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How God Assures Me He’s On It :: A Much Needed Sunday Healing


Sweet, Sad Eyed Boy

Sweet, Sad Eyed Boy

This is my sweet boy. My youngest. My sad little guy. And OH how he had reason for that sweet, sad look. And OH how I sometimes, still, ache for my blindness.

The Man

The Man

 

 

 

 

 

 

This is the man… angry and battling his demons. Very scary demons. And OH how I dreamed of reaching that sweet boy who was hidden in that angry man. I was incapable of reaching into him, to the boy. He wouldn’t let me. I wasn’t, still am not allowed to even hug him. It’s truly heartbreaking for me. And I’m sure his heart is broken. But He battles daily with his illness, his addiction. Heroin. And even when he stumbles, slips and falls flat out; he gets back up to battle. He’s superman in his head. He still thinks he needs to be I think. Because, I couldn’t protect him, because he couldn’t tell me … until they did, when they were barely in grade school … and the man (teen) you see above hid the sweet boy. Seemingly forever.

He fell this week. Wasn’t able to recover from an apparent stumble and now he starts over again. And my heart is broken watching him be sick. Very sick as he starts to stand back up to this illness, this craving, whose whole intent is to kill that sweet boy he has hidden in his heart.

Shane light editThis is him at the beginning of the last run of sobriety. Tired but strong. He’ll be there again.

And I know this because God and I met in worship this morning at church. I started the day very worried about my sweet boy, who hasn’t been so sweet these last few days. He was sick and in pain and irritable. I mean who wouldn’t be when they felt sick; I certainly am not fun when I am ill. But this is different.

There’s nothing I can do. And if I do something I am jeopardizing his life by enabling him. He has to walk out the withdrawl himself. He has to want to feel better. He has to choose between sobriety  and oblivion.

Unlike the cancer his father battles, the boy chose his illness. Chose oblivion over the demons of something he had no say in and I had no knowledge of. The demons who continue to tell him it was his fault. The demons that tell him I should have known. The demons who tell him he’s superman and he can live through the dangerous choices. The demons who tell him no one loves him because he’s unlovable now. This monster heroin quiets the demons I imagine. But then they begin to rustle again and bite … I cannot fathom the pain, though I experience his pain and suffering while he battles the withdrawl and fights for the breath of air that sobriety brings him.

As I sang praises to God today. As I worshiped the Father that promises to heal us. I cried out and from the depth of this mother’s heart and soul I sought my God’s assistance for my sweet boy. And God assured me that with that relinquishing, once again, of my boy to His care, that the boy, the man, would be healed.

During this song, as the lead singer of our worship band and assistance pastor sang this favorite, God met me in my aching for my sweet boy. I quieted and prayed for him and for The Hubs and was assured that He had them, that their healings were imminent, promised. And I quieted into the precious peace of the music, in Father’s presence.

You see, I’ve realized that the enemy has put a hit out on this family. Two of my men are battling grave illnesses, and the boy does not know the promises we believe! So I, WE, as a family must believe for him. He does not know that heroin addiction cannot kill him, as his father knows the cancer cannot kill him, though we tell him.

The boy does not know, as the father does, that because we believe, he is saved from his illnesses and cleansed of his sins, sins that are not even his own, but believes to be. The boy doesn’t believe that Jesus loved him so much that he took the heroin needle for him to the cross and died there with that illness upon Him! So we must believe and pray until the boy understands his worth to the Father.

And what mother, father and brother wouldn’t do this for a boy, for a man?

Oh how I wish the boy believed that he would live. Oh how I wish the boy believed he is loved beyond his mother’s ability to put it in words. Oh how I wish he knew the joy I get when he is well and smiles and is a participating member of this family. A participating member in his own life.

So I leave this post as another prayer to God. It holds no scripture, only a song of worship and praise to our Father God expressing my love and honor to him. I leave it as proof that I acknowledge His response to my need, my boy’s need, this morning. And I thank him again and again, without end that my sweet boy is starting to feel better and is two or three (I’m not sure) days back on the road of sobriety.

To every parent of a child who battles the illness of addiction, or any illness for that matter, I sing this song for you and your child. I pray that God vanquish this demon and send it to hell from whence it came, and I put the enemy and heroin under the feet of Jesus.

