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I will not wish … Few Words Thursday and InLinkz


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Welcome Loves … It’s Thursday again, and I’m going to attempt the Few Words rule … whatever that means, because as you know, I demand no real word count. So join me by linking up at the end, here, and share with us your heart. ♥

LORD, I pray, Let my words be few, so that I may hear You.

I found myself in the sin of fear, yet again. Not from any outward danger, rather from the demons within, that plague the Who of Andrea.

I have been confessing, confiding in trusted friends and mentors, my inner self criticism. That internal voice that says, continually, “You are not loved, liked, respected.” … “You are not good enough, see … they correct and admonish you … they tell you how to be, who to be, how to act …”. That laughing voice tells me there is nothing I can ever do to be good enough … and inwardly I cringe and hide in a corner of pain and self loathing.

Wow … did I just say write that!?!

and … as that voice chatters away, I seek God, yet somehow the voice has become a resounding din and it becomes hard to be still and hear God …

but … God, He is faithful … He loves me. In my heart I know this, but the enemy plagues my mind … my thinking … and I begin, yet again, to question … how could such a love be for me … and I enter the sin of unbelief …

Laughingly I believe myself to be a woman of faith … A WOMAN OF FAITH … how could I believe this and feel this way … well …

I do all this afraid, empty, tirelessly, no matter how much I don’t feel. Lean not on your own understanding God’s Word says … and this brings me to my new friend Jennifer and the words from her heart that pulled me up into “feeling” again. I encourage you to read her words: Friend I lean with you, God has used her mightily and I am eternally grateful that He led me to her heart.

In her blog she defined so eloquently, what I had been feeling. Trust me, when you do not understand where you are in You … how or why you “feel” the way you do or don’t … If you trust God … if you diligently seek Him, He will bring you to a place … He will bring you on of HIS GIRLS or guys to give you exactly what you need.

Jennifer’s heart:

“paralyzed by self-critique – so that I cannot even hear His true voice, reminding me how much I am loved, feel His arms around me, holding me to His chest, His hand in mine urging me toward where He plans for us to go, together.”

… paralyzed by self-critique … I’ve paralyzed myself by hearing the voice of that inward loather … the enemy comes to steal, kill and destroy … killing my confidence even as God takes my hand … “urging me toward where He planned for us to go …”

I have found the enemy and he is me … adapted from Walt Kelly‘s quote.

US … I am no longer alone. No matter the inward or outward words of an enemy who seeks to paralyze the Andrea God meant me to be …

All those voices hurt my heart … all those words froze the dream that God gave me …

Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life. ~ Jesus

So joined with Jennifer’s heart I vow … “I will not wish I were more than who You have made me to be, Father.”

I will not wish I were more … because I am exactly who He made me.

I will not believe that I am less than who He made me to be, either. I will crush the words of the loather with the Word of God …

My God who: Fearfully and Wonderfully made me …

Loves … what voice are you listening to? Is the voice loving and kind?

We are not able, in ourselves, to stay true to the genuine creation of God, that we are; without Him … without His Word of encouragement. We are incapable of sustaining a selfless belief that we are the Wonderful He made us … no, we must lean on Him.

Thank you Jennifer … Blessings Loves!

Your turn … see, this was nothing close to a few words … so please write your heart and share it here, with us as Jennifer calls us … HIS Girls! 🙂

A Few Words Thursday @ HOPEannFAITH


Scriptures: 2 Timothy 1:7; Proverbs 3:5; Proverbs 8:16-18; John 10:10; Proverbs 4:23; Psalm 139:13-14

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While Thursday Remains …


Flawed

 

Welcome to what is left of Thursday. On Thursdays I try to be brief in my writing. I try to express myself in as little words as possible. I try to give encouragement in short strokes, so that you may find your way in your own way, maybe with just a little wisdom gleaned from my experiences.

Welcome to Few Words Thursday with HOPEannFAITH and FRIENDS … join us using the linky below. Blessings to You!

