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I believe … [day 3]


It’s October again and time for 31 days of writing. This year I’m only linking up with my FMF sisters. Trying once again to get back to my first creative love, writing. Pen and paper, computer screen, lunch bag and envelopes! Writing is my calling, I believe 😉

Today’s Prompt:

Believe.

Go …

What do I believe? The question is really ,’who do I believe?’.

John 14:1 “Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God[a]; believe also in me.

Jesus. Father God. The Holy Spirit.

These I believe The Word of God.

I also belive that most people believe “in” God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit; as if they are imaginary. I can’t remember when the ‘I believe’ became revelation to me, but knowing that I know that they are real, that the Word is alive became a revelation, but I did have that AHA moment and it was early on in my walk.

Then life got really hard and my mind tried to close up operations making those thing real questionable. Trauma does this. It began when my Don …

STOP!

It began when my Don went home to be with the LORD. I woke up 3 days later at 5 in the morning (I’ll never forget) after he left and spoke outloud to the Father. Like Abraham I reminded Him (Abraham often reminded God) that since my husband was now with Him that He was my husband, my source…my comfort (though the comfort, while there, is often even now, overwhelmed by the losses I’ve endured). It was a spontaneous conversation with God and after putting out my demands I came to realize that I could still feel Don’s love. I still felt loved. I just had to adjust to my ‘new normal’; goodness widows hate that term. Seriously all widows feel the same about that phrase.

So today I believe … I continue to simply believe as I’ve been instructed to believe –

IN FAITH I believe. Without this knowledge I would have lost the battle to retain my mind after losing Don and Shane. Sometime the battle tries to overwhelm me so I cling to THEM for dear life. THEY save me daily.

Each.And.Every.Day.

John 14:6 Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. If you really know me, you will know[b] my Father as well.  From now on, you do know him and have seen him.”

About a year ago … the mark of having lost my son for one year , I heard this song. It truly says what I believe.

I believe He is.

Thanks so much for stopping by and coming with me on this journey of mine. God bless.

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I’m sorry. I’m afraid, I can’t. [day 2].


God tells us 365 times in the Bible not to be afraid. One for each day. You would think we would be able to get this one down pat.

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I’m sorry. I’m afraid I’m not there yet.

In a matter of 19 months and then in the blink of an eye my life was irrevocably changed. So how do I begin again. It’s easy, though still very painful, to look back now and see how I got here. Yet, I’m afraid I don’t know what tomorrow brings. It’s hard.

I’ve gotten to the true grieving part. The part where most of my pain is private, inward, isolated. There are several reasons I say this.

  1. Grieving, unlike her outward sister Mourning, is a heart and spirit thing. It’s done almost entirely by oneself. But God. Thank goodness for God!
  2. I grieve privately because after 3 1/2 years people wonder why I’m still grieving, and there’s noway to tell them the truth. It doesn’t end. It simply becomes apart of you.
  3. I isolate. And I believe that most widows and mothers of the deceased child isolate, even if that was not apart of who they were before the sorrows.

Stop.

During this transition, which will end with me being okay. Though many things in this new life, that I didn’t anticipate, cause me great fear (anxiety) I run to Father God and find one of His encouragements to not fear, as I work towards courageous.

Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9b

Well, I found that that five minutes lasted quite a bit. Funny how time is so much more when you live in faith. Thanks for stopping by … I hope this helps someone. If I can just help one to feel not alone I’ll be happy.

 

 


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Living Life After Death-5 Minutes @ a Time: [day 1]


It’s October again and time for 31 days of writing. This year I’m only linking up with my FMF sisters. Trying once again to get back to my first creative lote, writing. It’s been a long 3 and a half years. I only know that from looking back on it. Because it sure feels like a lifetime has passed. And actually, two lifetimes did. [insert sigh]

So … about the 5 minutes at a time. FMF =Five Minute Friday, hosted by Kate, where my sister writers and I take one day to free write, un-rushed, for 5 minutes each Friday. Throwing punctuation and grammar to the wind [quite the feat for a grammarista!]. No spell check. No corrections.

::I’m updating here to let you know that this post/page will serve as my landing page.  A landing page or table of contents page is where you, my dear readers, can find a link to each of my 31 Day writes. So down at the bottom of this, my [day 1] post I will link each of my posts for you to find easily.::

The theme for my FMF 31 Day Write is … Living Life After Death. I know that sounds daunting, right? Well, not as daunting as getting here, today from there. Where’s there you ask … that’s a tough question to answer, and yet I’ve spent 3 years feeling as though I’ve had to explain the where to justify the here and now, to some. So I will try to fill you in on my Story in five minutes!