We are healed. Our children are healed. Our land is healed. In Jesus’ name. Amen.

Thanks for listening to this outpouring of a mother’s heart.

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The sweet boy’s mom. =)


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Sunday Healing | Who we are “IN” Christ.


Today’s sermon at church was dynamic and deeply important to our understanding of Who we are IN Christ.

And … I must reiterate, it’s all about our wrapping our heads around the truth.

Christ was crucified on the cross and essentially we were crucified with Him. That is, those of us who call ourselves Christians.

Romans 7:14-19

14 We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. 15 I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16 And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17 As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18 For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[a] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing.

Essentially this means that while we call ourselves Christian we still sin. We don’t want to [we hope] yet it is our nature because of the fall. It’s called our Adamic nature. The concept is this:

“I am not a sinner because I sin; I sin, because I am a sinner, and I am a sinner because of Adam. The sin nature is the Adamic nature.

So if, in all of these confusing concepts, I sin am I a Christian or not?

Our human-ness has not changed since the time of Paul – we suffer and battle sin in the very same way Paul did. So how do we deal with this thing called sin so that we can exist within the Image of Him?

We must wrap our heads around what the blood and the cross did for us and then work out our salvation! We must work, we must change our minds, we must renew our minds … washing it in the Word of God, which explains who we are in Christ.

I found myself

Jesus’ blood cleanses me of my sin … and the cross crucifies me … doing what the blood did not do. The cross reminds me, convicts me to do all that I can to avoid sin in my life … to deny illness and fleshly desires.

My old man [self, behavior] is so crucified by the cross that it [the old man – my self before salvation] is no longer able to function.

For this to happen I must be fully persuaded that when Christ took my sins to the cross, and was afflicted with all my sin and disease, that they ended there. But then we go back to Romans 7 [above] … I continue to do those things that identify me as a sinner.

Romans 6:9 tells me that Christ cannot die again: “for we know that since Christ was raised from the dead, he cannot die again.”

So how do we, as humans, do this thing? Wrap our heads around the fact that, despite what we do in our day to day that is defined as sin, we are no longer sinners?

How does this work?
It works IN Christ Jesus!

You see … God removes the sinner [from the sin] not the sin.

Romans 5:18-21 to 6:1-5

18 Consequently, just as one trespass resulted in condemnation for all people, so also one righteous act resulted in justification and life for all people. 19 For just as through the disobedience of the one man the many were made sinners, so also through the obedience of the one man the many will be made righteous.

20 The law was brought in so that the trespass might increase. But where sin increased, grace increased all the more, 21 so that, just as sin reigned in death, so also grace might reign through righteousness to bring eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.

Dead to Sin, Alive in Christ.

What shall we say, then? Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase? By no means! We are those who have died to sin; how can we live in it any longer? Or don’t you know that all of us who were baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into his death? We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life.

For if we have been united with him in a death like his, we will certainly also be united with him in a resurrection like his.

For just as through the disobedience of the one man(Adam) the many were made sinners, so also through the obedience of the one man (Jesus) the many will be made righteous!

We were removed from our sin by the obedience of Jesus and made righteous!

If you call yourself a Christian, YOU are IN Christ. You are saved, You are healed, You are made righteous.

Now that our heads are wrapped around that we must begin to live it and continually remove sin from our day to day.

Like my good friend and Pastor said for an example.

“It’s like continuing to drive your dangerous old jalopy, when you’ve been given a brand new car. The new car is sitting there simply waiting for your to drive it; but some continue to drive the old car. It’s a choice. One that we must make on our own … it’s about free will. Refusal to drive the new car is our choice; it’s right there in front of us.”

So what will you drive today? Your Adamic nature or your Christ nature? It’s entirely up to you!

Next week we are going into deeper waters with this subject. If your intrigued or want more understanding check back for another Healing Sunday. =)

Thanks for reading.

Thank You for Reading. Andrea

Thank You for Reading.
Andrea

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


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Healing Sunday the Medicine of Praise! … 31days:day26


I think I’ve said this before … I find healing within my praise time with God. I find the catalyst of the music the easiest way to enter into the presence of God, where I believe we are automatically in the condition of the wholeness God intended us to be.

