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…delighting myself in the Lord…


We had Praise and Prayer Friday at our church this evening, and it was good.

Lately I have been battling something … someone … me, and I didn’t know why. I still don’t, except to know that it is a hormonal thing.

But, Jesus died for that! So why?

Because I gave in to the overwhelming deluge of hormonal waves? Easy I guess as one does not actually feel this physically, it’s more of an emotional physical occurence, I guess.

All things positive in my spirit seemed to have been arrested. Strange, because outwardly nothing happened, all things were good; a status quo. Life was rolling smoothly and steadily along. Yet, there I was with a sense of foreboding, emptiness and angst.

Not the usual “little ball of sunshine” as my husband teases! Not myself.

Usually by Friday I am done. Looking forward to a Saturday with my hubby, hopefully, or at the very least a day that is not consumed by the needs of others and the world at large. So having to go out on a Friday night does not usually cause me to be joyful.

However, tonight, I was looking forward to Prayer Friday. No, more like EXPECTING GodI was entirely prepared, having done my level best to be prayed up and in; to be released from this overwhelming emotional upheaval of this week.

God was faithful!

The music that we began prayer with was not to my usual taste, however, it was calm and flowed like the warm waves of a calm ocean on a breezy summer night. I began to feel the Holy Spirit wash over me, caressing my spirit, soothing my mind.

Our Pastor Scott lead us to leave our cares of the week and day behind us and follow the Holy Spirit to the throne of God, blessedly I felt this and entered in.

Then our Pastor Santhosh lead us to this scripture …

Psalm 37:3-4

3 Trust in the LORD and do good;
dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
4 Take delight in the LORD,
   and he will give you the desires of your heart.

And there it was … my solution. Dwell in the land and enjoy safe pature…Take delight in the LORD.

I was not dwelling in the Kingdom!

I was no longer enjoying the safety of the pasture.

I had ceased to delight [myself] in the LORD!

You see we do this to ourselves! While indulging in the ravaged, hormonal and emotional upheaval my body told me I couldn’t do anything about, I wandered from the path of Peace, Love and Delight.

David delighted in the LORD during some really bad times! Lions, Giants and Wars, O’my! So why can’t I?

The bible says that God inhabits the Praise of His people! I was praying, but all of my, other, usual routines were passed by with the attitude of “I don’t care”, “I don’t feel like it” and “I can’t”.

I was ignoring devotionals and I was not praising God. All things I know to be vital to my personal spirituality. My relationship with God hinges on these things, it’s how I spend intimate time in the LORD.

I wasn’t doing the things I knew to do. I was actually avoiding them! Talk about a back slide!

Ah, my natural character defect; my worst enemy, me, got loose and decided a week of frustrated depression was in order! And the spiral to hell and hellish behavior began.

Then God …

In all His love and faithfulness He remained by my side to teach me something. Seriously, He must have thought…Child if you’re going here anyway…

Let me teach you Quietude…

Quietude or Serenity … though it did not begin serenely, I remained oddly quiet. Throwing some of my closest friends and loved ones.

Quiet is not a description anyone who knows me would use! 🙂

I guess God decided if I was not going to Praise Him, if I would not delight in Him, He would teach me quiet.

I can’t say it was a good time, or that it was true Quietude. It wasn’t peaceful, but it was oddly calm, like before a storm. And the storm did come, this was a physical occurrence, after all. But I was quiet, though I could not hear God or sense Him physically (I enjoy both the audible and physicality of God) I knew He was there.

He does not leave or forsake us, thank goodness.

Now, exhausted from the emotions and angst of this week, I feel released from it all. I have been forgiven my rebellious nature, as always, and I write this to guide, to teach, to share in what I learned.

Pray through…

Praise through…

Ignor the feelings of NO feelings. He is there and He will lead, you just continue to move forward, speaking the Word…doing the Word, until you willingly return to the path of Peace, Love and Delight; all the things God is, and none of the things we are without Him.

How are you? What do you do to return to the path of Peace, Love and Delight in the LORD?

What scriptures or songs lead you back Home to Daddy’s throne room?

I’m going there now, why don’t you read the Book or play that love song to God that you love so much and join me. I would love to share this release with you.

Blessings Love ♥