Story is the prompt…GO!

No rush, right. [insert smile].

Three years ago my husband died from cancer after a 19-month battle. When I say battle I mean the disease’s toll on us as a family. My husband lived ,to the fullest, all but one week of those 19 months. He never gave up until he was finally called home to the Lord.

Sixteen months later my youngest son passed away due to fentanyl poisoning. He was an addict for 17 years. Another battle that took a toll on all of us as a family. He tried. He fought it in the end and things were looking up but …. STOP.

Heroin addiction is a disease and while cancer’s existence within my husband’s body wore his body down, heroin has a voice and a hunger that wears down the person’s mind while the sickness of not giving in wears down the body just as much as giving in and using the drug.

So in 16 months, my little family was cut in half. My oldest son and I move forward in faith, learning to live this life after death.

So if you’d like, I’d enjoy your company on this 31-day journey to wherever God will take us.

                                                                1. story. [you are here]

    2.  afraid 

3. believe

4. why

5. FMF – Share

6. belong

7. hope

8. comfort

9. inspire

10. how

11. door

12. FMF –

13. talk

14. ask

15. when

16. pray

17. pause

18. search

19. FMF – 

20. Audience

21. start

22. help

23. common

24. brief

25. capture

26. FMF – 

27. whole

28. song

29. together

30. voice

31. close

Thanks so much for stopping by and coming with me on this journey of mine. God bless.

1Andrea

 

 

 

 

 


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There are not 5 easy ways to pray!


Hello my friends … I caught up the other day and then, life … So this is …

Day 11 (on the 13th) =) so let’s get to it.

PrayerPrayer … there is no easy 5 step way to pray. Why? Because when we fully understand prayer we find that it is quite simple.

We don’t need a 5 step plan.

We don’t need a script or a prayer template, though God does provide one, which we went over in an earlier post.

I’m here to tell you that once you’ve set aside time to pray, you’ve essentially set aside time to spend with God.

Prayer is about relationship with God. With Jesus.

Prayer is a conversation with God. It’s that communication we all need in a relationship.

I sincerely just have conversations with God all day long. Sometimes in my heart and mind. Sometimes in the Spirit (or in tongues). And sometimes just me walking around the house on a normal day talking to God about what His Word says about my situation.

Sometimes it’s just to tell Him that I love Him … that’s the praise part.

Like we went over in an earlier post … The Lord’s Prayer of The Our Father (depending on your particular faith) is that template that God provided. And as funny as it is there are 4 steps in that template …

“This, then, is how you should pray:

9 “‘Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name,
10 your kingdom come,
your will be done,
on earth as it is in heaven.
11 Give us today our daily bread.
12 And forgive us our debts,
as we also have forgiven our debtors.
13 And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from the evil one.

For thine is the kingdom,
The power, and the glory,
For ever and ever.
Amen.

Verse 9-10 are Praise to God. Acknowledging His Sovereignty.

Verse 11 is acknowledgement that God is our provision.

Verse 12 is us asking God for forgiveness as we forgive others. *Important note – if we are not forgiving others we will not benefit from this part of the prayer.

Verse 13 is us asking God for His help withstanding temptations

The ending is something we put in (it’s not in the bible therefore does not have a verse number) … it is personal praise of God and Who He.

Having shown, again, the EXAMPLE … it’s only an example, we can see what our prayers should be comprised of.

When we talk to our friends and loved ones … we are encouraging (praise), we often acknowledge what they mean to us, and what they provide for us in our relationship with them. When something goes wrong we (should) ask their forgiveness. And often we ask them to be accountability partners in life, helping us to avoid life’s pitfalls.

If we communicate with our friends and family in this way … how much more should we communicate with God on this level.

Think about it, there are people in your life that you speak and communicate with every day! Your wife, husband, mother, friends … and your children.

Do we, you and I, remember to include God in that list? We need to!

And I just said … we communicate daily with our children. Well, God seeks the same! He wants to speak into our lives daily, continually!

I promise you this … If and when you call on God the Father, Daddy, He is always going to listen and answer. He is always going to have time for you. He’s never going to send your call to voice mail!

Prayer is dependent on our relationship with God the Father. The more we communicate with God; our Love, our dreams and fears and needs and wants, the deeper our relationship with God becomes. And the more intimate the relationship the more effective the communication.

If there’s one thing most agree on it’s that a good relationship has good communication.

God is looking for you to talk to Him. What would you say to Him today.