Praise is my medicine.

Our Youth Worship Band brought us into worship today and it was amazing. {They sang the song below … perfectly.}

I also believe that since I’ve lost a significant amount of weight I was able to physically participate actively in my worship. I found myself refreshed and worked when we finally finished with our praise and worship time.

Heal me, O LORD, and I shall be healed; save me, and I shall be saved: for you are my praise. Jeremiah 17:14

This particular song washes over me and I’m with my Father God and He responds to me, and that response heals me to my core! This song is a prayer of praise and love. I pray you will listen and allow God to respond to you in your praises … because He is your {our} praise.

Blessings to you and thanks for reading.

Thank You for Reading. Andrea

Thank You for Reading.
Andrea

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Healing Sunday {3} A Reaquainting with the Jesus of the Bible ** 31days of Healing Scriptures


On this 19th day of this challenge we had a much loved guest preacher in and OH how God confirmed and worked; from praise and worship to the prayer time at the end it was ALL about …

Jesus

The Jesus of the Bible and His finishing of what He had come to do! Quickly let me share with you the confirmation {for and about my lil’ Sis), instruction, a video and what I came back home with.

The Confirmation: 2 Timothy 1:7 ~ A well known and used scripture!

For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.

My sister has something going on health wise, and RN or not these things frighten her; whether it’s herself, her children or just anyone she cares about. She’s frightened of dying, I think, and of other “health” issues that are prone in our family. So she shared on everyone’s favorite social media outlet and asked for prayer and I answered. She knows God is with her and she knows that He’s always taken care of her; but like many of us in these situations she wondered if she might be asking too much this time, again, I believe. This time she has a specific fear: the side effects of Chantix, the quit smoking drug. She’s trying to get healthier and the drug touts some interesting side effects.

My response was: You’re going to be fine. YOU know God is with you! And I shared with her 2 Timothy 1:7.

Well the confirmation that I had ministered to her correctly was today’s sermon and the Scriptures used; including 2Tim 1:7. Gotta Love it when God let’s you know you’ve done well like that!

The Instruction: Getting to REACQUAINTED with The Jesus of the Bible! The preacher said that years ago he had started to do something specific. When he was feeling aches and pains or downright sick he would go to the New Testament and read the stories about all those that Jesus had healed, and in no time he would be well again.

Jesus Cross

Instruction: Say, Pray and Read what God says about your illness, malady or just that little bout of sniffles.

The preacher’s message was, It is Finished.

John 19:30 When Jesus had tasted it, he said, “It is finished,” and bowed his head and dismissed his spirit.

Jesus’ last words from the cross. You see Jesus came to finish something … He came to destroy the works of the devil, and He did! Healing is a result of that finished work!

With it He gave to us “not a spirit of fear; but of POWER, LOVE and a SOUND MIND. Study that out sometime …

We have the authority and Power to overcome illness!

We have have the Love of God within us and are called to give that back out!

And …

We have been given Soundness of Mind to do ALL of this.

Do you want more and more of God’s kindness and peace? Then learn to know him better and better. For as you know him better, he will give you, through his great power, everything you need for living a truly good life: he even shares his own glory and his own goodness with us! And by that same mighty power he has given us all the other rich and wonderful blessings he promised; for instance, the promise to save us from the lust and rottenness all around us, and to give us his own character. 2Peter 1:2-4

Do you want more? Then join me and get to know Him better … Follow Jesus to healing by reading about all the healing He performed in the New Testament. Read, follow and pray how He healed and receive that healing yourself! The more we know Him and His character the more we receive His great power and everything we need for life and godliness … then receive more of His own character!

The better we know Him, the closer we get, the more His character becomes apart of us!

Press in andGod will respond to you, Manifest Healing comes within that response.

And now a video of the fabulous song we sang in worship of Him today! Wish you could hear our worship band playing this … it was amazing! One of young ladies has an incredible and anointed voice and she sings this with such moving emotion, I can’t even explain it in words, it must be felt. =) May this bless you!

We are not shaken, we are not moved …. We wait upon you Lord! Let this song wash over your spirit and I promise you will feel the healing begin as He responds to your praise! ❤

Thank You for Reading. Andrea

Thank You for Reading.
Andrea

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