Good morning! It’s Day 2 of 31 Days of my journey to healing in the Word, in 5 minutes of writing.
Today I cheat. For over a year my posts have centered almost entirely on my husband’s (and our family’s) battle with lung cancer. Trust me, this remains my focus, but when I started this challenge it was to get those scriptures of healing deeply within me where they can really do a work.
I honestly want what I’ve seen others obtain: That TRUE understanding of healing and wholeness that God provides. And I honestly want to live and walk in that promise. I honestly want that for my whole family.
When I chose this theme I wrote in the intro that our whole family battled health issues, and this is true. So I’m going to spend the next few days presenting those issues.
My scripture today is Ezekiel 26:36 and this is my health battle. It’s been an almost five year battle.
My Story ~ My Heart
Hello, my name is Andrea, and this is my story.
26 I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.
I was at that crossroad in my life, I realize, that everyone talked about. I just never imagined it would be on a gurney, on the packed hallway of a local ER.
As the attendees of the sick and dying bustled about, I felt, for a moment, much more than my forty five years. For the very first time in my life. A young doctor, a decade my junior, came to the bedside, to tell me my fate, I assumed. Instead he unceremoniously introduced the Cardiologist.
‘Great!’, I thought silently, ‘I handle this alone, too.’ My husband had not arrived at the hospital, yet.
Astonished, I saw from the young physician’s expression, that these green eyes were as wide as they could go, and glistening with the tears; I was desperately trying to hold them back.
“We want to admit you. You are in congestive heart failure and waist deep in fluids.” the doc said. The rest of what Dr. A. said sounded as if it were moving away from me in a tunnel as I began to pray.
In my head I heard that soft, familiar voice say, “This is what I am going to do. I am going to give you a new heart. I am going to give you a new spirit. I am even going to remove that stone heart from your body and replace it with a heart of flesh, a heart that is for Me, God. I am going to make it possible for you to live according to my will, you are no longer your own. I promise you will find it easy to be obedient to my commands with this new heart. You will live. You are mine, and I AM yours!”
With that, my hearing surfaced and I heard the doctor explaining the condition of my heart.
“…so your heart is enlarged, and like any overworked muscle it is thick and hard. Therefore it cannot pump adequately enough to control the fluids in your body…” Dr. A. said seriously, yet with a soft kindness that was endearing.
I listened intently to everything the doctor said, I was enveloped in an unspeakable peace. Even as he spoke I heard God say, “I have removed the stone heart.” in that still soft voice.
This was the last chance, I realized, that I had been looking for. I listened intently to God, just then, because that is how hope grows up to be faith.
I have yet to stop listening. However, there are obstacles and frustrations, which this new journey has around each bend. And I know this well after almost 5 years. Things have gotten away from me; the fervor the writer of this particular blogger has been dampened by life and desires that hinder her original diligence. That is what I hope this 31 Day challenge within God’s healing scriptures will reignite!
My intention with this challenge is to get ALL of God’s healing scriptures and promise deep within my spirit so that each time an ache or a temptation to deviate from the healthy interjects it’s self into my thinking I can conquer it once and for all with the Word!
FYI: I will refer to the heart illnesses that have been diagnosed with the “heart event”; to the cancer with the “cancer event”; to my son’s addiction as his “addiction battle”.
Silly or not, this is how I will go about “not giving voice” to the disease that has been reported. I will not empower the works of the enemy by using the names that I have already put under the blood of Christ Jesus.
Welcome, I’m glad you’ve joined me.
* This was an easy Five Minute Post today because I wrote this post for another blog of mine about 5 years ago. I’ve added updates to it, of course i.e. the cancer event and the addiction battle explanations and more. I hope you can forgive me for the quick cheat. I simply wanted you to know the foundation of this 31 Day challenge theme. Thanks.