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[at a] Loss … in five {not}


       Happy Friday Loves ♥

       I’m joining the ladies over at The Gypsy Mama again this friday.

       Where we share our hearts, in five minutes or unedited, unchanged writing. This prompt is not about the writing. It is about the heart of the writing, the story or the writer and the unedited emotions evoked by the prompt.

So put your eraser and your inner critic away for 5 and show us your heart on this weeks prompt … [it’s a hard one, and Lisa-jo has loosened the time limit …]

{ I have battled this prompt for quite a time this morning. Typing and deleting thoughts and concepts, not for asthetic writing purposes, but because I would get to a point and be at a loss … pun, very much intended.

I find my best writing is words that actually belong to the Spirit of God. You, my loving readers, resonate best to what God has to say through me, rather than me trying to convey God through my writing. So I struggled and then God, faithful always, tapped me on the shoulder and whispered, “are you at a loss?”

Loss … Go …

I stand at a loss with this subject. Literally!

In my constant quest for Wholeness and Serenity I find that this subject flies in the face of those positives.

Loss asks me to view the tatters of my life … the discarded things that made me ill; physically, emotionally, mentally and Spiritually.

So what have I loss(t) that was good to loss(e)?

I’ve lost the priviledge of ignoring my health. In this I have found a better way of living.

I’ve lost my desire to please my mother. In this I have gained a peace that is only troubled when I allow her to rattle the latch of my gate …

I’ve lost my parenthood to my son’s adulthood. In this I am gaining [I haven’t mastered this one yet] a different view of the boys who have become men.

I’ve lost my bustling full house to an empty nest … not sure what will be gained here, now.

Over the years I’ve lost and discarded some hard things. Mostly little by little. Somedays I think, ‘when was the last time…?’ Therein is a great loss, because I didn’t even realize there was a loss.

When we look back we will realize there has been tremendous losses … tiny losses that we didn’t feel fall away, and tragic losses that took huge chunks of our hearts with them. But at the end of the day this is a life.

And life does what life does … it moves and adjusts and fills in where things have been lost.

Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature; the old things passed
away; behold, new things have come. 2 Corinthians 5:17

STOP…

{not sure I am happy with this post. but that is what five minute friday is about, right? I wrote, at the end, my heart. when I look at this one it seems small and unexplained. but then, how does one really explain the loss in a life accurately in these tiny containers we call words? Loss is an integral part of life … without it new cannot be added. and God wants to add to our lives, abundantly, and that requires us to loose those things that are not of Him.}

For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see
it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the
dry wasteland. Isaiah 43:19

Blessings Loves.


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The Grace provided in Serenity ♥


few words thursday …Good Morning my friends.

Today I will attempt to describe where I am in regards to Serenity … if you’ve been here on Thursdays before you know the route … if not, WELCOME and feel free to join me … simply click through my surf photo for the (non) rules!

In an earlier post(s) on one or the other of my blogs I have wondered, stressed over or delved into SERENITY. In a recent post I defined it.

Quietude … a condition of the mind, a peacefulness with the status of one’s being right where they are …

There are slogans a many that some will recognize and identify, while others will recognize without knowing the origin of the phrase. Like a comfortable form of de ja vu they will know that they know where to slogan came from, but it will escape them for the moment…

Time takes time…

Pain before Serenity…

Be where you is…

First things first…

We have a choice…

God could and would if He were sought…Sobriety then Serenity…It’s a selfish program…

These are the ones that struck me between the eyes this morning.

I woke up to God re-wording Reinhold’s prayer for me:

God…Has granted me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change…He has granted me the courage to change the things that I can … and He has granted me the WISDOM to know the difference.

[God could and would if He were sought…] Seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Matthew 6:33

[Sobriety then Serenity…] For me it is the Sobriety of Mind … I must work each day [time takes time…] toward sober thinking. Then and only then am I granted, GRACED with COURAGE and WISDOM.

For God has not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7

… a sound mind, self-discipline, good judgement…sobriety of mind!

I just found this!!! It has me a bit excited and now I must find this particular bible …Douay-Rheims Bible

For God hath not given us the spirit of fear: but of power, and of love, and of sobriety. 2tim1:7

[It’s a selfish program…] For me this one is important because of the world’s view. While the world, society, is into entitlement and hedionism to the enth degree … if a thing is about IMPROVEMENT it is considered “selfish”.

I am entitled to live and indulge as I please as long as it doesn’t hurt anyone else. Right? I am justified in my vengence and revenge if I have been wronged. Right? … society sees these as inaliable rights! When these are rooted in selfishness and self centeredness. The world view tells this society that these are entitlements, rights, yet somehow they are NOT selfish.

Yet, let me improve myself. Let me seperate myself out to recover from the confusion and choas of [my] life. Let positive change and boundaries take hold; changing who I am, and I instantly become …

SELFISH and SELF INVOLVED and SELF CENTERED

When I call out to God in my trial He will only focus on what it is in me that needs fixing!

The disturbance in me … is me!

When I call out to God, begging Serenity … begging Peace … He requires that I fix something in me.

SO… YES … IT IS a self program.

LIFE is a selfish program … Spirituality is a selfish program …

For my life to be about Christ [because it isn’t about me … it IS about Jesus] I must focus on recovering, repairing, fixing the disturbances in ME.

Reinholds prayer is beautiful and cathartic. Yet, when one [I] comes to a place of truly knowing God one must see that the wording is wrong.

When I woke this morning I realized as this prayer whispered it’s request in my soul, my Spirit [My Holy Spirit] rose in me and whispered sweetly …

” Child, I HAVE granted you these things, by the GRACE of MY ONLY SON. Now… take hold of them. Grasp them and embrace them, they are my gift each day.” ~ GOD

How do you seek serenity? What would give you peace today love?

May you know Peace today … the Person Peace … may He walk with you on this path!

God could and would if He were sought…May you find Him now. 🙂

Blessings Loves