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My Lampstand…


Thursday morning and this is the e-mail scripture I received.

“Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love. Remember the height from which you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first. If you do not repent, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place.” – Revelation 2:4-5



I realize that this refers to our innate love for God…for Christ.

I know it’s about being drawn in by a world, that no longer recognizes a loving deity. A world that has moved itself, in all arrogance, into a place where their FIRST LOVE is…


I realize it’s all about not living life in communion with the Spirit of God; who lives within us from the time our parents even imagine us…

I believe life begins in the Heart of God. On that day, thousands of years ago when He chose our life and put our God Given Names in His Book of Life.

I believe we were place in this sorrow laden world for a time such as this…

…And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?” Ester 4:14b

I realize it’s about knowing from where we came…SIN…not literally our sin…but from ORIGINAL SIN in which we were born due to…the FALL.

………………………………Remember the height from which you have fallen!

……………………………………………………………………………………………………We fell from the heights of heaven…from the heights of EDEN…we fell from the hands of a LOVING CREATOR.

You have forsaken …you have turned from…denied.


First love makes me think of that first boy…the one that broke my heart. The one that insured that I would always be the one to end a relationship so that that particular pain would  NEVER infiltrate this heart again!

Then there is the Lampstand…and I think of that reality show Survivor

                                                          and…THE TRIBE HAS SPOKEN!

There was a time when I was turned from my first love…honestly, most of my life. This concept of  FIRST LOVE was never explained to me. I was expected by my ‘religious’ mother, who did not live a separated for God life, to LOVE GOD…LOVE JESUS…but I was not shown how.

God has broken this heart…this SPIRIT, on many occasions. Yet…

                             Lately I’ve wondered…do I LOVE GOD?…JESUS?…do I have a PROPER LOVE for them?

There was a time…..

                                    when I didn’t know love outside of the physical sensation of this body…from the elevated heart rate to the elevated sensation of the body.

do I know love?

These scars remind me of how far and how hard I have fallen…all have fallen short of the glory of God. Romans 3:23I am reminded gently by His Spirit..

                                        Yet, I didn’t give my permission to be used in the manner with which I was made to fall. Some of the decisions were not mine, could not have been made by such a small child…

I want to keep my lampstand…I don’t want to be in the dark place again

    I repent…I turn back to my first love…I strive to know LOVE. I strive to give LOVE.

         I STRIVE… straining toward what is ahead,  I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. Philippians 3:14b-15

This is now my lifestyle…Moving forward to what…where, God has called me…

                                                      MY FIRST LOVE…Writing…For God…to his lost ones…

love letters to God…showing Him that I have turned my heart and focus back to him…even when I, again, in my humanity…fall short of His Glory.

Even as I rise, once again, from my fall…pulling myself up with the LAMPSTAND of His Word…His SON…the LIGHT of HIS WORD..which TURNS my heart back to HIM!

Thanking a forgiving God…Father, that I am permitted to turn back to MY FIRST LOVE, without reproach.

Blessings Loves. ♥


Let My Words Be Few

Author: Hopeannfaith

Welcome, I'm Andrea ... HOPEannFAITH ... I write and take pictures as a way of expression. These are gifts given by a loving and indulgent Father, to a headstrong and stubborn daughter, with much to say. A semi-retired social worker/secretary, I now call myself a writer. I've published one internet article and written many blog posts. However, publishing does not make one a writer, anymore than taking a box camera to the park makes one a photographer. What makes one who and what they are? Well God for one ... formed me before the foundations of this world (Psalm 139); and many, many years after putting away my passion for wordsmithing and picture taking He gave it back ... in droves. I am a culmination of my choices and experiences. It is here that my experiences color the world in print and color. It is my goal to reach just one soul a day with love ... encouragement ... understanding or just letting that soul know that they are not alone where they are today. This is about creating ~ all of it. Creating a HOLY and SACRED place where the ugly truth can be healed and the beauty of a moment or a tear can brighten a day for the experience. Why HOPEannFAITH? Hopeannfaith is my inner child, and she is maturing, as she should have done all along. She is learning all about how Faith fulfills Hope. She is learning how to live. HOPEannFAITH ~ the wonder twins all wrapped up in one, me. These are my Journey Journals ~ written and visual. I welcome your company. I welcome your friendships. My Journey is in the light ~ although I have and will share the shadowy corners and the dark ~ so you know that you are never alone there. If we hold hands in the dark, and we walk, side by side, through the shadow, we will reach the Light together. In relationship with one another and with the Light. Blessings.

5 thoughts on “My Lampstand…

  1. Good one in particular :

    I want to keep my lampstand…I don’t want to be in the dark place again…

    Me too !


  2. Andrea,

    How can we keep our lampstands from growing dim in an all consuming and demanding world? I’m desperate to know this and to find a way…….can you help me?


    • Cathy,
      We choose to stay connected to God, diligently. The world we live in makes us believe it’s complicated … not so. First we make the decision you’ve just made. Then we step up our efforts … if you’re not in church the first step is to find a church that TEACHES the bible … A Faith church is what you want, and where I began, and begin there. No hard initiations, no theology classes. Just reconcile to Father God and begin to live the way you are taught.
      Blessings, you’ve made a most important step … seeking the Kingdom of God. The bible say we must believe in Jesus; John 3:16-21 … it then says to seek the Kingdom of God and all things will be turned to the good of those who are called according to His purposes.
      This desire you have … you’ve been called, according to His purposes. 🙂

      • Andrea,

        Diligently……the operative word, seeking after my first love. It’s so comforting to know you are out there guiding with words He has given you to speak to those of us sheep who “seem” to be tossed about out here. I know I will find my bearings once again when diligently I plant my feet and immerse my soul in His word. You said it! Living out the way He taught me and continues to teach…….filling the lamp back up. On another note, do you think our generation will see His return? Anticipating, I’m excited when I contemplate it……….Peace and blessing to you my sister in Christ.


  3. Cathy,
    You bless me with your trust. 🙂
    The other note: I have as much information on that as you do. I don’t know, but it is my thought that one way or the other we will see Him; either when He returns or when we go home. We each, individually are living in our own end days, regardless, we are not physically immortal. 🙂
    So my rule of thumb: Live today like it is your last. Be kind, love someone, and bless someone. Show them Jesus.
    At the end of the day it’s about how we reflected Christ in our live; to the lost.

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