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Focus: Faith ~ Day 24 of 31

… the faith God has distributed to each of you.

I feel so blessed to be back within God’s presence. I am clinging in hope that I never again have such a vast crisis of faith … and then God sends one of my favorite people to teach me, yet again!  

First, it was such a blessing to sit under such a mentor, friend and pastor. I’ve learned so much about life, God, faith, endurance, marriage and family. She was my spiritual mentor long before I had the courage to even get to know her, I was in such awe. But God … He knows what he’s doing. I had much to learn because there was the Faith quest He had me on, unbeknownst to me. And to say I’m grateful for the choices he’s made for this journey on mine and my family’s behalf does not even scratch the surface of the diamond of this life of mine.

Faith … this is about my faith … your faith … the faith that God gave each and everyone of us. I pride {for lack of a better term} myself on being a strong woman of faith, yet, that did not stop me from experiencing a crisis of faith. I don’t know, maybe everyone needs to go through at least one crisis. God will test our endurance after all.

We all have faith, in fact we all have the same measure of faith. But what makes my faith low and yours high? Honestly, it’s how we handle this gift of grace we’ve been handed.

For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— Ephesians 2:8

We each need to work our faith, feed our faith and care for our faith and this is done in a specific manner.

So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.

Romans 10:17

During my recent crisis of faith, blessedly, I knew to stay in the Word of God, I attended church as usual and I prayed; whether I felt it or not, even as I felt distant from God, Himself I prayed. And then I decided, after time with God in prayer, that I need to change my focus and begin praying for everything, every situation and everyone with thankfulness.

I prayed for everything and everyone. Every prayer request on Facebook and from friend … every time I thought of virtually any reason to pray, I prayed. 

And then … God! It’s always Him who provides the way out of the crisis. Deep in my crisis, not wanting to even be in church … I finally asked Him during after service prayer to lift the angst within me if it wasn’t an indication from Him, directly, that I needed to make a change. Well I KNOW I’ve persisted in this testamony, that He lifted the deep ache at the bottom of my heart, instantly. Right there while I prayed!

You see trials build our faith. As do the resistance to the temptations that reside within those trials. My temptation for the first time in almost 11 years was to stop going to church, to just stop. I felt I’d been through enough, loss of my spiritual parents to the road of evangelism and transition into another form of our church that was not the same … I had had enough of change and transition and what the new growth was putting our family [me] through.

Thank God, literally that He put us [me] where we would grow quickly those first 10 years, where my sweet mentor would be to teach me endurance and God’s patience … growing that great faith I was going to need just weeks ago!

This myriad of trials would grow my faith … Ah and He gave her my lesson so that I would be joyful as He explained the whole thing to me.

You see, faith is not magic … I can’t just wish on a situation and expect it to be what I want it to be. I can’t speak the problem and hope … I must speak the solution in faith!

God uses what I have and he will clearly tell me what I am to do with that seed, so I planted it … and He tended this seed personally. I am so blessed … He is so faithful!

You see, we are like the tree near the stream … however, that stream does us no good if we do not care for ourselves and take from that stream.

For we shall be like a tree planted by the waters,
Which spreads out its roots by the river,
And will not fea when heat comes;
But its leaf will be green,
And will not be anxious in the year of drought,
Nor will cease from yielding fruit. – Jeremiah 17:8

My pastor ended this lesson by sharing with us the facts of the yearly cycle of fruit bearing trees. And at the winter part of the cycle is when there is not fruit … no leaves … and all the energy is focused to the center of the tree so that the tree can care for itself during the cold season. It actually focuses all of it’s energy on the inside so that it is rested and ready to bear fruit in the next season!

This was her vibrant example of the believer during this time of trial and testing. Confirming for me that what I had/was doing and where I had been had a purpose and that I would bear fruit again.

So my focus has become to intensify this prayer quest He has me on. Growing a new, healthy crop of faith. 🙂


Welcome to 31 days – the beautiful brainchild of the Nester who inspires us to spend the month of October writing every single day on a topic that might inspire a community.
And I found it through Lisa-Jo Baker ~ tales from a Gypsy Mama