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In the land of the living … take heart. ~ me He created on Thursday {day 10} w/linkz-y


 Thursday … and I am quiet today.

I’ve been persevering … diligently seeking and purposefully in the word. Looking for Him in me.

Came upon a heartbreak and tears threaten and I am finding it hard to keep them back. A bad mixture of hurt and anger churn and silence is my best bet.

Hard to “take heart” … sometimes things are just hard.

That’s life, right. At some point in all the forward movement … all the genuine effort of doing the right thing one finds that someone, somewhere is not going to be happy or approve; someone won’t even extend common courteousy and respect.

So what is this to me? To ME … God‘s girl? Why does this continue to cause me to even hesitate, let alone paralyze me, as it does.

Why do I so need to be liked … loved … respected by those around me? Why do I feel I deserve these from certain individuals? Isn’t this human nature, isn’t this how He built us. We were built to love and be loved; this is necessary. We were formed to earn and give respect; to be righteous ~ His righteousness.

 I’ve been told that how others feel about me, or what they think about me, is not my business; none of my concern. But as the fog fights the sun this fine Thursday morning I wonder if that means when that opinion … that feeling … those thoughts of another are none of my concern when I am faced with them directly.

mustn’t I consider why? Shouldn’t I try to find out what is wrong in me that one should feel as they do? Shouldn’t I consider what I’ve done so that I might ask forgiveness?

Wouldn’t anyone wonder what they had done wrong? Where they had strayed?

How does one take heart, find the courage to face the day, when faced with the fact that one they love so dearly feels you are not enough … have not done enough … ask too much … expect too much …

I am trying to apply God’s word this morning … I am pushing through the pain of this lessthan feeling, yet I sit at this keyboard with silent tears flowing, against every attempt not to hurt.

11 Teach me your way, LORD;
lead me in a straight path
because of my oppressors.
12 Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,
for false witnesses rise up against me,
spouting malicious accusations.

13 I remain confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living.
14 Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD. ~Psalm 27:11-14

Something must come of this quest I am on. I must be content that there is a lesson here; because otherwise my heart grows more faint for the effort.

Maybe “they” meant that I should not concern myself with the thoughts and opinions of others because only God’s opinions and thoughts matter?

This knowledge does not cause the heart to mend, I am afraid.

Knowing that I am doing my level best is not causing this fog to lift from my heart any more than the sun is winning its battle with the fog outside my window.

Morning in White : Fog

Maybe it should just be enough to know that the sun is out there … continually warming this earthen sphere, regardless of what it faces … it continues to do its job; the sun. It warms, it illuminates and it continues … no matter the circumstances of mother nature.

Maybe it should be enough. Just maybe I am enough just the way I am.

Maybe …

Has a heartbreak caused you to stop recently? Is it hard for you in light of personal pain to only be concerned with what God thinks of you? Or do you strive to be liked and loved when others opinions are not positive?

Let’s wait on the LORD together. These are the tests and trails of life that tend to make or break us (our hearts).

There is a lesson here, though like any other I find it hard to believe; yet I do believe … I believe God. He made me the best I can be, today, tomorrow and yesterday, when I fell short of someone’s approval. I know I am who I am supposed to be, fulfilling a call I am supposed to fill.

So I take heart and move forward; maybe slower today because of the hurt , still forward. There must be forward flow no matter the circumstance … I will not allow myself to stagnate in the things I cannot change. I will have the courage to change myself, to adapt … to thrive; even if slowly today.

Waiting for the LORD … being strong despite the tears and the heartache and being courageous  and … waiting for the LORD.



Blessings Loves.


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Words … He comes because of my words … {Day 3}


Woke up before the sun … knowing that God wanted me to pray. In the seeking of the Him in me I am finding the shoulds …

HAPPY THURSDAY … MY ATTEMPT AT A BRIEF POST … WON’T YOU SHARE WITH US YOUR HEART? SIMPLY LINK IN WITH THE LINKZ TOOL AT THE END! BLESSINGS.

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Because (S)he loves me, says the LORD, I will rescue her; I will protect her, for she acknowledges my name. (S)he will call upon me , and I will answer …Psalm 91:14-15a

My words … I deal in words {obviously} and this is a very important thing, because it is my words that He responds to …

Do I say I love Him enough {do I understand and truly feel that love I profess?}

Do I consider life and death before I use my words.

When I call on Him do I truly want His answer … His rescue? 