I haven’t written anything in about three weeks. I’ve been walking in the shadows all this time. Angst and discomfort just under my skin. Wondering who I might be, why I couldn’t feel. A friend pointed out that I could feel … that maybe the right description was “feeling empty” … that “felt” right.

So I wandered and wondered. How could I be pleasing to God when I felt this way? I was/am empty, sad, unhappy …

And then this evening I read this: Destitute at A Restless Heart.

I could not have expressed myself with such grace and clarity. Oh how I long to write like those ladies I follow! The flow makes their writing feel effortless … I picture lace curtains in a cool autumn breeze with a steaming cup of coffee at the ready, as they sit in linen and lace, with wispy curls at their temples, while delicate fingers tap away at a keyboard writing what I feel, yet cannot express so beautifully!

Ahhh … but I write, still.

The line in Destitute that is winding around in my spirit … hopefully to grow under a blanket of prayer like bread dough rises under a linen dishcloth, into a real blog post is this:

“…but religion is a product of man trying to do the right thing.” ~ Kelly Sauer

Kelly describes this place … what I call empty … as Destitute. And I agree with her … I believe God allows me to feel this emptiness …

We are vessels … and this vessel is cracked … all the “good” I try to achieve simply flows through the tiny cracks, draining my resolve, my energy … my very essence, leaving me to feel that it is futile. That this desire to ALWAYS reflect Him is beyond the Me of all of this …

Kelly has tapped a deep emotion in me … one that wants me to write until this post is unreadable. So rather than brutalize my faithful here I will leave this a true few words …. and ponder where Kelly’s soul is leading mine!

Thank you, Kelly … from the deepest parts of Andrea, thank you for your courage!

Blessings Loves.

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Testing … Testing … 123 … Testing {with a new linky tool!}


Good Thursday Morning Loves! ♥

Here at HOPEannFAITH we celebrate A Few Words…together.
A bit of thought and a little converstation…quick and to the point.
No real WORD COUNT applies…just say it as concisely as you can…make us think…inspire us to write.
Let My Words Be Few is a Writing Prompt.
It is a whispered prayer.
It is a kind word and a hand up…Thursday is for encouragement, friendship and love…so write with me. Make me ponder my life in reference to your perspective!
Once you have written your blog post…you can now link up with the linky below! Yea for me I figured it out!
We look forward to your joining us! Blessings Loves
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Perseverance …

 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. James 1:4

Why do we have trials? Trials are tests that God allows so that we will grow mature in Him.

Christians love the Scripture Jeremiah 29:11 …

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

Yet when the trails roll in we forget that God has plans for us … we question, we doubt and then we make the dire mistake of attempting to handle the trials of this life on our own. I know I do … I completely forget there is a plan.

And YES! this is the plan … all of it …

Consider it pure joy whenever you face trials (the testing of your faith) of many kinds…because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. James 1:2-3 

Trial = A Testing of Faith = The Developement of Perseverance = Perseverence Developes Character = Character Builds Hope!

There are going to be trials in our lives, we know this. God allows trials (which are different from temptation, btw) so that we can be victorious.

My trials are a testing of my faith. The testing of my faith developes perseverance. And if God has allowed this test in my life then God has already given me the ability, and the tools, to pass this test.

I firmly believe that God has all the circumstances of my life in hand … todays trials and the tests to come tomorrow … and if I know that then I must … I MUST … I must believe without doubting.

Am I being tested in my life? My yes! I am! Then aren’t you too?

Does God have this? My yes! He does! And He has yours too!

So my friends I am going to consider these trials all joy, as I walk in the will of my God as best I can. And as I face these trials in this life of mine I am going to ask for the wisdom to handle the trials in the way God intended me to handle them.

He gives me no more than I can handle in this life! He knows what I (YOU) are going through right now.

I am perfect for that which God has called me.

The testing of my faith causes me to persevere and grow in maturity which grows to completeness in Christ.

