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While Thursday Remains …


Flawed

 

Welcome to what is left of Thursday. On Thursdays I try to be brief in my writing. I try to express myself in as little words as possible. I try to give encouragement in short strokes, so that you may find your way in your own way, maybe with just a little wisdom gleaned from my experiences.

Welcome to Few Words Thursday with HOPEannFAITH and FRIENDS … join us using the linky below. Blessings to You!

I haven’t written anything in about three weeks. I’ve been walking in the shadows all this time. Angst and discomfort just under my skin. Wondering who I might be, why I couldn’t feel. A friend pointed out that I could feel … that maybe the right description was “feeling empty” … that “felt” right.

So I wandered and wondered. How could I be pleasing to God when I felt this way? I was/am empty, sad, unhappy …

And then this evening I read this: Destitute at A Restless Heart.

I could not have expressed myself with such grace and clarity. Oh how I long to write like those ladies I follow! The flow makes their writing feel effortless … I picture lace curtains in a cool autumn breeze with a steaming cup of coffee at the ready, as they sit in linen and lace, with wispy curls at their temples, while delicate fingers tap away at a keyboard writing what I feel, yet cannot express so beautifully!

Ahhh … but I write, still.

The line in Destitute that is winding around in my spirit … hopefully to grow under a blanket of prayer like bread dough rises under a linen dishcloth, into a real blog post is this:

“…but religion is a product of man trying to do the right thing.” ~ Kelly Sauer

Kelly describes this place … what I call empty … as Destitute. And I agree with her … I believe God allows me to feel this emptiness …

We are vessels … and this vessel is cracked … all the “good” I try to achieve simply flows through the tiny cracks, draining my resolve, my energy … my very essence, leaving me to feel that it is futile. That this desire to ALWAYS reflect Him is beyond the Me of all of this …

Kelly has tapped a deep emotion in me … one that wants me to write until this post is unreadable. So rather than brutalize my faithful here I will leave this a true few words …. and ponder where Kelly’s soul is leading mine!

Thank you, Kelly … from the deepest parts of Andrea, thank you for your courage!

Blessings Loves.

This has been a Few Words Thursday Post!




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The Grace provided in Serenity ♥


few words thursday …Good Morning my friends.

Today I will attempt to describe where I am in regards to Serenity … if you’ve been here on Thursdays before you know the route … if not, WELCOME and feel free to join me … simply click through my surf photo for the (non) rules!

In an earlier post(s) on one or the other of my blogs I have wondered, stressed over or delved into SERENITY. In a recent post I defined it.

Quietude … a condition of the mind, a peacefulness with the status of one’s being right where they are …

There are slogans a many that some will recognize and identify, while others will recognize without knowing the origin of the phrase. Like a comfortable form of de ja vu they will know that they know where to slogan came from, but it will escape them for the moment…

Time takes time…

Pain before Serenity…

Be where you is…

First things first…

We have a choice…

God could and would if He were sought…Sobriety then Serenity…It’s a selfish program…

These are the ones that struck me between the eyes this morning.

I woke up to God re-wording Reinhold’s prayer for me:

God…Has granted me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change…He has granted me the courage to change the things that I can … and He has granted me the WISDOM to know the difference.

[God could and would if He were sought…] Seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Matthew 6:33

[Sobriety then Serenity…] For me it is the Sobriety of Mind … I must work each day [time takes time…] toward sober thinking. Then and only then am I granted, GRACED with COURAGE and WISDOM.

For God has not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7

… a sound mind, self-discipline, good judgement…sobriety of mind!

I just found this!!! It has me a bit excited and now I must find this particular bible …Douay-Rheims Bible

For God hath not given us the spirit of fear: but of power, and of love, and of sobriety. 2tim1:7

[It’s a selfish program…] For me this one is important because of the world’s view. While the world, society, is into entitlement and hedionism to the enth degree … if a thing is about IMPROVEMENT it is considered “selfish”.

I am entitled to live and indulge as I please as long as it doesn’t hurt anyone else. Right? I am justified in my vengence and revenge if I have been wronged. Right? … society sees these as inaliable rights! When these are rooted in selfishness and self centeredness. The world view tells this society that these are entitlements, rights, yet somehow they are NOT selfish.

Yet, let me improve myself. Let me seperate myself out to recover from the confusion and choas of [my] life. Let positive change and boundaries take hold; changing who I am, and I instantly become …

SELFISH and SELF INVOLVED and SELF CENTERED

When I call out to God in my trial He will only focus on what it is in me that needs fixing!

The disturbance in me … is me!

When I call out to God, begging Serenity … begging Peace … He requires that I fix something in me.

SO… YES … IT IS a self program.

LIFE is a selfish program … Spirituality is a selfish program …

For my life to be about Christ [because it isn’t about me … it IS about Jesus] I must focus on recovering, repairing, fixing the disturbances in ME.

