Blessings Loves…enjoy the taste of summer we are having here at the Jersey Shore….☼