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[at a] Loss … in five {not}


       Happy Friday Loves ♥

       I’m joining the ladies over at The Gypsy Mama again this friday.

       Where we share our hearts, in five minutes or unedited, unchanged writing. This prompt is not about the writing. It is about the heart of the writing, the story or the writer and the unedited emotions evoked by the prompt.

So put your eraser and your inner critic away for 5 and show us your heart on this weeks prompt … [it’s a hard one, and Lisa-jo has loosened the time limit …]

{ I have battled this prompt for quite a time this morning. Typing and deleting thoughts and concepts, not for asthetic writing purposes, but because I would get to a point and be at a loss … pun, very much intended.

I find my best writing is words that actually belong to the Spirit of God. You, my loving readers, resonate best to what God has to say through me, rather than me trying to convey God through my writing. So I struggled and then God, faithful always, tapped me on the shoulder and whispered, “are you at a loss?”

Loss … Go …

I stand at a loss with this subject. Literally!

In my constant quest for Wholeness and Serenity I find that this subject flies in the face of those positives.

Loss asks me to view the tatters of my life … the discarded things that made me ill; physically, emotionally, mentally and Spiritually.

So what have I loss(t) that was good to loss(e)?

I’ve lost the priviledge of ignoring my health. In this I have found a better way of living.

I’ve lost my desire to please my mother. In this I have gained a peace that is only troubled when I allow her to rattle the latch of my gate …

I’ve lost my parenthood to my son’s adulthood. In this I am gaining [I haven’t mastered this one yet] a different view of the boys who have become men.

I’ve lost my bustling full house to an empty nest … not sure what will be gained here, now.

Over the years I’ve lost and discarded some hard things. Mostly little by little. Somedays I think, ‘when was the last time…?’ Therein is a great loss, because I didn’t even realize there was a loss.

When we look back we will realize there has been tremendous losses … tiny losses that we didn’t feel fall away, and tragic losses that took huge chunks of our hearts with them. But at the end of the day this is a life.

And life does what life does … it moves and adjusts and fills in where things have been lost.

Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature; the old things passed
away; behold, new things have come. 2 Corinthians 5:17

STOP…

{not sure I am happy with this post. but that is what five minute friday is about, right? I wrote, at the end, my heart. when I look at this one it seems small and unexplained. but then, how does one really explain the loss in a life accurately in these tiny containers we call words? Loss is an integral part of life … without it new cannot be added. and God wants to add to our lives, abundantly, and that requires us to loose those things that are not of Him.}

For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see
it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the
dry wasteland. Isaiah 43:19

Blessings Loves.