I’ve decided to join the 31 Day Writing Challenge. I haven’t written since July … that’s an incredibly long time, and I’ve come to the realization that I need to motivate myself. Last year at this time I used this challenge to motivate me and it worked for a bit … and then life got harder.
So here I am again. Challenging myself to get back to a “new” normal. This new normal is fraught with challenge and a need to remain motivated. So here I go … motivating my self to live my new life.
These last five months have been a challenge all their own. Never before tread territory for me. And
frankly I’m still at a loss … so I pray. I’ve always prayed. Now I pray continually. Sometimes my only conversation in a whole day is my conversation with God. And I’m grateful to have that, because only God can assist me in this my new normal – alone. So my 31 Day Write Challenge is to Pray. I have started a prayer journal … this will just be where I journal for the next 31 days.
Today I’m going to share a photo I took a few years ago and edited … I have A LOT of photos that I’ve dedicated to prayer. I hope to share some of them with you here in the next few days. In fact, today, my Day 1 in the challenge is actually 4 days late … So I have some catching up to do. But I do this challenge only to challenge myself to be faithful to this call on my life to write. So I will catch up as the motivation of this self challenge allows me …
This prayer, though not mine, is perfect to begin this challenge. There is much in my life these days that I long to change, but cannot. And I don’t seem to have the courage at the moment to change my life in accordance with those things I have no control over. Essentially sometimes I am stuck.
I know, am wise to, the difference between which is unchangeable and those things I can change.
I thank You tonight for Your peace. That peace that is beyond my human understanding. I thank You that I know that I cannot change those things that have happened because change is a God thing. I thank You that I am wise in the knowledge of You and know that I control nothing. Everything in my life is Yours and is of Your plan. I trust that Father, I really do and You know my heart. I leave this up to You and look for Your guidance in this day to day challenge to live. I wake in the morning Lord and seek Your voice. I thank You for the day, whether or not I want to face that day and I push forward, because Your desire for me is to live abundantly. As I finish this prayer Lord I ask that I come to this new life of mine and find the joy and the peace in the aloneness. That I find the me that You intended as I move forward on Your path for me. In Jesus’ name, amen.
*Please understand dear readers when I say “alone” I don’t mean that I am alone or forsaken by God. I do to even mean that I am alone in regard to you, my friends (either face to face or online friends). What I do mean is that my life is now a solitary one. My sweet husband has gone home to be with the Lord and I am comforted to know exactly where he is and what he is doing and I am now alone, living my life solitary.
Until next time … thanks for reading sweet friends. God bless.