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My Lampstand…


Thursday morning and this is the e-mail scripture I received.

“Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love. Remember the height from which you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first. If you do not repent, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place.” – Revelation 2:4-5

 

MY FIRST LOVE…

I realize that this refers to our innate love for God…for Christ.

I know it’s about being drawn in by a world, that no longer recognizes a loving deity. A world that has moved itself, in all arrogance, into a place where their FIRST LOVE is…

SELF.

I realize it’s all about not living life in communion with the Spirit of God; who lives within us from the time our parents even imagine us…

I believe life begins in the Heart of God. On that day, thousands of years ago when He chose our life and put our God Given Names in His Book of Life.

I believe we were place in this sorrow laden world for a time such as this…

…And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?” Ester 4:14b

I realize it’s about knowing from where we came…SIN…not literally our sin…but from ORIGINAL SIN in which we were born due to…the FALL.

………………………………Remember the height from which you have fallen!

……………………………………………………………………………………………………We fell from the heights of heaven…from the heights of EDEN…we fell from the hands of a LOVING CREATOR.

You have forsaken …you have turned from…denied.

YOUR FIRST LOVE…

First love makes me think of that first boy…the one that broke my heart. The one that insured that I would always be the one to end a relationship so that that particular pain would  NEVER infiltrate this heart again!

Then there is the Lampstand…and I think of that reality show Survivor

                                                          and…THE TRIBE HAS SPOKEN!

There was a time when I was turned from my first love…honestly, most of my life. This concept of  FIRST LOVE was never explained to me. I was expected by my ‘religious’ mother, who did not live a separated for God life, to LOVE GOD…LOVE JESUS…but I was not shown how.

God has broken this heart…this SPIRIT, on many occasions. Yet…

                             Lately I’ve wondered…do I LOVE GOD?…JESUS?…do I have a PROPER LOVE for them?

There was a time…..

                                    when I didn’t know love outside of the physical sensation of this body…from the elevated heart rate to the elevated sensation of the body.

do I know love?

These scars remind me of how far and how hard I have fallen…all have fallen short of the glory of God. Romans 3:23I am reminded gently by His Spirit..

                                        Yet, I didn’t give my permission to be used in the manner with which I was made to fall. Some of the decisions were not mine, could not have been made by such a small child…

I want to keep my lampstand…I don’t want to be in the dark place again

    I repent…I turn back to my first love…I strive to know LOVE. I strive to give LOVE.

         I STRIVE… straining toward what is ahead,  I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. Philippians 3:14b-15

This is now my lifestyle…Moving forward to what…where, God has called me…

                                                      MY FIRST LOVE…Writing…For God…to his lost ones…

love letters to God…showing Him that I have turned my heart and focus back to him…even when I, again, in my humanity…fall short of His Glory.

Even as I rise, once again, from my fall…pulling myself up with the LAMPSTAND of His Word…His SON…the LIGHT of HIS WORD..which TURNS my heart back to HIM!

Thanking a forgiving God…Father, that I am permitted to turn back to MY FIRST LOVE, without reproach.

Blessings Loves. ♥

A SECOND

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