What trials are you enduring today? Stop, if you will, and say this prayer with me …

Thank You Father God that you have given me all that I need to succeed in this circumstance in my life today. I humbly ask you now for the wisdom needed to come through this trial victoriously, glorifying the work that you do in me this day. Amen.

Blessings Loves ♥




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Few Words Thursday …


Few Words Thursday ~ Summer

My FWTh post is over on A.Hutchinson Photography today! And it is only 65 words!

How you ask?

Light

Short answer 😉 because the subject is The LIGHT and the concept and magnitude of the LIGHT leaves me …

well ….

Speechless! I know, unheard of, right! But true!

Go and check it out. Comment with your FWTh post link and I will add you to my posts!

Blessings Loves! ♥

 


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The Grace provided in Serenity ♥


few words thursday …Good Morning my friends.

Today I will attempt to describe where I am in regards to Serenity … if you’ve been here on Thursdays before you know the route … if not, WELCOME and feel free to join me … simply click through my surf photo for the (non) rules!

In an earlier post(s) on one or the other of my blogs I have wondered, stressed over or delved into SERENITY. In a recent post I defined it.

Quietude … a condition of the mind, a peacefulness with the status of one’s being right where they are …

There are slogans a many that some will recognize and identify, while others will recognize without knowing the origin of the phrase. Like a comfortable form of de ja vu they will know that they know where to slogan came from, but it will escape them for the moment…

Time takes time…

Pain before Serenity…

Be where you is…

First things first…

We have a choice…

God could and would if He were sought…Sobriety then Serenity…It’s a selfish program…

These are the ones that struck me between the eyes this morning.

I woke up to God re-wording Reinhold’s prayer for me:

God…Has granted me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change…He has granted me the courage to change the things that I can … and He has granted me the WISDOM to know the difference.

[God could and would if He were sought…] Seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Matthew 6:33

[Sobriety then Serenity…] For me it is the Sobriety of Mind … I must work each day [time takes time…] toward sober thinking. Then and only then am I granted, GRACED with COURAGE and WISDOM.

For God has not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7

… a sound mind, self-discipline, good judgement…sobriety of mind!

I just found this!!! It has me a bit excited and now I must find this particular bible …Douay-Rheims Bible

For God hath not given us the spirit of fear: but of power, and of love, and of sobriety. 2tim1:7

[It’s a selfish program…] For me this one is important because of the world’s view. While the world, society, is into entitlement and hedionism to the enth degree … if a thing is about IMPROVEMENT it is considered “selfish”.

I am entitled to live and indulge as I please as long as it doesn’t hurt anyone else. Right? I am justified in my vengence and revenge if I have been wronged. Right? … society sees these as inaliable rights! When these are rooted in selfishness and self centeredness. The world view tells this society that these are entitlements, rights, yet somehow they are NOT selfish.

Yet, let me improve myself. Let me seperate myself out to recover from the confusion and choas of [my] life. Let positive change and boundaries take hold; changing who I am, and I instantly become …

SELFISH and SELF INVOLVED and SELF CENTERED

When I call out to God in my trial He will only focus on what it is in me that needs fixing!

The disturbance in me … is me!

When I call out to God, begging Serenity … begging Peace … He requires that I fix something in me.

SO… YES … IT IS a self program.

LIFE is a selfish program … Spirituality is a selfish program …

For my life to be about Christ [because it isn’t about me … it IS about Jesus] I must focus on recovering, repairing, fixing the disturbances in ME.

Reinholds prayer is beautiful and cathartic. Yet, when one [I] comes to a place of truly knowing God one must see that the wording is wrong.

When I woke this morning I realized as this prayer whispered it’s request in my soul, my Spirit [My Holy Spirit] rose in me and whispered sweetly …

” Child, I HAVE granted you these things, by the GRACE of MY ONLY SON. Now… take hold of them. Grasp them and embrace them, they are my gift each day.” ~ GOD

How do you seek serenity? What would give you peace today love?