Our mothers spent a zillion hours teaching us to be polite, to watch our words, to be kind with our thoughts …

Sticks and Stones may break my bones but Words can never

 hurt me!”

According to God and His Word this is the most harmfully lifelong lie out there. It is our words that hurt the most. It is words that kill a spirit and make a being stop thriving. Just look at the world we live in …

Have you ever extended a kind word and had the person either act as if they’ve never heard kindness before or get angry, because they actually think you are mocking them? This is the climate of the world we live in.

But God! God is good.

The angel in Daniel 10:12 says: ” I have come because of your words.”

God, directly to us, in Psalm 91:15: ” He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him …”

Our words determine our daily relationship with God. Our words, in our day to day, determine whether the angels of God are commanded concerning us, to guard us in our ways (in our daily life) …

Its about what we SAY …

In this quest of finding God in me … in my life, daily … I see it requires me to be concerned with my words. I must speak God’s truths, in light of the world’s truths. I must call on God, and not my confidantes, who may be living harder than I am. Don’t get me wrong … God speaks to us in many ways; for most primarily through the Word, but definitely through His other children! What I am saying is that if I reach out to a human first it stays God’s hand in my dealings.

If I dwell in the shelter of the Most High; rest in the shadow of the Almighty, If I say of the LORD, He is my refuge and my fortress, My God in whom I trust … {Psalm 91}

Why then would I seek the counsel of man first … are my words of Faith and Trust true …

This is what I find in this journey [and while I’ve added a new twist to this journey with the 30 quest; the journey remains the same.] … I find that when I seek God in my day to day He sends the right person(s) to impart to me what I need.

And I often find Him in the writings of other Christian women like Kelly Sauer and Jennifer and Lisa-Jo and Ann VosKamp and others. He sends their words with the answers … and these ladies do what I strive to do … we write what He gives us, to share with you.

He comes because of my words … what I think … what I speak … what I write, and when I use those words right, God shows up.

What are you saying in your life today? Did you wake before the sun with kind thoughts for yourself, for your day? Are you ready to stop speaking the banalities of the world and begin speaking the life God intended for your life?

It’s my humble suggestion that you first read Psalm 91 ~ God’s love letter to us directly ~ all the promises contained within! See yourself as the child who acknowledges Him and see the promises and blessings that come with that simple task.

Blessings Loves.




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The Real Meaning of Being Still


 Welcome to my weekly attempt to write an amazing and encouraging post in just a few words! No real rules apply and you may join me by linking to the Linkz button at the bottom. Don’t know the non-rules … double click the photo above ^ and check them out … and then join me and share what’s on your heart.

Now … Being Still!

 He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; ~ Psalm 46:10

What does this mean to us? To me?

This scripture has been used to “magically” commune with God … when that is not exactly what it means. I have made this mistake too, many times!

I have sat myself down and tried, futilely, to make my mind blank so God could speak to me. So God could give me the answer to my problem; which He’s already done in the book! I say futile, because that it what it was … every time! While trying to clear it, this mind of mine would wander off to the laundry piles or the bills and the grocery list. This is what the human mind does … if left empty, it will amuse itself.

No … being still and knowing He is God is a direction to a nation who is disregarding Him!

He makes wars cease
   to the ends of the earth.
He breaks the bow and shatters the spear;
   he burns the shields with fire.
He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;
   I will be exalted among the nations,
   I will be exalted in the earth.”  ~ Psalm 46:9-10

In its proper context we can then compare these scriptures to our personal situations.

Is there a battle in your life where you have not regarded the power and might of God? Is there somewhere in your life that you are disregarding God entirely?

He is the One who makes these things cease, never to rise up again! He breaks the weapons of the enemy of our battles and the Glory is always His!

In the proper context can I then apply this direction to those areas or nations within me, can you?

The Word does say that we fight not against flesh but against powers and principalities!

What principality are you trying to fight without God?

For me, it’s (was) my health; and still there are times when I try to battle these things within my own understanding,  without regard to the power and might of God!

Silly-ness? Or is it sin?

The New American Standard says, “Cease striving and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”

Young’s Literal states “Desist, and know that I [am] God, I am exalted among nations, I am exalted in the earth.”

Is God directing me, when applied to my battles, to cease and desist my striving to repair, control, change those things which are not mine. Those things which are not within my power?

I believe, when applied within the context of this scripture, they way that we often want to apply the Word of God, Personally, that yes these can be used to remember God’s direction.

