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Embracing the Simple Life



I’ve decided to be the authentic me. I’m weary from grieving my husband and son. I’m weary of being who others want me to be.

I’m even working slowly returning to my authentic hair color! Pulling out the red and looking for the gray.

I realize I cannot be who others want me to be, because the events of my life have me in a place of transition. I cannot make it faster. I cannot slow it down. And I certainly cannot go back. Oh, if  I could but go back . But that’s a fairytale and this is my real life.

I’m weary.

And when I think about finally embracing the authentic me, the honest and simple me, I feel peaceful. I feel like God, Himself is embracing me – the real me, the daughter He created.

My life has been utterly shattered. My little family literally cut in half in a year and a half’s time. Yet, here I stand.

Unashamed that I haven’t showered today. Okay with the fact that I was honestly relieved when our church’s game night was cancelled, so that I can remain home and embrace the solitude. Finally content to be me, finding who I am while gently shedding the mother and wife.

I am okay to stop the constant need to improve, strive and acquire. I won’t compete and grasp for those things that I don’t even really desire anymore. I don’t believe that their must be pain to gain – acquire – acceptance in this life. God said to be still. He said He would fight for me and I could keep my peace. (Ex.14:14).

This is my life. I desire humble (simple) and safe. Quiet but not necessarily alone. My husband and I did quiet together, he was a soft spoken, intelligent man. I desire to enter into that safe quiet and embrace the humbleness of solitude.

The Word says: Be still and know that I am God (Psalm 46:10). Be still in this verse literally means: desist, cease your efforts. This is Jehovah Rāpha – The Lord your healer urging you to allow Him to be my focus, my exaltation of Him in my life. This exaltation of God heals us. It’s His child reaching for her father in her weariness.

STOP – Five Minute Friday   


I desire to be still. To not rush to those decisions that exalt themselves above my peace. The peace that God promises me in His Word. To not worry about cleaning my house, because everything/one tells me it must be “clean”; that my comfortable clutter and the dishes on my counter make me less than … I’m okay with my way of just maintaining the order of my house right now.

I desire a whole and healthy body, spirit and soul. And that means slowing down. Being still. Allowing God to order my life. Embracing who I really am. Passed the widow, the wife without a purpose. The mom, the mother without a child to care for. The “whoever” others expect me to be, when I just want to be me.

I’m embracing the peace of God.  It’s where I want to spend time getting centered and balanced in this 52 year old broken woman. The authentic me.

Thank you for taking the time to read my musings.


Author: Hopeannfaith

Welcome, I'm Andrea ... HOPEannFAITH ... I write and take pictures as a way of expression. These are gifts given by a loving and indulgent Father, to a headstrong and stubborn daughter, with much to say. A semi-retired social worker/secretary, I now call myself a writer. I've published one internet article and written many blog posts. However, publishing does not make one a writer, anymore than taking a box camera to the park makes one a photographer. What makes one who and what they are? Well God for one ... formed me before the foundations of this world (Psalm 139); and many, many years after putting away my passion for wordsmithing and picture taking He gave it back ... in droves. I am a culmination of my choices and experiences. It is here that my experiences color the world in print and color. It is my goal to reach just one soul a day with love ... encouragement ... understanding or just letting that soul know that they are not alone where they are today. This is about creating ~ all of it. Creating a HOLY and SACRED place where the ugly truth can be healed and the beauty of a moment or a tear can brighten a day for the experience. Why HOPEannFAITH? Hopeannfaith is my inner child, and she is maturing, as she should have done all along. She is learning all about how Faith fulfills Hope. She is learning how to live. HOPEannFAITH ~ the wonder twins all wrapped up in one, me. These are my Journey Journals ~ written and visual. I welcome your company. I welcome your friendships. My Journey is in the light ~ although I have and will share the shadowy corners and the dark ~ so you know that you are never alone there. If we hold hands in the dark, and we walk, side by side, through the shadow, we will reach the Light together. In relationship with one another and with the Light. Blessings.

11 thoughts on “Embracing the Simple Life

  1. This is a powerful post! I love how God loves us just as we are, that we don’t need to pretend or strive, just to come to him and receive his peace. Praying that you know continued healing as you rest in his presence.

  2. Andrea, I am very sorry for your loss. It is true though, we need to embrace our authentic selves in order to be at peace with ourselves and with those who find their way into our lives. Continue to feel God’s gentle embrace.

  3. Andrea, I’m so sorry for your loss. Give yourself time to grieve. Peace will come…I promise! Sending you a long distance hug to let you know that you aren’t alone. I’m in the 6 spot this week.

    • Thank you Tara. I am allowing myself to grieve, though I do need reminding to not try to rush it. Usually my therapist reminds me. 😊 I think we all need reminding from time to time. That’s why this new journey I find myself on is so interesting to me. I’m learning to comfort myself. God bless you.

  4. When we lose someone, our identity seems to change. I lost a son 28 years ago. I was no longer a mother of twins (or so I thought–really I had one twin in heaven and one on earth). I am sorry for your loss of husband and son–it takes time to walk thru the grief and different role that we have. May God guide you through this season. Yes, it is good to “be still and let God order your life”. Blessings!
    So glad you visited my blog!

  5. I’m so sorry for your loss, Andrea. May the Holy Spirit continue to guide you through your journey of grief. May Jesus send just the right people to reach out and embrace you.

  6. Such a beautiful and real post! Thank you for sharing your heart. My story is not like yours – as I know nothing of that kind of loss – but there are similarities in what I crave. The simple, quiet life. I truly lve this post. I know seeing this link in the Five Minute Friday’s community group was all God. Sending you lots of hugs and love.
    (This is my wordpress blog but I use blogger for the FMF link up: )

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