Lord, I thank You today for always being there for me when I need to talk. Thank You for listening and guiding me in this life with Your invaluable input! Lord, You are my provision and my confidante. Your advise and guidance are priceless to me, You are never wrong. Thank You for knowing my heart and my needs. Thank You for being a great parent and know when NO is the answer and helping me to understand those times when No is the answer.
Lord, help me to always chose You first in the hard times and may I always remember to be grateful in the good times.
I Love You Father. You are my one and only.

In Jesus’ name, amen.

Thanks for stopping by for this humble little post. God bless you.

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God’s hedge of protection … Caught Up!


Hear, O Lord, when I cry with my voice! Have mercy also upon me, and answer me. Psalm 27:7

Hear, O Lord, when I cry with my voice!
Have mercy also upon me, and answer me. Psalm 27:7

Day 10

Today’s focus has been all about protection. I’ve been praying for calm and peace against the anxiety, a lie of the enemy to distract me from praying.

I chose Prayer for my 31 Day Writing Challenge because that is where I am in my day to day. I’ve been praying more and more. And when I pray I pray God’s Word and only the solution. Because, after all, God knows what I need, often before I even know what I need.

Isn’t He wonderful.

Matthew 6:7-8

7 And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words. 8 Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him.

I think we all begin, when learning to pray, with those begging prayers. And then we graduate to praying over and over, with many unnecessary words, as if God somehow cannot understand the severity of our need, or hear us.

Then, hopefully, we come to understand that God not only hears us, He knows our need before we do, and He answers us!

Again, isn’t He amazing!

So what is this hedge of protection? Many Christians have grown up in the Lord praying this hedge of protection. At our church we got into a conversation during fellowship about God’s Hedge! =) Wondering if it was actually in the bible and if it actually exists.

It is and it does!

In Job 1:10

“Have you not put a hedge around him and his household and everything he has? You have blessed the work of his hands, so that his flocks and herds are spread throughout the land.

This is satan talking to God, trying to prove that we are protected by Father and without His protection we would curse Him [God]. Most know the story. If you don’t I encourage you to read it.

So the God’s Hedge of Protection is real and working! So we continue to pray it around us and others when we feel the need of protection from the enemy and life’s perils.

So, again, I offer you a template of a prayer, to begin a discipline of praying God’s protection around us.

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Hedge of Protection – adapted from Prayers that Avail much. (fill in the blanks, with “I” or the name of the loved one you are praying for.)

Father, in the name of Jesus, I lift up __________ to You and pray a hedge of protection around him/her. I thank You, Father, that You are a wall of fire round about __________ and that you set Your angels round about him/her.
I thank You, Father, that __________ dwells in the secret place of the Most High and abides under the shadow of the Almighty. We say of You, Lord, You are his/her refuge and fortress, in You will he/she trust. You cover __________ with Your feathers, and under Your wings shall he/she trust. __________ shall not be afraid of the terror by night or the arrow that flies by day. Only with his/her eyes will __________ behold and see the reward of the wicked.
Because __________ has made You, Lord, his/her refuge and fortress, no evil shall befall him/her — no accident will overtake him/her — neither shall any plague or calamity come near him/her. For you give Your angels charge over __________, to keep him/her in all Your ways.
Father, because You have set Your love upon __________, therefore will You deliver him/her. __________ shall call upon You, and You will answer him/her. You will be with him/her in trouble and will satisfy __________ with a long life and show him/her Your salvation. Not a hair of his/her head shall perish. Amen.

Scripture References:
Ezekiel 22:30
Psalm 91:4,5 AMP
Zechariah 2:5
Psalm 91:8-11 AMP
Psalm 34:7
Psalm 91:14-16 AMP
Psalm 91:1,2 AMP Luke 21:18

This prayer is adapted from the scriptures above.
Today I prayed for my mom with this today. Mainly because I was at my wits end and didn’t know what to pray. And low and behold, and fully expected, God answered me.

This prayer does one other, very important thing. It prays the solution. It is not wordy and does not beg or repeat. It speaks God’s own words and the solution. A discipline that we all must hone. We must begin to pray God’s solutions.

And when we do … those solutions manifest. The more disciplined we are in these prayer the more and more we will notice God’s Hand upon our lives and we will come to an intimate knowing of His faithfulness to His Word and to us.

After all, He is the Best Daddy!

