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…delighting myself in the Lord…

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We had Praise and Prayer Friday at our church this evening, and it was good.

Lately I have been battling something … someone … me, and I didn’t know why. I still don’t, except to know that it is a hormonal thing.

But, Jesus died for that! So why?

Because I gave in to the overwhelming deluge of hormonal waves? Easy I guess as one does not actually feel this physically, it’s more of an emotional physical occurence, I guess.

All things positive in my spirit seemed to have been arrested. Strange, because outwardly nothing happened, all things were good; a status quo. Life was rolling smoothly and steadily along. Yet, there I was with a sense of foreboding, emptiness and angst.

Not the usual “little ball of sunshine” as my husband teases! Not myself.

Usually by Friday I am done. Looking forward to a Saturday with my hubby, hopefully, or at the very least a day that is not consumed by the needs of others and the world at large. So having to go out on a Friday night does not usually cause me to be joyful.

However, tonight, I was looking forward to Prayer Friday. No, more like EXPECTING GodI was entirely prepared, having done my level best to be prayed up and in; to be released from this overwhelming emotional upheaval of this week.

God was faithful!

The music that we began prayer with was not to my usual taste, however, it was calm and flowed like the warm waves of a calm ocean on a breezy summer night. I began to feel the Holy Spirit wash over me, caressing my spirit, soothing my mind.

Our Pastor Scott lead us to leave our cares of the week and day behind us and follow the Holy Spirit to the throne of God, blessedly I felt this and entered in.

Then our Pastor Santhosh lead us to this scripture …

Psalm 37:3-4

3 Trust in the LORD and do good;
dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
4 Take delight in the LORD,
   and he will give you the desires of your heart.

And there it was … my solution. Dwell in the land and enjoy safe pature…Take delight in the LORD.

I was not dwelling in the Kingdom!

I was no longer enjoying the safety of the pasture.

I had ceased to delight [myself] in the LORD!

You see we do this to ourselves! While indulging in the ravaged, hormonal and emotional upheaval my body told me I couldn’t do anything about, I wandered from the path of Peace, Love and Delight.

David delighted in the LORD during some really bad times! Lions, Giants and Wars, O’my! So why can’t I?

The bible says that God inhabits the Praise of His people! I was praying, but all of my, other, usual routines were passed by with the attitude of “I don’t care”, “I don’t feel like it” and “I can’t”.

I was ignoring devotionals and I was not praising God. All things I know to be vital to my personal spirituality. My relationship with God hinges on these things, it’s how I spend intimate time in the LORD.

I wasn’t doing the things I knew to do. I was actually avoiding them! Talk about a back slide!

Ah, my natural character defect; my worst enemy, me, got loose and decided a week of frustrated depression was in order! And the spiral to hell and hellish behavior began.

Then God …

In all His love and faithfulness He remained by my side to teach me something. Seriously, He must have thought…Child if you’re going here anyway…

Let me teach you Quietude…

Quietude or Serenity … though it did not begin serenely, I remained oddly quiet. Throwing some of my closest friends and loved ones.

Quiet is not a description anyone who knows me would use! 🙂

I guess God decided if I was not going to Praise Him, if I would not delight in Him, He would teach me quiet.

I can’t say it was a good time, or that it was true Quietude. It wasn’t peaceful, but it was oddly calm, like before a storm. And the storm did come, this was a physical occurrence, after all. But I was quiet, though I could not hear God or sense Him physically (I enjoy both the audible and physicality of God) I knew He was there.

He does not leave or forsake us, thank goodness.

Now, exhausted from the emotions and angst of this week, I feel released from it all. I have been forgiven my rebellious nature, as always, and I write this to guide, to teach, to share in what I learned.

Pray through…

Praise through…

Ignor the feelings of NO feelings. He is there and He will lead, you just continue to move forward, speaking the Word…doing the Word, until you willingly return to the path of Peace, Love and Delight; all the things God is, and none of the things we are without Him.

How are you? What do you do to return to the path of Peace, Love and Delight in the LORD?

What scriptures or songs lead you back Home to Daddy’s throne room?

I’m going there now, why don’t you read the Book or play that love song to God that you love so much and join me. I would love to share this release with you.

Blessings Love ♥

Author: Hopeannfaith

Welcome, I'm Andrea ... HOPEannFAITH ... I write and take pictures as a way of expression. These are gifts given by a loving and indulgent Father, to a headstrong and stubborn daughter, with much to say. A semi-retired social worker/secretary, I now call myself a writer. I've published one internet article and written many blog posts. However, publishing does not make one a writer, anymore than taking a box camera to the park makes one a photographer. What makes one who and what they are? Well God for one ... formed me before the foundations of this world (Psalm 139); and many, many years after putting away my passion for wordsmithing and picture taking He gave it back ... in droves. I am a culmination of my choices and experiences. It is here that my experiences color the world in print and color. It is my goal to reach just one soul a day with love ... encouragement ... understanding or just letting that soul know that they are not alone where they are today. This is about creating ~ all of it. Creating a HOLY and SACRED place where the ugly truth can be healed and the beauty of a moment or a tear can brighten a day for the experience. Why HOPEannFAITH? Hopeannfaith is my inner child, and she is maturing, as she should have done all along. She is learning all about how Faith fulfills Hope. She is learning how to live. HOPEannFAITH ~ the wonder twins all wrapped up in one, me. These are my Journey Journals ~ written and visual. I welcome your company. I welcome your friendships. My Journey is in the light ~ although I have and will share the shadowy corners and the dark ~ so you know that you are never alone there. If we hold hands in the dark, and we walk, side by side, through the shadow, we will reach the Light together. In relationship with one another and with the Light. Blessings.

3 thoughts on “…delighting myself in the Lord…

  1. Great encouragement!! Thank you for sharing your heart 🙂

  2. Hello Andrea
    I have to admit I did not read all of your most but I enjoyed what I read,I thank you for hooking up with me and I will be back again 😀

  3. Hello Andrea,

    I can’t think of anything better, than being in the presence of Almighty God, and delighting myself in Him! It is only in His presence, that we will find fullness of joy! At His right hand, there are pleasures for evermore! What a mighty God we serve!

    When we become bogged down with physical issues, emotional issues, and the things of this life, when we give God praise and glory, we praise our way through these difficult times, and we get to “the other side of through!” I enjoyed your post today. I am glad Pat told me about your blog.

    May God bless you.

    Paulette

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