May you know Peace today … the Person Peace … may He walk with you on this path!

God could and would if He were sought…May you find Him now. 🙂

Blessings Loves

 

 


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That which concerns me…#Trust 30


Speak Less by Laura Kimball

What I must do is all that concerns me, not what the people think. This
rule, equally arduous in actual and in intellectual life, may serve for the
whole distinction between greatness and meanness. It is the harder, because you
will always find those who think they know what is your duty better than you
know I.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

I once received a fortune cookie that read: “Speak less of your plans, you’ll
get more done.” What’s one project that you’ve been sitting on and thinking
about but haven’t made progress on? What’s stopping you? What would happen if
you actually went for it and did it?

(Author: Laura Kimball)

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 Hey Loves…Its Thursday again…and here we are sharing in the Shortest post as possible…no rules, just our hearts and words that move one another. You know the route, click-through the pictures to find out what each prompt is about and join us! We would love to share this space with you!

Let My Words Be Few..

I, once again, have a different view of this profound quote by RW Emerson. Do the authors creating these prompts not see God in Emerson’s words. Do they not see his faith, as peculiarly as he states such? Do they not see both the light of spirituality as much or more than the light of profound intelligence?

Ah, but I digress…my interpretation…

What I must do is all that concerns me, not what the people think. “

Each one of us has a calling on our lives. A dreamy thing we do, well, excellently, something we love to do and would do as much and as often as we could. Yet, we often hear, first from parents, then from those in the world who don’t understand or frankly would rather we not succeed; that we cannot do that thing, for several reasons that these nay sayers promptly list for us to prove their point.

It’s frivolous, you’ll never be able to support yourself, and much worse, you’re not smart enough, or you’re not good enough … and to think these are people who love us, people who think they are helping us. Uh, who needs a nemesis when we have friends and families, right?

What I must do, implies that we do not have a choice, that we are compelled by this particular task. It appears more a desire than just a tedious task… What I must do …

I could say: What I must do is what concerns me … we are shown in the bible that only God and ourselves know what our calling is. The fact that there are those who would tell me what I am to do with my life does directly conflicts with scripture … and I live my life by the scriptures of the God who created me.

“Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters,” Colossians 3:23

Upon reading Emerson’s quote here, this scripture was my first thought.

“This rule, equally arduous in actual and in intellectual life, may serve for the
whole distinction between greatness and meanness.”

“…equally arduous in actual and in intellectual life.”

Doing your work for the Lord is an act of faith and passion.

I believe I have been called to write. Yet, it is hard to reconcile in my mind. I hear those who profess to know my duty better than I. And I hear me … agreeing with their worldly assessment of my calling, my desire, my compulsion to please this inner voice that tells me, now, louder than the worldly voices, that yes I can.

That I must … do my work unto the Lord and to TRUST Him wholly …and He will cause my thoughts to become agreeable to His will causing my plans to be established and to succeed. Proverbs 16:3

I have been lead to write a book on Psalm 91 … I suffer from the magnitude of this assignment and the voices that tell me I am not a good enough writer. Worse, I agonize in a fear of success; the fear that success would mean uncomfortable changes, complications in my life. I am by nature a creature of comfort and complacency; character defects.

Fear stops me …

What would happen if I took a step of faith and did this thing?

I would please my Father God. I would fulfill my calling, or at least the beginning of it, anyway. I would be fulfilling a lifelong dream.

I would succeed, as I know I would, if I would only do my task with the faith that God has given me. His faith … and the things born from God’s faith do not fail.

If I did this thing … I would be helping others to find TRUTH and TRUST in the promises of God. In this I would find the blessings of God in my life.

Faith is the direct opposite of fear … When I write this book I will have conquered fear.

Here’s to knowing that the things that Concern me are perfected by God! Psalm 138:7-8a

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A New Creation ~ #Trust 30


Let My Words Be Few...

