“Let My Words be Few” Thursday
Here at HOPEannFaith I am challenging myself to be concise in my writing, and I invite you to join me. It is my hope to write spirit filled, inspirational posts touching our Spirits, not just our minds and flesh. I also hope this will improve my writing skill set, while deepening my spiritual walk.
If you would like to join me in this challenge simply leave me a link to you ‘Let My Words be Few’ blog post or simply leave your post in the comments, and I will link your post into mine for that week.Your post can be about anything positive! The goal is to be inspirational while using the fewest words. You can see I’m still working on that, so there is NO word count requirement.
You may use the Thursday if you like, but it is not a link…I don’t know how to do that! 🙂 I’m a writer not a techie! Just manually link the picture to my blog from yours and we will be good to go, and your readers will be able to join us.
Thanks for reading Loves! I welcome the company.
Blessings Loves, ♥
Yet, I have worked against feeling this guilt, as it is not mine. I’ve tried to forgive my seemingly ineptness with this boy, this man.
So God brought it today, the subject of forgiveness, on his birthday! I would imagine this will be cathartic and a breakthrough will come for me…yet I am saddened that the breakthrough may not reach my boy…
but God…Let me be still and KNOW that He is God! ‘Is there anything to difficult for God?’ the bible asks.
‘Why are you downcast, O’my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my savior and my God.’ Psalm 43:5
I feel guilt that my boy aches, from a past no child should have to endure.
Yet I had no hand in that harm.
I ache that this man is so angry, so sorrowful, and too proud to ask for help.
I hurt at his hand, his unkindness towards me. I believe he doesn’t understand. I pray he is mistaken in this behavior and understands that I had no hand in his harm.
I wish, that I could have prevented…been there…stopped his (their) torture, earlier.
How does a mother forgive herself?
I do not feel guilt for everyday things like yelling too much, not listening enough…No my guilt is for things I could not have prevented or fathomed.
My guilt is because the scarred victim in me, so young, created a victim in him, for a time.
Jesus said that forgiveness needs to happen seven times seventy times…a day…and the apostles asked that He increase their faith…Jesus answered,
“and the Lord said, ‘If you had faith like a mustard seed, you would say to this mulberry tree,’Be uprooted and be planted in the sea.’; and it would obey you.” Luke 17:5-7
So I am planting this mother’s guilt in the sea…far away so that it cannot return. I put forth the effort, in faith, to forgive myself 70×7 times…again and again…
Bonnie Gray at Faith Barista’s Blog said today…’Grieving continues after we’ve forgiven (even ourselves). That grieving person is who we were, hurt and angry. God still makes us new.’ How faithful He is to make us new each day with His mercies.
Yet I don’t feel new, especially those days when my boy battles and lashes out. Then I battle the grieving me who wants to blame and accuse me of being a terrible mother.
I haven’t hugged or even touched my boy in years…no one is allowed to. My heart cries to hug him, to comfort his pain, anger… even just a quick birthday hug.
Oh how I grieve for this self-destructive man. His struggle each day so fierce. His heart each day so hard, his words so harsh.
I sometimes wonder to myself, ‘What have you done? What haven’t you done? Why can’t you fix this?’
Only God can fix this. This mother can only pray that the man allow God to fix this… Then I remember this boy, NO! Man, is saved. He has been to the altar at least 3 times. I pray God’s grace for my son, I know he walks in it, I pray he becomes aware of it.
Have you forgiven yourself today? 70×7 times a day…even once have you forgiven yourself?
It is understood that forgiveness heals us; you know, when you forgive those who trespass against you.
Have you trespassed against you? That same forgiveness required remains required even when forgiving means forgiving self…
You stand under the grace of God…He forgives you…more completely than 70×7 times a day…
What is your count?
Blessings Loves ♥
This post was inspired by Bonnie Gray at Faith Barista, her blog scriptures and the quote were the ones that God sent me today, through Bonnie. Hop on over and be blessed by using the link. Thanks, A.
- The Bait of Satan by John Bevere (james127littleones.wordpress.com)
- Forgiveness (theotherjesus.com)
- Accept Forgiveness and Forgive Yourself (psychologytoday.com)