HOPE*ann*FAITH

Living and Writing on Purpose: God * Life * Love * Realtionships * The Important Things.

if only i could have … 5 minutes!

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Welcome to HOPEannFAITH! 🙂

On Fridays I try to join Lisa-Jo and her Five Minute Friends and simply write from my heart. The Rules:

1. Write for 5 minutes flat – no editing, no over thinking, no backtracking.

2. Link back here and invite others to join in.

3. Most importantly: leave a comment for the person who linked up before you – encouraging them in their writing!

 Prompt: TIRED … GO!

Focus!

STOP!

I have lost my focus. The reason I write. Where my words, the good ones, come from; and this has made me tired!

I have become ingrained with the belief that I have to write like the last fantastic blogger writes; and I follow many bloggers! So I can spend days of exhaustion reading one motivational and another devotional blog after another and end up feeling like a hack.

Yes, a hack!

This is not a pretty five minute friday post! Because today I am writing who I am today. Not trying to write a version of my heart that is masked in a light that is not there.

Don’t get me wrong, please. God built this girl to go out into the dark and get the wanderers, grab those lost in the dark girls that are not even close to ready to see themselves in the light and tell them that we (yes we, because I was out there once and for a long time!) can join you all in the light, and be accepted!

God's Andrea

I have a gift for words … a gift from God and my best writing comes directly from HIM, my Father Creator. And this year I tried to conform to the beautiful writing I see from all of you … and trying to write like another writer is makes me VERY TIRED and discouraged.

I’m not saying that any of my posts are not genuinely mine and from my heart. I’m just saying that I am going, from this day forward, write from the ministry I have been given!

All of you are beautiful in your own ways … the light, the fun, and the deep … and so am I. I’ve learned from all of you that I am beautiful and relevant and talented … and now.

STOP!!

My focus is God … God’s Word … and those that I can reach with my experiences to bring here and introduce to you so that they can learn that they are beautiful and relevant and talented …

So please forgive me the extra time … but TIRED is what I have been  feeling about this; causing writers block … now, hopefully my words will return!

Blessings Loves!

Author: Hopeannfaith

Welcome, I'm Andrea ... HOPEannFAITH ... I write and take pictures as a way of expression. These are gifts given by a loving and indulgent Father, to a headstrong and stubborn daughter, with much to say. A semi-retired social worker/secretary, I now call myself a writer. I've published one internet article and written many blog posts. However, publishing does not make one a writer, anymore than taking a box camera to the park makes one a photographer. What makes one who and what they are? Well God for one ... formed me before the foundations of this world (Psalm 139); and many, many years after putting away my passion for wordsmithing and picture taking He gave it back ... in droves. I am a culmination of my choices and experiences. It is here that my experiences color the world in print and color. It is my goal to reach just one soul a day with love ... encouragement ... understanding or just letting that soul know that they are not alone where they are today. This is about creating ~ all of it. Creating a HOLY and SACRED place where the ugly truth can be healed and the beauty of a moment or a tear can brighten a day for the experience. Why HOPEannFAITH? Hopeannfaith is my inner child, and she is maturing, as she should have done all along. She is learning all about how Faith fulfills Hope. She is learning how to live. HOPEannFAITH ~ the wonder twins all wrapped up in one, me. These are my Journey Journals ~ written and visual. I welcome your company. I welcome your friendships. My Journey is in the light ~ although I have and will share the shadowy corners and the dark ~ so you know that you are never alone there. If we hold hands in the dark, and we walk, side by side, through the shadow, we will reach the Light together. In relationship with one another and with the Light. Blessings.

11 thoughts on “if only i could have … 5 minutes!

  1. Visiting from Five Minute Friday, and I love your post. I agree, it is so tiring to be chasing something we aren’t. There is such beauty in the blog-o-sphere but it is definitely easy to lose one’s voice and become tired from trying to be something different than what He created.

    Thank you for your encouragement to be me. I loved your writing today!

    • Thank you for stopping by and for your encouragement, Carrie! If you’ve read the about me on HOPEannFAITH … I state I will share the darker corners; and of late I’ve been trying to share light when where I am is in those corners and that is exhausting. So that is how I got where I was today, and I was more genuinely me today than I was yesterday, when I didn’t write. 🙂
      Blessings!