Lord, I thank You right now for those answered prayers. I thank You for my mother’s safety and soundness. Lord I ask that You continue to provide her with sound thinking and the motivation to get those things done in her life that she needs. I thank You that these things will manifest and become routine in her life, that she will come to a place where she cherishes these gifts from You. Lord again I call the blood of Jesus Christ over her and her household and our entire family. In Jesus’ name, I pray, amen.

Thanks for reading my friends. God bless you.

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David’s Prayers for Protection … Psalms


psalm 1914Day 9 … hopefully my last catch up from behind post! =)

I hope to be on track from this point on.

That said … some situations in my family have surfaced in the last 48 hours. Mainly concerning my mother, who is elderly and lives, defiantly, alone. She adamantly refuse help and to all her children any access to the things that need to be done to make her secure physically, mentally or financially. She is nothing if not independent!

Much to my frustration.

If you’ve ever read WAY back in this blog you would have found that me and my family (parents and siblings) did not have healthy lives, upbringings or relationships. It has definitely been a rough road, our lives together. Fast forward to today … And I feel frustrated in regard to my mother’s choices for her life. And … I feel deeply and profoundly that I must do as the Word requires and honor my mother and father regardless of how I feel about our past, present or future.

Am I caring for my parents and my grandmother with the correct attitude?

I believe I am. The past is what it is … that does not negate that they are my parents and I should honor that. Period.

A good attitude does not mean that I should enter into a relationship without boundaries to safe guard myself … and that is how I came to needing this prayer today. For mother, and for my sister and myself as well.

Psalm 71 is a prayer of protection written by David, as much of the Psalms were. It begins …

In you, Lord, I have taken refuge;
let me never be put to shame.
In your righteousness, rescue me and deliver me;
turn your ear to me and save me.
Be my rock of refuge,
to which I can always go;
give the command to save me,
for you are my rock and my fortress.
Deliver me, my God, from the hand of the wicked,
from the grasp of those who are evil and cruel.

Psalm 91 is a psalm that contains ALL of the promises of God … written by Moses, it is believed. This Psalm a favorite of many amazingly confirms the above and ends (verses 14-16) with the ultimate promise of God’s love and protection!

It begins …

Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust.”
Surely he will save you
from the fowler’s snare
and from the deadly pestilence.
He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.

The beginning of Psalm 91 is a prayer that affirms the prayer’s knowledge that God are the very thing David begs in his Psalm 71 prayer.

Much of praying needs to be the solution!

As I was writing this post, God answered the prayers I didn’t know how I was going to pray! Isn’t that amazing! He knows our hearts. He knows our needs before we can even articulate them.

Just in reading these Psalms and typing them and just putting them deeply into my heart, my prayers were answered.

That’s how prayer works, particularly when we pray God’s Word. Praying God’s Word, as I said in my last post, insures that we are praying God’s will for our lives and troubles.

God loves this … He wants us to chose him to help him. He becomes strong in our lives when we are weak and turn to Him to solve our problems.

2 Corinthians 12:9

he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.

My encouragement to you is read the Psalms and use them in your prayer life, regularly. God has provided an entire Book in His Word for us to use for prayer! Amazing right?

Lord,

I thank You with all I am for the answered prayers today! I thank You that my obedience to your Word and guidance to seek You first has become a lifestyle for me, insuring Your presence in my every moment. I glorify You, I honor You, always!

Lord, thank Your Word, for the Psalms You provided for us to pray within Your will, always. Thank You.
Lord I pray a hedge of protection around me and my whole family. I pray the blood of Jesus Christ over this family right now! Lord You, alone our Rock and Redeemer. Our Refuge and Fortress. You rescue and deliver us from the enemy. Thank You Lord that You’ve given Your angels charge over us. I surrender all to You, You are the Lord of my life. Thank You Lord. May my life glorify You. In Jesus’ name, amen.

Thank you for reading my dear friends. You’re always in my prayers. God bless.

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Oh, this day! I will rejoice …


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Day 8 …

Oh! This day!

Thank you, Lord, through it all I did not lose my peace. Today I lived by faith. I stepped out in faith, in the face of fear. I pray(ed) in faith. Thank you, Lord, for this faith you gave me. Thank you, for the widow to go to you first. To seek out godly people for prayer, for amazing friends with amazing prayer skills.

Lord, I look up … To You, where my help comes from. I know where my Help is … It is in You, alone.

You alone know what I need in all of today’s circumstances. I trust all to you, and I surrender all to you..

Oh, this day, Lord. I rejoiced in praise and am glad in it.

In Jesus’ name, I pray. In all thanksgiving. Amen.

Thanks for reading my loyal friends. You’re in my prayers, always. May God bless you.

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