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I Know Where My Hope Comes From*Looking UP | Tuesday@Ten


Nothing is Impossible in Him

Nothing is Impossible in Him

Welcome. Tuesday is the day I join the writers over on Karen Beth’s blog, Finding the Grace Within for her Tuesday at Ten blog Link up.

It’s simple, be creative with the prompt: writing, art or whatever your craft may be, you have 1 week to create and link up at that bottom of Karen’s page so that others can link up with you. Be sure to visit your “link up” neighbor and spread the joy of connection! Just follow the link above. Looking forward to your post.

Today’s Prompt ….

HOPE!

 

OH, how I’ve hoped these last 12 months.

Hoped and prayed and prayed and hoped. All the time knowing where my hope was founded. My hope is firm on the Corner Stone.

He is Lord … Lord of All!

I have vacillated though, back and forth, in my faith … forgetting to rely upon the faith that is based on the grace of God, but rather relying on the building of my own faith in my exhaustion. Forgetting that Jesus said to roll my works upon Him and to trust Him wholly. Proverbs 16:3.

You see we forget in our human-ness. We forget that He is made strong in us when we are at our weakest! Oh how the relief and peace of His tenderness cascaded over my physical and spiritual self when I remembered.

Amazing Love! Amazing Hope!

The Hubs shared something last night that I’ve been praying and hoping for! I’ve been praying that he would use God’s wisdom in his decision making about his treatments. I finally came to the place that all good and supportive and God guided helpmeets come to. I came to a place that allowed me to, no matter what, no matter how scared or selfish or heartbroken, support whatever decision he made.

You see he wants to quit the chemo, even if the doctor advises against it. He’s terribly frustrated and hates to be down and sick and tired. These things are his kryptonite. He says cancer isn’t killing him that the chemo is killing him and these things are products of the chemo.

His Laughter - My Favorite Sound.

His Laughter – My Favorite Sound.

And then hope … He gave me a glimmer of hope with what he shared last night. He said: “Stopping is my intention, we will see.”

Now let me give you the full picture here. The whole year, especially when they told us that it had moved to the liver, he’s been saying he was going to stop; and each time my heart would sink and my head would spin. I sometimes actually felt faint. I knew that this statement was stealing my peace, my sanity and my hope.

Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1

That statement was stealing my faith. I was forgetting. Then something woke me up. “The chemo is killing me, not the cancer.” The Hubs had decided from day one that this was not going to end him. He declared that and God heard him. But I had begun to fade … I was relying on my faith … not the faith I was given through grace. I was trying to have faith in my own power and I’d hear him say that he was going to stop and I would fade some more.

But then he gave me HOPE! God had heard my prayers too! He always does and he always answers often immediately.

Faith and Trust allow us to hope for what we see as impossible. We mustn’t let these things fade! We mustn’t forget about that faith we were given by grace. And we must not forget that Grace is a person!

I am grateful for Grace and for the hope The Hubs gave me last night! This is the last week of scheduled chemo and then there are some tests and the doc will return with a report.

My HOPE is that that report will come back as no further treatment needed, even as I cannot see it.

Because I know where my Hope comes from … My.HOPE.Is.In.The.LORD.

Psalm 121

I will lift up my eyes to the hills—
From whence comes my help?
My help comes from the Lord,
Who made heaven and earth.

He will not allow your foot to be moved;
He who keeps you will not slumber.
Behold, He who keeps Israel
Shall neither slumber nor sleep.

The Lord is your keeper;
The Lord is your shade at your right hand.
The sun shall not strike you by day,
Nor the moon by night.

The Lord shall preserve you from all evil;
He shall preserve your soul.
 The Lord shall preserve your going out and your coming in
From this time forth, and even forevermore.

What is your hope today? Please join us and share your hope today.

Andrea

Andrea

 

Tuesday @ Ten

Tuesday @ Ten