Reinholds prayer is beautiful and cathartic. Yet, when one [I] comes to a place of truly knowing God one must see that the wording is wrong.

When I woke this morning I realized as this prayer whispered it’s request in my soul, my Spirit [My Holy Spirit] rose in me and whispered sweetly …

” Child, I HAVE granted you these things, by the GRACE of MY ONLY SON. Now… take hold of them. Grasp them and embrace them, they are my gift each day.” ~ GOD

How do you seek serenity? What would give you peace today love?

May you know Peace today … the Person Peace … may He walk with you on this path!

God could and would if He were sought…May you find Him now. 🙂

Blessings Loves

 

 


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Doing What I Know to Do …


welcome to few words thursday …click the picture to go to the [not so strict] purpose and rules of the ‘fwth’ prompt… 🙂

today i was intrigued by this Self Reliance prompt.

Honestly I was intrigued more by the Emerson quote:

“Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could.”

I don’t know how to do that. Correction … I am learning how to accomplish this.

 

Worthwhile Day by Jessica Dang

“Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you
could.”

What is one thing you can do that would make today worthwhile? What’s
stopping you from getting started right now?

(Author: Jessica Dang)

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what is the #1 thing i can do to make today worthwhile?

This was a very sharp, double-edged question today … Easy and terribly difficult, at the same time, particularly today.

The #1 thing I do that makes any day worthwhile is to respond to my Calling … to respond to my day to day … by  writing my LIFE and my HEART in a ministering manner.

That makes my day worth while, in the only true way I know … following the Holy Spirit with my pen {keyboard}, to the heart and spirit of a like-minded person who needs to know what God says about things …

THINGS: meaning our day to day life, as we see in Psalm 138:8

“The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your steadfast love, O Lord, endures forever. Do not forsake the work of your hands.”

Other translations say “the Lord perfects that which concerns me…”

Do you know the purpose God has on your life? Do you know your calling?

FYI: Only you and God know what you’ve been called to do, and no one can take that from you …

That is, except [me] YOU.

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the second half of this prompt is:  “what is stopping you from getting started right now?”

Again … that would be me.

Somewhere in the bible it says that satan steals my blessings … and my #1 blessing in this life is God’s Word.

He gave us His Word so that we might exhibit such in our day to day lives and interactions… so that we might SHARE His Word by the telling and example of it in our lives.

Most times we do this through our individual CALLING.

Then the Word says…

2 Timothy 3:16  (MSG)

14-17But don’t let it faze you. Stick with what you learned and believed, sure of the integrity of your teachers—why, you took in the sacred Scriptures with your mother’s milk! There’s nothing like the written Word of God for showing you the way to salvation through faith in Christ Jesus. Every part of Scripture is God-breathed and useful—showing us truth, exposing our rebellion, correcting our mistakes, training us to live God’s way. Through the Word we are put together and shaped up for the tasks God has for us.

Today I am doing my best not to be fazed … and to write. So nothing is preventing me from getting started doing what it is that makes this and all days worthy while.

I am writing. I am sharing the Word, and my heart ,in the hope that it reaches like-minded souls and assists them, as the Holy Spirit and my trusted counsel assist me.

It is what I do … and while I may be hesitant this day, due to God’s correction [see the scripture verse in bold]… God has provided me everything I need to complete this task He has given me.

What stops you from using you calling? How do you overcome the mental or emotional block that stops you from doing what would make your day worth while?

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I read a something this morning that really spoke to me on this subject, even before I read todays prompt.

Lysa TerKeurst’s blog today dealt with a very similar subject … in her blog she wrote something like this …

My choice is whether or not to give away the power to control my emotions.

When I react, rather than respond, I give away the power to control [my] self, because of the emotion of the situation.

~ when I react to something, I respond and communicate through my emotions, and I have been taught not to respond while I am in an emotional state….there is a popular slogan that speaks to this emotion thing quite well and  some will recognize it quite well:

don’t think … don’t drink … go to a meeting

In instances like these it is the don’t think that is vital. Drinking is not a concern any longer and I go to meetings frequently to maintain sober mindedness and sober behavior.

When I react I give someone or something else power over me.

Void of Power = Void of [self] Control.

Therein, my friends lies both my problem and my solution.

So today I thank God for the work He is doing in me. It always amazes me that He, our Omnipotent Creator, takes the time to …

Perfect what concerns me … even the writing down of my thoughts.

Simply Amazing Faithfulness!

Blessings Loves ♥


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Weakness and God’s Grace … **Updated by Grace


2 Corinthians 12: 8 – 10

8 Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Weakness and God.‘s Grace.

I was emotional last night … emotionally weak.

From a lack of sleep and a very busy day.

