It has truly been a mean week; illness and hospitals, family life and home. Just one big whirlwind of one step in front of the other while praying and trusting God to guide me through, while being cradled in a grace bubble.
It’s amazing … I’ve been in a grace bubble before but remained numb and unable to function except by rote. Now, understanding more about God’s character and love for me, I’ve learned to be able to function in this peaceful place of His!
It has changed me … changed how I deal with stress.
Today the dam broke … a household situation arose and The Hubs, who was already bearing his silent weight in stress, had to come home from work (after just over an hour) to ensure things were safe.
Oh how I ache to see the strain on his face as he too learns to trust God’s provision instead of jumping in all hands and profanity to remedy a situation; while bursting with thankfulness that He is who God made Him to be and He’s working it, successfully! (I only hope I am as pleasing to Father as it Hubs!)
Just one more thing to add to the seemingly endless list of MUST DO … one more straw and the camel is wobbling … and we pray.
I look up … that’s where my help comes from [Psalm121] and silently pray from my heart and try not to allow the stress to overwhelm me; while simultaneously worrying about my husband and his honest and true heart for God and whether or not he will revert back, like so many times ….
that is fear.
We settle the situation and off he goes back to work only to wait a half hour; and with the biggest, mushiest heart to call me to see if I’m alright … and my heart explodes and I’m thankful for this man of mine, that God gave to me.
I settle back and soak in praise … listening to videos in the background as I work, being thankful!
This is how I spend time with God; decompressing from the world and this life that sometimes just reaches out and grasps us in just a moment …
Praising … exulting Him, knowing that no matter what I see, no matter what I hear or feel … He is in control and all that happens is for my benefit because I love Him and work according to His purposes.
So I thought I share a moment praising my God with you … in words and song. Giving Him the highest praise … singing and raising my arms and feeling His love fall upon us … as I reach that Peace that is Jesus, the peace He left us; not that false just for a moment of pleasure, temporary peace this world offers …
Rather the soft and refreshing bubble of grace that He envelopes us in when we softly speak His name in praise, when we ask Abba, Father, I need you more …