 

Alternative Paths by Jonathan Fields

When good is near you, when you have life in yourself, it is not by any known or accustomed way; you shall not discern the foot-prints of any other; you shall not see the face of man; you shall not hear any name; the way, the thought, the good, shall be wholly strange and new. Ralph Waldo Emerson

The world buzzes about goals and visions. Focus. Create a vivid picture of exactly where you want to go. Dream big, then don’t let anything or anyone stop you. The problem, as Daniel Gilbert wrote in Stumbling Upon Happiness, is that we’re horrible at forecasting how we’ll really feel 10 or 20 years from now – once we’ve gotten what we dreamed of. Often, we get there only to say, “That’s not what I thought it would be,” and ask, “What now?” Ambition is good. Blind ambition is not. It blocks out not only distraction, but the many opportunities that might take you off course but that may also lead you in a new direction. Consistent daily action is only a virtue when bundled with a willingness to remain open to the unknown. In this exercise, look at your current quest and ask, “What alternative opportunities, interpretations and paths am I not seeing?” They’re always there, but you’ve got to choose to see them.

(Author: Jonathan Fields)

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This is way late in the day…for all you who read, I apologize for the delay of Few Words Thursday, I’ve been very busy of late. I know you understand…life is being life here in Hutchland!

You know the route…simply click through the pretty lily pic to see what FWTH is all about…and click through the Trust 30 pic to see what the RWE Self-Reliance challenge is about.

Now to answer this prompt:

I am not inclined today to follow the author’s lead here…I am finding that these prompts continually ask the same question. Being first and foremost a woman of faith and secondly a woman of above average, yet nowhere near genius, answering the same question over and over becomes tedious. So true to my nature I am making my own rules.

When good is near you…when you have life in yourself…it is not by any known or accustomed way…

In our natural state we are not good. The word said we were all born in sin, after the apple and the fig leaf!

Our natural state is base and human. However, our spiritual selves do recognize and desire “good” and when it is near I do agree it is the unknown and we are unaccustomed to its ways. However, we know it is near and it brings within us a spark of life…

Although born in the sin nature, there is life in us. Our creator is benevolent, and while we seek to fill that void in our lives, that void is not entirely empty.

Psalm 139: 13-16

13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

Our Creator created us…and from that day that He knit us together He has never left. Therefore I find Emerson’s last line to not be entirely true.

Although…

the way, the thought, the good, shall be wholly strange and new.

We will find it wholly new…but strange? I recognized the Way, the Truth and the Good, immediately when I was introduced to Him.

Before formally introduced I ran from the way, the thought, the good, because it was introduced according to the world.

When properly invited to meet Him there was no sensation of strangeness only newness…

Because I became new.

2 Corinthians 5:16-18

16 So from now on we regard no one from a worldly point of view. Though we once regarded Christ in this way, we do so no longer. 17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here! 18 All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation:

Blessings Loves ♥


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Afraid to Do…#Trust 30 on Few Words Thursday!


Let My Words Be Few...

If you’ve read my blog this week you know that I have joined the #Trust 30 Challenge that was inspired by Emerson’s 208th birthday, The Domino Project is republishing a work of art that’s especially relevant today. Self-Reliance by Ralph Waldo Emerson urges readers to trust their intuition rather than conforming to the will of the majority.
This Thursday…and probably the remaining Thursdays in the month of June…maybe July, as I backtrack to the days I missed, I will be combining my FWT posts with my
contributions. So as usual FWT has minimal rules…which can be found when you follow the link connected to the picture. You can also follow the Trust 30 button to participate in this provocative writing prompts. I hope you’ll join us. I would love to share this space with you!
Now this prompt actually belongs to yesterday…however, I never received it in the e-mail so I am writing it now…these Trust 30 prompts are NOT easy…and some of them will probe in the hidden places of a soul. Like this one:

The other terror that scares us from self-trust is our consistency; a reverence for our past act or word, because the eyes of others have no other data for computing our orbit than our past acts, and we are loath to disappoint them. – Ralph Waldo Emerson

Emerson says: “Always do what you are afraid to do.”