BE STILL: Cease striving … Cast your burden upon the LORD!

BE STILL: Desist resisting God’s power … better to seek His face… then His hand will move in your situation.

… BE STILL. 

Blessings Loves ❤




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I will not wish … Few Words Thursday and InLinkz


Imperfect Beauty

Welcome Loves … It’s Thursday again, and I’m going to attempt the Few Words rule … whatever that means, because as you know, I demand no real word count. So join me by linking up at the end, here, and share with us your heart. ♥

LORD, I pray, Let my words be few, so that I may hear You.

I found myself in the sin of fear, yet again. Not from any outward danger, rather from the demons within, that plague the Who of Andrea.

I have been confessing, confiding in trusted friends and mentors, my inner self criticism. That internal voice that says, continually, “You are not loved, liked, respected.” … “You are not good enough, see … they correct and admonish you … they tell you how to be, who to be, how to act …”. That laughing voice tells me there is nothing I can ever do to be good enough … and inwardly I cringe and hide in a corner of pain and self loathing.

Wow … did I just say write that!?!

and … as that voice chatters away, I seek God, yet somehow the voice has become a resounding din and it becomes hard to be still and hear God …

but … God, He is faithful … He loves me. In my heart I know this, but the enemy plagues my mind … my thinking … and I begin, yet again, to question … how could such a love be for me … and I enter the sin of unbelief …

Laughingly I believe myself to be a woman of faith … A WOMAN OF FAITH … how could I believe this and feel this way … well …

I do all this afraid, empty, tirelessly, no matter how much I don’t feel. Lean not on your own understanding God’s Word says … and this brings me to my new friend Jennifer and the words from her heart that pulled me up into “feeling” again. I encourage you to read her words: Friend I lean with you, God has used her mightily and I am eternally grateful that He led me to her heart.

In her blog she defined so eloquently, what I had been feeling. Trust me, when you do not understand where you are in You … how or why you “feel” the way you do or don’t … If you trust God … if you diligently seek Him, He will bring you to a place … He will bring you on of HIS GIRLS or guys to give you exactly what you need.

Jennifer’s heart:

“paralyzed by self-critique – so that I cannot even hear His true voice, reminding me how much I am loved, feel His arms around me, holding me to His chest, His hand in mine urging me toward where He plans for us to go, together.”

… paralyzed by self-critique … I’ve paralyzed myself by hearing the voice of that inward loather … the enemy comes to steal, kill and destroy … killing my confidence even as God takes my hand … “urging me toward where He planned for us to go …”

I have found the enemy and he is me … adapted from Walt Kelly‘s quote.

US … I am no longer alone. No matter the inward or outward words of an enemy who seeks to paralyze the Andrea God meant me to be …

All those voices hurt my heart … all those words froze the dream that God gave me …

Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life. ~ Jesus

So joined with Jennifer’s heart I vow … “I will not wish I were more than who You have made me to be, Father.”

I will not wish I were more … because I am exactly who He made me.

I will not believe that I am less than who He made me to be, either. I will crush the words of the loather with the Word of God …

My God who: Fearfully and Wonderfully made me …

Loves … what voice are you listening to? Is the voice loving and kind?

We are not able, in ourselves, to stay true to the genuine creation of God, that we are; without Him … without His Word of encouragement. We are incapable of sustaining a selfless belief that we are the Wonderful He made us … no, we must lean on Him.

Thank you Jennifer … Blessings Loves!

Your turn … see, this was nothing close to a few words … so please write your heart and share it here, with us as Jennifer calls us … HIS Girls! 🙂

A Few Words Thursday @ HOPEannFAITH


Scriptures: 2 Timothy 1:7; Proverbs 3:5; Proverbs 8:16-18; John 10:10; Proverbs 4:23; Psalm 139:13-14

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While Thursday Remains …


Flawed

 

Welcome to what is left of Thursday. On Thursdays I try to be brief in my writing. I try to express myself in as little words as possible. I try to give encouragement in short strokes, so that you may find your way in your own way, maybe with just a little wisdom gleaned from my experiences.

Welcome to Few Words Thursday with HOPEannFAITH and FRIENDS … join us using the linky below. Blessings to You!

I haven’t written anything in about three weeks. I’ve been walking in the shadows all this time. Angst and discomfort just under my skin. Wondering who I might be, why I couldn’t feel. A friend pointed out that I could feel … that maybe the right description was “feeling empty” … that “felt” right.

