The other terror that scares us from self-trust is our consistency; a reverence for our past act or word, because the eyes of others have no other data for computing our orbit than our past acts, and we are loath to disappoint them. – Ralph Waldo Emerson
Emerson says: “Always do what you are afraid to do.”
What is ‘too scary’ to write about? Try doing it now.
(Author: Mary Jaksch)
She was afraid. Afraid to tell…He said they wouldn’t believe a little kid. He threatened to blame it on her. He confused her. He loved her, treated her nice when mom and grandma were around, but then…
He changed. He got scary. He hurt her…He hurt the baby…
This is the scary stuff that one day I will write about. But…what is scary now, is he was right! He was right…they didn’t believe the little girl (s); there were 4. He was right, they didn’t believe the angry teenagers, there were 4. Worse, the mother didn’t help until her youngest girl was a full-blown alcoholic adult and demanded that she confront him (her brother!). Leaving the oldest girl more bitter and angry, at 30 something, than she had been prior, because when she asked her mother to believe her she didn’t. She accused and berated, she didn’t help.
What is scary to this day is that the mother of 2 of the 4 still harbors her brother. Still demands that her daughters respect…
What is scary is the rage, the wrath, that is born in such pain and betrayal. What is scary is that one lives and learns to love with this barbed wire wrapped around ones heart. What is too scary to write down, right now, is the realization that children continue to live and endure what
I …this little kid endured, growing up learning love wrong.
What’s too scary to do is write down the acts performed, that caused the work to get to the place of wholeness that
I …that little girl, now woman, enjoys today. It’s scary because of the pain it will cause…Him, Mother and so many others.
Is it really that important to document this process to wholeness??
Yes, I believe it is…so I strive to get past the fear…and put down the words that will help heal a little kid…
Blessings Loves ♥
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