  2. Hello Andrea. I think I know what you mean about visiting other people’s blogs and coming away feeling inadequate or anxious to please others. I’ve been there. Sometimes it seems that other people’s writing is so much better… their blogs are growing while mine stays stagnant. I feel guilty that I’m not doing more to grow it, not spending more time writing. The truth is, I began my blog to do just what you say.. be a light to others, but I am first and foremost a wife and mother and my duties and responsibilities don’t allow me to do more at the moment. I have been, at times, resentful that I can’t do more.. it has made me tired of my responsibilities.. so I can relate to your post. I have had to accept that, in this season, my family comes first. Someday, maybe I’ll have a bigger blog and I’ll write better…meanwhile I’m where God wants me to be. There is peace in accepting that!

    Good luck with your own writing and the peace you have found. May you have a blessed weekend.

    • Lisa, Exactly what I mean. We get caught up in all the blogs and photogs we follow and begin to feel that bit of time we spend cultivating the garden God gave us is not enough. And it IS! It is just what He wants us to do.
      Thanks for stopping by and sharing with me … I’m going to hop over to yours and see you shine!
      Blessings

  3. Sweet Andrea,
    I am refreshed by your words, because I am with you. I am with you on this journey, friend. I am exhausted by trying to be someone I am not, feeling inadequate, wishing I were, simply — more. I love how you push through the lies here — that you know you are made beautifully, perfectly, with wonderful things set out for you to do.

    Father, I lift up your sweet Andrea, to You. I see you through these words you give her, through this vulnerable heart that aches for You. You are so good, Father. And I pray your rich blessings over your sweet daughter here. May she feel covered by Your love. In Your name, protect her heart, hide her from the enemy. Remind her of the treasure she is. She is enough, Father. She is captivating and adored. Remind her how You can’t, in Your love for her, pull Your eyes away. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

    • Jennifer …
      I stand speechless at your love! I haven’t managed to stay true to the 30 days; and I now know it will be much more than 30 in this journey so … but I so want to be like you and Ann V. and Lisa-Jo; but I want to be Andrea here … I want others to find Him in me and in my writing and photography.

      I want Andrea to glorify Him, alone.

      Thank you for your companionship, your friendship, your love! It is priceless to me!

      • The 31-day series was really challenging for me, too. And the topic of Forgetting Myself was difficult to engage with when I had the self-inflicted pressure to post on that topic daily, giving myself less room, I think, to reflect and breathe. In retrospect, while it was a wonderful discipline for me to write daily (and made it much easier to write when I had to just do it, whether I felt like it or not, sometimes), I wonder if I was doing the opposite of my goal. Writing all the time about “forgetting myself” was actually making me think a lot about ME in this hope for looking simply at Him!! Funny. Love how He gives us grace and grace and grace!! 🙂 Much love to you and trust that He is caring so deeply and perfectly for your heart now. I pray, for both of us, that we just surrender even more and let Him in!

  4. Jennifer … Exactly! And I do trust that He is caring for me deeply and perfectly, because He sends you and these other lovely ladies to show it!

    Blessings my friend! It is so true … this journey is made so much sweeter and richer for your company!
    🙂

  5. Hi Andrea,
    I can identify with this, there are so many great writers out there and I love to read all they have to say. This is an impossible task I know but often it can feel like I just have to read a few more posts from others before I have anything to write myself. Yet when I do end up writing and pray and leave it to God to command the editing it comes out not at all like those other bloggers anyway! Definitely follow God’s calling, in writing and in life.
    God bless,
    Mike

  6. At least you tried. You wrote something! That’s good! Yesterday, I took a look at the prompt and went, “Nope. I got nothin’.”

  7. Hello Andrea,
    It’s so funny because right after I posted my post titled A Confession. I stopped by here and found that you have been through a similar experience. I just wanted to add my two cents of advice and encouragment.

    From my experience, my best writing comes when it comes from the Lord through reading the Bible and just being still. While look at others blog are encouraging that also can be discouraging. I had to finnally stop my frequent visits before I write and wait till afterwards. Because the Lord has messages that we are meant to write and we (being the imperfect Christians that we are) tend to mess them up because we worry about what others think and/or what our looks like in comparison to others.

    The funny thing is ,, the more we add to what God wants us to write/share the more we mess it up and inturn do the very thing we are trying to avoid. I’ve noticed that I get the most views when I risk the most by letting all out without hiding and editing (besides gramatical…which I not very good at anyways 😉 )

    Also, I would like to say I love this post, not because you are frustrated but because it is real. You are uniquely designied by the creator and no one could have written this post like you did. Plus that dark world out there needs to see real Christians….our highs, our lows, our questions, and the answers that is seen through different eyes.

    And if you are concerned with your writing there are many free ebooks out there but don’t let that focus comsume you, you have a style that God gave to you own it. God Bless my friend, I hope you have had a wonderful 2011 and an even better 2012.

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