So I wandered and wondered. How could I be pleasing to God when I felt this way? I was/am empty, sad, unhappy …

And then this evening I read this: Destitute at A Restless Heart.

I could not have expressed myself with such grace and clarity. Oh how I long to write like those ladies I follow! The flow makes their writing feel effortless … I picture lace curtains in a cool autumn breeze with a steaming cup of coffee at the ready, as they sit in linen and lace, with wispy curls at their temples, while delicate fingers tap away at a keyboard writing what I feel, yet cannot express so beautifully!

Ahhh … but I write, still.

The line in Destitute that is winding around in my spirit … hopefully to grow under a blanket of prayer like bread dough rises under a linen dishcloth, into a real blog post is this:

“…but religion is a product of man trying to do the right thing.” ~ Kelly Sauer

Kelly describes this place … what I call empty … as Destitute. And I agree with her … I believe God allows me to feel this emptiness …

We are vessels … and this vessel is cracked … all the “good” I try to achieve simply flows through the tiny cracks, draining my resolve, my energy … my very essence, leaving me to feel that it is futile. That this desire to ALWAYS reflect Him is beyond the Me of all of this …

Kelly has tapped a deep emotion in me … one that wants me to write until this post is unreadable. So rather than brutalize my faithful here I will leave this a true few words …. and ponder where Kelly’s soul is leading mine!

Thank you, Kelly … from the deepest parts of Andrea, thank you for your courage!

Blessings Loves.

This has been a Few Words Thursday Post!




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Testing … Testing … 123 … Testing {with a new linky tool!}


Good Thursday Morning Loves! ♥

Here at HOPEannFAITH we celebrate A Few Words…together.
A bit of thought and a little converstation…quick and to the point.
No real WORD COUNT applies…just say it as concisely as you can…make us think…inspire us to write.
Let My Words Be Few is a Writing Prompt.
It is a whispered prayer.
It is a kind word and a hand up…Thursday is for encouragement, friendship and love…so write with me. Make me ponder my life in reference to your perspective!
Once you have written your blog post…you can now link up with the linky below! Yea for me I figured it out!
We look forward to your joining us! Blessings Loves
♥ ♥ ♥

Perseverance …

 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. James 1:4

Why do we have trials? Trials are tests that God allows so that we will grow mature in Him.

Christians love the Scripture Jeremiah 29:11 …

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

Yet when the trails roll in we forget that God has plans for us … we question, we doubt and then we make the dire mistake of attempting to handle the trials of this life on our own. I know I do … I completely forget there is a plan.

And YES! this is the plan … all of it …

Consider it pure joy whenever you face trials (the testing of your faith) of many kinds…because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. James 1:2-3 

Trial = A Testing of Faith = The Developement of Perseverance = Perseverence Developes Character = Character Builds Hope!

There are going to be trials in our lives, we know this. God allows trials (which are different from temptation, btw) so that we can be victorious.

My trials are a testing of my faith. The testing of my faith developes perseverance. And if God has allowed this test in my life then God has already given me the ability, and the tools, to pass this test.

I firmly believe that God has all the circumstances of my life in hand … todays trials and the tests to come tomorrow … and if I know that then I must … I MUST … I must believe without doubting.

Am I being tested in my life? My yes! I am! Then aren’t you too?

Does God have this? My yes! He does! And He has yours too!

So my friends I am going to consider these trials all joy, as I walk in the will of my God as best I can. And as I face these trials in this life of mine I am going to ask for the wisdom to handle the trials in the way God intended me to handle them.

He gives me no more than I can handle in this life! He knows what I (YOU) are going through right now.

I am perfect for that which God has called me.

The testing of my faith causes me to persevere and grow in maturity which grows to completeness in Christ.

What trials are you enduring today? Stop, if you will, and say this prayer with me …

Thank You Father God that you have given me all that I need to succeed in this circumstance in my life today. I humbly ask you now for the wisdom needed to come through this trial victoriously, glorifying the work that you do in me this day. Amen.

Blessings Loves ♥




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Few Words Thursday …


Few Words Thursday ~ Summer

My FWTh post is over on A.Hutchinson Photography today! And it is only 65 words!

How you ask?

Light

Short answer 😉 because the subject is The LIGHT and the concept and magnitude of the LIGHT leaves me …

well ….

Speechless! I know, unheard of, right! But true!

Go and check it out. Comment with your FWTh post link and I will add you to my posts!

Blessings Loves! ♥