What is ‘too scary’ to write about? Try doing it now.

(Author: Mary Jaksch)

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She was afraid. Afraid to tell…He said they wouldn’t believe a little kid. He threatened to blame it on her. He confused her. He loved her, treated her nice when mom and grandma were around, but then…

He changed. He got scary. He hurt her…He hurt the baby…

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This is the scary stuff that one day I will write about. But…what is scary now, is he was right! He was right…they didn’t believe the little girl (s); there were 4. He was right, they didn’t believe the angry teenagers, there were 4.  Worse, the mother didn’t help until her youngest girl was a full-blown alcoholic adult and demanded that she confront him (her brother!). Leaving the oldest girl more bitter and angry, at 30 something, than she had been prior, because when she asked her mother to believe her she didn’t. She accused and berated, she didn’t help.

What is scary to this day is that the mother of 2 of the 4 still harbors her brother. Still demands that her daughters respect…

What is scary is the rage, the wrath, that is born in such pain and betrayal. What is scary is that one lives and learns to love with this barbed wire wrapped around ones heart. What is too scary to write down, right now, is the realization that children continue to live and endure what  I …this little kid endured, growing up learning love wrong.

What’s too scary to do is write down the acts performed, that caused the work to get to the place of wholeness that  I …that little girl, now woman, enjoys today. It’s scary because of the pain it will cause…Him, Mother and so many others.

Is it really that important to document this process to wholeness??

Yes, I believe it is…so I strive to get past the fear…and put down the words that will help heal a little kid…

Blessings Loves

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In the Land of the Living


Let My Words Be Few...

Few Words Thursday…A Writing Prompt…

Join us with a quick few words of inspiration, love or laughter…no real rules…no word counts…Click the picture above to see what were about and jump in. We look forward to sharing this space with you!

It’s been a hard week…

Death has been a theme…

It’s been very hot, right off of it being wet, damp and cold.

A lot for a body and spirit to take…

But God! There is a hope and a prayer and praise music to console a weary heart and mind.

I wrote my heart yesterday, at the loss of a friend.

I’m caring for my dad’s house while he sits at his mother’s side; I don’t really know my grandma on this side of the family…

Tomorrow I do it again, after caring for my mother’s mother’s needs…my grandma…

Yet I feel spent and as if I am somehow uncared for…which is silly!

And yet this scripture came to mind amidst all of this sorrow and loss…

I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living!        Psalm 27:13

and I keep going back again and again to this song…It was the song that was in my head when I awoke to the Monday of this week of loss…the song that remained all day, as I realized this would be a week of loss, regret and sadness.

I believe I even posted this within the last entry…here .

So today…after yesterday…I decided I must come out of the funk and roam again amongst the living…

There is going to be loss and pain in this life…but I cannot give in to the emptiness and nothingness that is my natural reaction.

So as I, again listen to the song above and watch my love play with pups that are just opening their eyes, I…

choose to see the good that is in the land of the living and put aside the things of which I have no control…

and allow God to handle that which is His, while I live this life abundantly, as He has provided.

I will hurt for a bit…but they are with Him and singing Holy, Holy….just like the song…

Blessings Loves


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Few Words Thursday is Visiting …A Woman’s Heart …


Happy Thursday Loves!

My FWT post is written over at A Woman’s Heart today…and it isn’t short…however, many of the Words are God‘s so maybe the ones that are actually mine are few?…But don’t count on that…

I would love it if you would join me, today, in writing your heart…after all this a Writer‘s Prompt…and the rules…well they are FEW… 😉

So join me for my post: Called to Peace –  A How to Heal a Heart Post…on Thursday.

We are called to peace, by God. His is a covenant of peace, with us and in us.

Thursday Partners: Please go visit and show some love!

1. Holly @ Withoutado…an OUTSTANDING POST! Philemon

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