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Thankfulness.

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It’s that time of the year, and frankly I’m finding it hard to focus on the things I am thankful for. Instead my heart leads my mind to what I have lost.

And I have lost a most vital part of my life, and myself. My husband. And I don’t know who I am or what to do without him, much of the time.

Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. 1 Thessalonians 5:18

Being thankful in the down times is vital for our faith to remain strong. I tend to ignore what I am feeling and pray thankfully each morning. Thanking God for the day, his guidance and his faithfulness in my life. I thank him that he is sovereign and in control of my life and I submit myself and my day to him. Most days.

This doesn’t always help me focus on the things I have to be thankful for.

I am thankful for the roof over my head, but dread that I no longer hear my husband footsteps on the porch, or his voice in the other room. I miss how his laughter used to fill this home.

I am thankful that my boys are still home with me, even though they are adults. Yet, I feel as if they are being burdened by me.

I am thankful for my friends. They truly have saved my life several times these last several months!

I pray. It’s how I remained focused.

I sleep. It’s the depression and sadness. But then I dread waking up … but like I said I pray each morning, thanking God for the day and his presence.

I am focusing on this:

And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which, indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful. Colossians 3:15

The Peace of Christ in my heart, because on my own I don’t have peace in this loss. And for his peace I am thankful.

Continue steadfastly in prayer, being watchful in it with thanksgiving. Colossians 4:2

In consistant prayer I am able to do what needs to be done and be watchful and wise over my life. I am thankful that my relationship with Father God has brought me to this place where I am able to pray even when my heart is shattered.

Staying thankful, even when on the surface it is a reach, is so grounding. I have lost my heart, the very air I used to breath. However today I continue to breath and function and live, and sometimes I even laugh and enjoy. I have God to thank for this. I have God’s plan to rely upon, because without it my purpose escapes me.

I am thankful. I just, sometimes, have trouble expressing it. It’s almost like I’m wrong, somehow, to be grateful after such a great loss… but thankful to God I am.

What am I most thankful for at this time? Well, that’s easy. I am thankful that I know exactly where My Love is. I know he is up there with God, in the mansion Jesus prepared for him. Well, healthy and enjoying never ending love and joy. I long to be with him there. All in God’s timing.

Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good! His faithful love endures forever! Let all Israel repeat: “His faithful love endures forever.” Let Aaron’s descendants, the priests repeat: “His faithful love endures forever.” Let all who fear the Lord repeat: “His faithful love endures forever.”

In my distress I prayed to the Lord and he answered me, and set me free. Psalm 118:1-5

We were taught on Genuine Worship this Sunday at our church. Genuine Worship is a lifestyle of worship. Obedience, surrender and relationship with God the Father, Christ Jesus and the Holy Spirit.

I am genuinely thankful that my relationship has taught me these things. Because even as I am sad and fractured I am able to honestly be thankful that God doesn’t forsake me … even when I feel so very alone.

In my distress I pray to the Lord, and I can honestly testify that he answers me and sets me free.

How do you deal with being thankful in your hard times?

I encourage you to seek the Lord, pray, seek his kingdom and his righteousness … There’s a scripture for that! 😉

Thank you for taking the time to read. I truly pray this blessed you.

God bless.

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Author: Hopeannfaith

Welcome, I'm Andrea ... HOPEannFAITH ... I write and take pictures as a way of expression. These are gifts given by a loving and indulgent Father, to a headstrong and stubborn daughter, with much to say. A semi-retired social worker/secretary, I now call myself a writer. I've published one internet article and written many blog posts. However, publishing does not make one a writer, anymore than taking a box camera to the park makes one a photographer. What makes one who and what they are? Well God for one ... formed me before the foundations of this world (Psalm 139); and many, many years after putting away my passion for wordsmithing and picture taking He gave it back ... in droves. I am a culmination of my choices and experiences. It is here that my experiences color the world in print and color. It is my goal to reach just one soul a day with love ... encouragement ... understanding or just letting that soul know that they are not alone where they are today. This is about creating ~ all of it. Creating a HOLY and SACRED place where the ugly truth can be healed and the beauty of a moment or a tear can brighten a day for the experience. Why HOPEannFAITH? Hopeannfaith is my inner child, and she is maturing, as she should have done all along. She is learning all about how Faith fulfills Hope. She is learning how to live. HOPEannFAITH ~ the wonder twins all wrapped up in one, me. These are my Journey Journals ~ written and visual. I welcome your company. I welcome your friendships. My Journey is in the light ~ although I have and will share the shadowy corners and the dark ~ so you know that you are never alone there. If we hold hands in the dark, and we walk, side by side, through the shadow, we will reach the Light together. In relationship with one another and with the Light. Blessings.

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