♥ Hi there! It’s been a month since I last posted! Sorry about that! There is a good, well particially good reason.
In my quest for health I got ill.
You see, when you pray for God to search you and your heart is right, he does. If He sees that you are ready to move on a change that is necessary he then honors your request. I must have been ready.
On June 1st., I attended our Ladies Bible Study. I almost did not go due to fear, no panic. I had been having increasing difficulty breathing and being in my upstairs rooms and bathrooms worsened it. We don’t have airconditioning in our home, so the 2nd floor is naturally more hot and humid, especially when showering.
I had often battled the fear that I would one day not be able to shower because of the breathing issues. Well, I am here to tell you that fear, even unspoken, will manifest itself! I was taking a shower to prepare for bible study and I got to a point when I could no longer breath adequately. I quickly rinsed off and got out and put on my robe…I called to my son, who did not hear me, and I became more frightened.
Very frightened and angry that this was occuring I began to cry and pray to calm myself. It took awhile. I dressed and returned downstairs. I called my trusty “won’t let me off the hook” friend and told her what was happening, in tears of course. I was waffling on going to bible study. However, I knew that if I gave in and stayed home that would be a dire mistake. I just knew that I knew that that particular decision was a milestone. So I called JR, and she offered to pick me up.
Bible study was positive and uplifting, as it always is. I shared with the group, briefly, what had happened when prayer request time came around and I asked for prayer. The ladies made their views clear and I promised to call my physician in the morning. I had been avoiding this for a very long time because I have no health insurance! Prayer time came and went and we went home.
My husband was aware of the situation because he was actually my first phone call. Being that he does not “believe” in doctors he does not push me to see one if I don’t pursue it. However, he does not block me either, so he told me to keep my promise and call the doc. I wanted to see him, because of the no insurance thing, but knew there was a possibility he would tell me to go to the ER.
The next morning, after a night of laying my hands on and praying that my body line up with the word of God, I felt better, much better. I kept my promise though. Just as I thought the doc told me to go to the ER, because the symptoms I described could be heart, lung or kidney related and I would have to have tests that were expensive and the ER was the best route, unfortunately. So I went.
Here is why I’ve been gone for so long…
I was admitted to the hospital for…get this!…Hypertensive Heart Disease and Congestive Heart Failure with Pneumonia! Quite the mouth full. Now remember how frightened I was in the shower??? While I was not happy with the diagnosis, I was also not frightened by it! So I was either in a state of grace or the peace of God, or both.
I’m starting to believe they are the same place! 🙂
I was in the hospital for the better part of 5 days, and on light activity for 2 weeks. Multiple medications and frustration left me not allowed to drive for 2 weeks. I was required to weigh myself each morning, at the same time, with the instructions to return to the hospital if I gain 2 pounds in one day or 5 pounds in a week. I also am to watch my fluid intake…no more than a liter a day. Oh! And NO salt, ehhhh! Daunting and worrisome, I was happy to be home.
Each day I have lost a pound, of water weight, of course. With only a few days where I was faced with a bit of gain, however not outside of the rules. I had my 7 day follow up with my regular doc, who agrees with the instructions. With a few notes. On very hot and humid days fluid intake is necessary, so I am to be watchful but drink when thirsty. And to call Deborah Heart and Lung Center for my Cardiac follow up, as they are ability to pay! No bills.
The two weeks were long and I have had bouts of depression. Mostly due to the limitations. I have fought it with prayer, but I didn’t do any writing, blogging or any of my usual productive things. I love to write and take pictures…didn’t feel like it. I have been tired, asleep and emotional. It is frustrating at the least.
The one thing I have not forsaken was Church. Even sitting, in the beginning, the Praise and Worship and the Word have fed my spirit. As many of my readers know my church is changing Pastors and location. These things are firming up and I am excited about the newness and the forward movement! We are going to the next level as a church, while my Spiritual Parents step out into the new ministries God has for them.
I’m doing well. Soon, I look forward to the prize of being myself again, just a bit less salty. Oh and thinner! Did I say I’ve lost 30 pounds in about a month. People do not try this at home with out medical assistance! Of course it’s water weight, but hey, here’s hoping that my obesity is connected and as much weight as possible be removed by these means! : D
I’d like to leave you with a few scripture I have been using and have prayed before and during this. In fact a devotional from Proverbs 31 Ministries I recieved on June 14th, while I was in a bout of depression I might add, confirmed that this diagnosis of mine and the medical treatment plan were due to the prayer I had been praying for months, for God to remove anything within my body that was not working for or fruitful for the Kingdom of God! ** JUST A SHOUT OUT HERE TO MY FATHER GOD FOR HIS FAITHFULNESS TO ME!!! ALL THE GLORY IS HIS!**
The prayer I had been, and still am, praying for months prior to this health issue was very similiar to the scripture in the devotional highlighted above.
“Search me [thoroughly], O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there is any wicked or hurtful way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.” Psalm 139:23-24 (Amplified)
I had spent many a prayer time asking God to remove the wicked or hurtful things in me…who knew, like the lady in the devotional it would be such a dire diagnosis?
Praying scripture is infallible! Just as the Word itself tells us God’s Word is infallible.
“But you are a shield around me O LORD; You bestow glory on me and lift up my head.” Psalm 3:3
David cried out to God to be his shield. That is good enough for me! God is ultimately the one who lifts our heads up away from our current circumstances. When we cry out, God answers.
“Make thankfulness your sacrifice to God…then call on Me when you are in trouble; I will rescue you, and you will give me glory.” Psalm 50:14-15
There is great value, importance and powerfulness in our praise and worship to God. Our praises are powerful enough to neutralize all of the adversary’s forces. Because…
“God inhabits the praises of His people.” Psalm 22:3
Are you seeking God’s presence in your crisis, as I did? Take it from me the fastest response and entrance into the presence of God is praise. Verbal, outloud declarations of His positive and faithful presence in your life!
Praise is seeking the Kingdom of God…Prayer is seeking the Kingdom of God…and afterward all these things will be given to you!
Blessings Love and Be Well! ♥