I’ve found that much of what we go through in life is long-term. Yes, I know we don’t HAVE to live this way. However, we continually state that God is leading us and knows the plan.

So … what if this is the PLAN people?

If I BELIEVE that GOD is working HIS plan, then this particular thing is SUPPOSED to be happening.

…for my power is made PERFECT in [your] WEAKNESS.

God wants me to partake in His Grace … there are certain things in my life that I am to ALLOW God to handle. Most probably all things, if I interpret the Word correctly.

I went to bed utterly exhausted and frustrated last night. I have these WEAKNESSES  … frustration and anger. I may have mentioned this before.

I’ve come to the place where most days I don’t respond immediately to these things … requests, correspondences … invitations to slide back into behaviors ingrained in me just (literally) a few weeks ago.

[God revealed the REACT vs. RESPOND realities to me recently and I have been working on mastering the RESPOND and squashing the REACTION]

Therefore, I have been making an effort, in/by the grace of God, to fix this character defect.

WELL … in an attempt to RESPOND last evening, I felt I should get clarification in a situation. I am comforted by the fact that I was able not to react and handled the situation calmly and rationally, at the time.

Truth be told I should have waited.

I should have known myself better, while the situation was clarified, I did not understand clearly. Emotions and exhaustion…and when I allow my mind to process something under these conditions I rarely am able to stop the REACTION process.

Like I said, God and I are working on something here…

I have a great ability to make things much bigger than they are … oh! and fictional in their origin! I mean, I’m a writer after all! And while my genre does not lean towards story telling, per say, my emotions are VERY creative!

I was then able to spend time with a close friend, and we ministered to one another. At the end of the conversation my friend said she was glad she called and that she felt better. What a blessing.

I can’t say that I felt better, I was exhausted, frustration gathering at the edges of my exhaustion, begging me to stir up feelings of deep unrest. I refused and quietly went to bed, praying.

I’m at a place where I rarely ask God why, but I do ask that he clarify things that have gotten out of hand, because I’ve come to this conclusion…

GOD has this!

In my starting scripture Paul says he DELIGHTS in weakness. Now I don’t think that is something we are directed to do. Paul was talking about how he REACTED to his own weakness. Frankly, I don’t think I’ll ever be able to DELIGHT in these situations, on the schedule for the Plan God has for my life. However, I can use the fact that I have come to know that God is aware and in control, no matter how I feel or what is going on.

They [who are they?] say “it is what it is”. A friend said yesterday that “we know what it is not”, and this is true.

This mornings frustration, and I guess to some extent this is anger, is do to the fact that I did not succeed at the squashing of the REACTION. My mind dwelled and created, against all of my efforts to control this part of [my] self

I ask God to bring clarity, because no one else can [will]. I ask that he GRACE me with His patience so that I can honestly move on free from the frustration.

So in my weakness HIS GRACE is doing a work in ME…did you think I was waiting on God to fix those who inadvertently frustrate me???

NO! :)

I’m way past that! God doesn’t fix others to make my life easier. HE fixes me so that I can do what it is HE has planned and this may NOT make my life easier.

It does make my life better, though.

So loves…where in your weakness do you allow God’s grace to be sufficient for the situation.

HOW do you manage to respond rather than react?

HOW do you stop yourself from indulging in the “Why God”s of self-pity and settle calmly into the

“I know God has this”? of life?

I am weak this morning. Yes, from the frustration of perceived things, but I am going to allow God’s Grace to be sufficient, and pray each time the frustration and fatigue surfaces. It’s what I know to do, today ….

*** I am happy to say that by the end of this day, with God and trusted counsel ,all of this frustration was cleared up and I had [my] self control back. Situations were clear and all is well. I thank God that He has given me the ability to be diligent in seeking His purpose for me in my day to day. He is faithful and I am blessed. ***

Blessings

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Few Words Thursday is Visiting …A Woman’s Heart …


Happy Thursday Loves!

My FWT post is written over at A Woman’s Heart today…and it isn’t short…however, many of the Words are God‘s so maybe the ones that are actually mine are few?…But don’t count on that…

I would love it if you would join me, today, in writing your heart…after all this a Writer‘s Prompt…and the rules…well they are FEW… 😉

So join me for my post: Called to Peace –  A How to Heal a Heart Post…on Thursday.

We are called to peace, by God. His is a covenant of peace, with us and in us.

Thursday Partners: Please go visit and show some love!

1. Holly @ Withoutado…an OUTSTANDING POST! Philemon

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I was going to write this morning…


and then a friend questioned something I had decided within myself.

No…not a truth, rather something I had decided had been said by someone else.

I am working out my placement in Christ.

Where exactly He has me and why…

I know the where, yet remain uncertain in my flesh, and I know the why and am ok with that.

Yet there remain…questions, resentments…

things that I think should be. Things that I cannot change and yet, still, I THINK…which does not matter in the larger scheme of things!

