As I come closer to my follow-up Cardiac appointment, the battle against fear has intensified. Angry, because I have always enjoyed a firm fearlessness in most areas of life, I am faced with battling confusion, as well.
I won’t go into and give voice to my exact fears, again, but they rose to the surface when my Pastor, Santhosh asked how I was. Feeling weak and even silly, I confessed my fears, while in front of a friend, I trust without reserve, and my oldest son.
First we prayed beginning with 2 Timothy 1:7…For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. I stayed still, quiet and in agreement, I absorbed the requests and declarations over me, while they layed hands on me. All in agreement. My pastor went on to pray over me, reminding God of promises and things He has said in regard to the lives of His children. Like many I cannot recall exactly what was prayed or said, as I was absorbing the presence of God that comes when 2 or more are in agreement! I allowed God to wash a moment of peace over me…
Then Pastor Santhosh shared how he handles a worrisome situation in his life…He told me, us, that he looks toward the character of God. This resonated because throughout my week I had been forcing myself to focus on God and had written or rewritten a couple of verses, in simpler terms, that related directly to the character of God. Some of you may have read them…
What Pastor Santhosh said was; “this is just one of the Characters of God” and he opened the bible to Psalm 91; which I have rewritten into a personal prayer format. Which Pastor actually told us he did with the end of the chapter.
Before you read the entire chapter in prayer form. Consider what Pastor revealed to me, us.
Psalm 91: 14-16
“Because he loves me,” says the LORD, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
~ imagine this! El Shaddai, the All Sufficient One, will rescue me, YOU, because we love Him. Because we acknowledge who He is to us, He protects us. That is it…all we must do! Love and Acknowledge who God is.
15 He will call upon me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
~ The All in All answers me, You!, simply because we call His name. He stands beside us when we are in trouble and He, God Almighty will deliver us, and Honor Me, YOU! Just because we call on Him in our times of trouble!
16 With long life will I satisfy him
and show him my salvation.”
~ and after all of that, as if it were not enough! God, our Father, provides me, You, with a satisfying life and His Salvation!
All of this soothed my fear. I am not saying the battle is over, but I am saying, what I knew in my head is now dropping into my Spirit. With this new shift of revelation, I am realizing what I have stood on for many years; Exodus 14:14 “God will fight for me and I will keep my peace.” has another level.
God will fight my battles, against the adversary, if I quiet my fears with obedience to His Word. If I remember to call upon His name, His might! Like this scripture says Zecheriah 4:6 ‘ Not by might nor by power, but by My Spirit,’ Says the LORD of hosts.
I am tremendously grateful to have been given such a caring and Godly Pastor ! I thank God that He has provided us with this Man to shepard us forward in the kingdom. I am thankful for my friend, who can be trusted with praying for any area of my life, according to the will and Word of God, at any time and for my son, a God fearing man himself, who obediently prayed with us.
So like the last two blog posts, this is what I was lead to do in my after church studies today. The study of Psalm 91 lead me to the desire to define the particular character and name of our God, El Shaddai. Then I was lead to put Psalm 91 into a simple personal prayer format. Psalm 91’s author is unknown, but believed to be Moses, and the text of the psalm indicates that this is written by one who knew God intimately and had practiced what he preached in the scriptures. It is safe, it is thought, to believe that Moses was indeed the author of Psalm 91 as he experienced these things.
Like all of these things I am lead to share, I believe if I need it, there are others who have need of it as well. This is all about obedience, to what God leads me to share and do. As well as the sharing of the Good News with those who are searching for Who I have been blessed to know better and better each and every day!
I am 8 years in the LORD…just a child, come let me introduce you to my friend, my Dad, our Father!
Let me show you Jesus.
You who sit down in the High God’s presence, spend the night in El Shaddai’s shadow,
Say this: “God, you’re my refuge. I trust in you and I’m safe!”
Repeat after me and Believe and Receive this…
He rescues ME from hidden traps, shields ME from deadly hazards. His huge outstretched arms protect ME— under them I AM perfectly safe; his arms fend off all harm.
I Fear nothing—not wild wolves in the night, not flying arrows in the day,
NOT DISEASE THAT PROWLS THROUGH THE DARKNESS, not disaster that erupts at high noon.
Even though others succumb all around, drop like flies right and left, no harm will even graze ME.
I WILL stand untouched, I WILL watch it all from a distance, watch the wicked turn into corpses.
Yes, because God is MY refuge, the High God MY very own home, evil cannot get close to ME, harm cannot get through MY door.
He ordered his angels to guard ME wherever I go. If I stumble, they’ll catch ME; their job is to keep ME from falling. I WILL walk unharmed among lions and snakes, and kick young lions and serpents from the path.
~This Psalm ends with a personal note to us from Father God; a loving father to his child…
If you will hold onto me for dear life, I will get you out of any and all trouble, big or small. I will give you the very best of care, if only you will get to know and trust Me. Call Me, at any and all times, I WILL answer you, I WILL be at your side in the worst times; I WILL rescue you, then I WILL celebrate over you, the victory. I WILL GIVE you a long life and a long drink of SALVATION!
Blessing Loves, again…All Manner of Blessings, say the LORD, Your God! 😉