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Weakness and God’s Grace … **Updated by Grace

2 Corinthians 12: 8 – 10

8 Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Weakness and God.‘s Grace.

I was emotional last night … emotionally weak.

From a lack of sleep and a very busy day.

I’ve found that much of what we go through in life is long-term. Yes, I know we don’t HAVE to live this way. However, we continually state that God is leading us and knows the plan.

So … what if this is the PLAN people?

If I BELIEVE that GOD is working HIS plan, then this particular thing is SUPPOSED to be happening.

…for my power is made PERFECT in [your] WEAKNESS.

God wants me to partake in His Grace … there are certain things in my life that I am to ALLOW God to handle. Most probably all things, if I interpret the Word correctly.

I went to bed utterly exhausted and frustrated last night. I have these WEAKNESSES  … frustration and anger. I may have mentioned this before.

I’ve come to the place where most days I don’t respond immediately to these things … requests, correspondences … invitations to slide back into behaviors ingrained in me just (literally) a few weeks ago.

[God revealed the REACT vs. RESPOND realities to me recently and I have been working on mastering the RESPOND and squashing the REACTION]

Therefore, I have been making an effort, in/by the grace of God, to fix this character defect.

WELL … in an attempt to RESPOND last evening, I felt I should get clarification in a situation. I am comforted by the fact that I was able not to react and handled the situation calmly and rationally, at the time.

Truth be told I should have waited.

I should have known myself better, while the situation was clarified, I did not understand clearly. Emotions and exhaustion…and when I allow my mind to process something under these conditions I rarely am able to stop the REACTION process.

Like I said, God and I are working on something here…

I have a great ability to make things much bigger than they are … oh! and fictional in their origin! I mean, I’m a writer after all! And while my genre does not lean towards story telling, per say, my emotions are VERY creative!

I was then able to spend time with a close friend, and we ministered to one another. At the end of the conversation my friend said she was glad she called and that she felt better. What a blessing.

I can’t say that I felt better, I was exhausted, frustration gathering at the edges of my exhaustion, begging me to stir up feelings of deep unrest. I refused and quietly went to bed, praying.

I’m at a place where I rarely ask God why, but I do ask that he clarify things that have gotten out of hand, because I’ve come to this conclusion…

GOD has this!

In my starting scripture Paul says he DELIGHTS in weakness. Now I don’t think that is something we are directed to do. Paul was talking about how he REACTED to his own weakness. Frankly, I don’t think I’ll ever be able to DELIGHT in these situations, on the schedule for the Plan God has for my life. However, I can use the fact that I have come to know that God is aware and in control, no matter how I feel or what is going on.

They [who are they?] say “it is what it is”. A friend said yesterday that “we know what it is not”, and this is true.

This mornings frustration, and I guess to some extent this is anger, is do to the fact that I did not succeed at the squashing of the REACTION. My mind dwelled and created, against all of my efforts to control this part of [my] self

I ask God to bring clarity, because no one else can [will]. I ask that he GRACE me with His patience so that I can honestly move on free from the frustration.

So in my weakness HIS GRACE is doing a work in ME…did you think I was waiting on God to fix those who inadvertently frustrate me???

NO! :)

I’m way past that! God doesn’t fix others to make my life easier. HE fixes me so that I can do what it is HE has planned and this may NOT make my life easier.

It does make my life better, though.

So loves…where in your weakness do you allow God’s grace to be sufficient for the situation.

HOW do you manage to respond rather than react?

HOW do you stop yourself from indulging in the “Why God”s of self-pity and settle calmly into the

“I know God has this”? of life?

I am weak this morning. Yes, from the frustration of perceived things, but I am going to allow God’s Grace to be sufficient, and pray each time the frustration and fatigue surfaces. It’s what I know to do, today ….

*** I am happy to say that by the end of this day, with God and trusted counsel ,all of this frustration was cleared up and I had [my] self control back. Situations were clear and all is well. I thank God that He has given me the ability to be diligent in seeking His purpose for me in my day to day. He is faithful and I am blessed. ***


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