So I must focus…

My steps are ordered of the Lord and He delights in my way. Psalm 37:23

Because of this ordering of my steps, God knows where I am going when I begin to Think

                              ~more highly of myself than I should! Romans 12:1-8

From Paul’s letter to the romans we learn true humility: “For by the grace given to me I say to everyone among you not to think of yourself more highly than you ought to think, but to think with sober judgment, each according to the measure of faith God has assigned. For as in one body we have many members, and not all the members have the same function, so we, who are many, are one body in Christ, and individually we are members one of another.

Sober Judgment…to think and decide with a sound mind.

That is how I end up, now, most times, stopping and considering where I am in my head. What are my motives…

Why exactly do I feel this way…

because silly…You have allowed someone {yourself??} to make you feel lessTHAN.

“No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.” ~ Eleanor Roosevelt

I am guilty of jealousy, envy and judgment!

I have decided that someone is smarter than I. I have decided that, that someone(s) spends time thinking about how un-smart I am!

Ahhh the arrogance and self-importance of that decision. I should be so important to others! 🙂

 I say I don’t care about titles…lies!

I want to be somebody that is remembered for something…

Faith and Deeds: James 2:14-24

 14 What good is it, my brothers and sisters, if someone claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save them? 15 Suppose a brother or a sister is without clothes and daily food. 16 If one of you says to them, “Go in peace; keep warm and well fed,” but does nothing about their physical needs, what good is it? 17 In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead.

 18 But someone will say, “You have faith; I have deeds.”

   Show me your faith without deeds, and I will show you my faith by my deeds. 19 You believe that there is one God. Good! Even the demons believe that—and shudder.

 20 You foolish person, do you want evidence that faith without deeds is useless[a]? 21 Was not our father Abraham considered righteous for what he did when he offered his son Isaac on the altar? 22 You see that his faith and his actions were working together, and his faith was made complete by what he did. 23 And the scripture was fulfilled that says, “Abraham believed God, and it was credited to him as righteousness,”[b] and he was called God’s friend. 24 You see that a person is considered righteous by what they do and not by faith alone.

but do I do those things, the things I want to be remembered for, with the faith of good old Abraham?

                    Sometimes…

 then there are the times that the Andrea just rears her ugly little head and wants the recognition she can garner for herself! { no bold here…because this is the weakness and I don’t want you to see my weakness…} I do not think very highly of myself, way too often.

Therefore I remain so very grateful that my steps are ordered by God, Himself.  When I walk in this truth, God knows that I am going to His Word or to one of His hand chosen Shepards for me…to see me like He sees me.

You see I am on a path, that He has chosen, that I have agreed to walk…{one of my better decisions!} and He guides my steps. Therefore, when I am in trouble, even the troubles I create for myself I go to my God,

                                                                                            and He…sees to those things that concern me. He sees to it that I do not even stub my toes on a rock! Psalm 91:12b

 

I was going to write today…but I became entangled within the disturbance within myself…

…so here I am, doing a 12 Step; Christian style. 😉

Blessings Loves

 


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5 minutes of Understanding from the Holy Spirit


HOPEannFAITH hosts ‘Few Words Thursday’

I had heard and saw the blogging community participating in ‘5 minute friday’. Clicking on the picture will take you to the blog of origin, I believe .

Anyhow, the rules…5 minutes of writing…no editing…no over time!

So here goes! {This introduction does not count!}

Last night and this morning I have been a bit miffed at my LOVE! Yes…it happens. Let’s be honest any relationship JOY is a choice we make each day! Even the best of them!

and…My Love and I DO enjoy the BEST of THEM…and never forget that we are blessed in this.

I am leaving this evening for a Women’s ConferenceFCM’s 5th Annual ~ Moving Forward!

It’s a time with God and His other Daughters…getting refreshed just in time for this new season…

When I say season it does not escape me that this season is not only Spring…but also of NEW THINGS God is doing in our lives and our church. It has been a long winter of angst and stretching…

but back to the miff…I don’t want to leave with my LOVE in a grump! So I’ve spent the last 12 hours entered into his mood…and I got miffed. Dinner date last night was strained and I was disappointed…

This morning, rain and all, his mood is no better…and then it came to me.

This is how I behaved and worse, in the past when he had to be away any amount of time…I saw in his demeanor how I felt when he would be leaving soon…

And with that I felt bad…that I had created that feeling in my LOVE…ever.

A Lesson for me…so this morning when he left I kissed him and smiled, hopefully that will bring the sun to this rainy day for him.

I don’t even know if his grump is attached to my leaving…but when the Holy Spirit shows you something in this manner…well the true reason for his mood is of no concern to me, in the lesson, it’s the understanding that I need to be understanding!

Blessings Loves.