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Trusting God in the Face of Fear @ 10


God's Got This Welcome.

Today I’m joining my writing/blogging friends over at Karen’s Finding the Grace Within’s Tuesday at Ten writing prompt.

Here writers creatively represent the word prompt that Karen gives us at 10 am and then we all connect with one another {HERE}. There aren’t any real rules, no word limit or time limit … just one heart connecting with the prompt and sharing their thoughts with the others.

Today we ponder what the word FEAR means in our lives, right here and right now …

So join us by following the link above or the one at the bottom of this post.

Fear. We all encounter it in our day to day lives. From the little worries like being on time or not missing that call from a friend to the larger more daunting fears that involve life and death!

For me it’s no longer about the fear … In the past I feared everything from making someone mad to really doing something very wrong. It created a vicious cycle of anxiety, which my family sees as an illness. It’s not!

Cancer is an illness. Addiction is an illness. Fear is NOT an illness, we control fear. It says so in the bible.

There are two types of fear described in the Good Book of the Good News! Remember that … it’s the GOOD News, you can always trust it’s guidance.

Fear of the Lord.  

Fear of the Lord gives us authority and allows us to trust God in the face of the spirit of fear, which strips us of our authority and is brought by the enemy of our soul.

The spirit of fear is NOT of God.

Fear, or REVERENCE {to have a reverential awe of (fear God)} of the Lord, is about respecting God, as you would a father.

[Now if your earthly father wasn’t the greatest, or you were actually afraid of your biological dad, stay with me.]

God, Himself, was His original template of who and what a father was supposed to be. All loving, strong security and steady guidance for His children.

This Fear [of the Lord] is beneficial to us and brings with it promises and blessings. The bible says it is the beginning of wisdom; a good understanding to all those who do His commandments. His praise endures forever {Psalm 111:10}. It leads to life, rest, peace and contentment and evil will not visit {Proverbs 19:23}. This Fear [of the Lord] is the fountain of life {Proverbs 14:27} and provides security in a place of safety {Proverbs 14:26}.

Good News, right!  =)

If we respect God as our Father Creator, and follow His guidance for our lives, we benefit as any child who accepts guidance and correction from good parents. Think about it, we only fear what our parents feared, for the most part. If time and appearances were of concern {a type of fear} to our parents, then we grow up to be concerned about time and appearances. But dig this!

Our Father God, repeatedly, tells us to FEAR NOT, because He has given us the tools of authority over fear.

We control fear. Fear does NOT control us.

Though an army may encamp against me, My heart shall not fear; Though war may rise against me, In this I will be confident. {Psalm 27:3}

The second kind of fear in the bible is described to us in guidance.

We are told that God didn’t give us this spirit of fear.

 God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. {2 Timothy 1:7}

There it is, the guiding reminder that we were given: Power, Love and a SOUND mind.

(remember I said that fear leads to anxiety and people see anxiety as an illness today?)

We have a SOUND MIND.

Fear is a real thing. It is what we do in the face of this fear that matters most. Do we conquer or fall in defeat to fear?

I choose to conquer fear, and trust me, today, this very moment, I have enough going on in my life that if I allowed the fear [of the unknown results] of my circumstances I could easily curl up into a ball of tearful fear and anxiety and never see the light of day. In fact, when I think about this, even at this moment, I feel fearful of that possibility.

I prefer my Sound Mind!

How do I conquer these fears? Fear of cancer, of addiction, of my happy life changing severely, of not knowing what my life could possibly look like if the worst happened?

I. Trust. God.

I. Pray. ~ and I pray scripture.

1 John 4:18 says: Perfect Love casts out all fear. {God is Love.}

God promises me; ‘Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed {another form of fear}, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.’.{Isaiah 41:10}

The overwhelming truth is that I must FEAR NOT.

Did you ever notice that when we are spinning with fear we don’t allow anyone to help; that we resist those that would be with us and uphold us! God knew we would do this and clearly instructs His children not to fear … to …

Be Still … and know that He is God. {Psalm46:10}

Isn’t it interesting that the “scary Old Testament” God continually told His creation to FEAR NOT. He clearly wanted us to ALWAYS know that He was with us and was our protector, even from the very beginning.

So, as Franklin D. Roosevelt said, in his First Inaugural Address: “The only thing we have to fear is fear itself,”

Do not fear God, reverence and trust Him. Only fear fear; it’s not from God.

It is said, much too often, “give it to God”, and I must say it took a lot for me to completely come to an understanding of that Christian cliché. When I finally came to a true understanding of and relationship with God I changed how I used that friendly, if not dismissing, cliché to …

Bring it to God. If you are afraid today. If you harbor what seems to be uncontrollable anxiety in your day to day life. Bring your cares to God. Compare what you are afraid of to what God says about that thing in His book. Present it, as I do, to Him in prayer and just watch what He does to quell that fear within you. He will wipe it away, I promise.

BE STILL.

FEAR NOT.

BE COURAGEOUS.

GOD’S GOT THIS.

Come walk with me, and fear not, God is always with us!

Thanks for reading and God bless.

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How God Assures Me He’s On It :: A Much Needed Sunday Healing


Sweet, Sad Eyed Boy

Sweet, Sad Eyed Boy

This is my sweet boy. My youngest. My sad little guy. And OH how he had reason for that sweet, sad look. And OH how I sometimes, still, ache for my blindness.

The Man

The Man

 

 

 

 

 

 

This is the man… angry and battling his demons. Very scary demons. And OH how I dreamed of reaching that sweet boy who was hidden in that angry man. I was incapable of reaching into him, to the boy. He wouldn’t let me. I wasn’t, still am not allowed to even hug him. It’s truly heartbreaking for me. And I’m sure his heart is broken. But He battles daily with his illness, his addiction. Heroin. And even when he stumbles, slips and falls flat out; he gets back up to battle. He’s superman in his head. He still thinks he needs to be I think. Because, I couldn’t protect him, because he couldn’t tell me … until they did, when they were barely in grade school … and the man (teen) you see above hid the sweet boy. Seemingly forever.

He fell this week. Wasn’t able to recover from an apparent stumble and now he starts over again. And my heart is broken watching him be sick. Very sick as he starts to stand back up to this illness, this craving, whose whole intent is to kill that sweet boy he has hidden in his heart.

Shane light editThis is him at the beginning of the last run of sobriety. Tired but strong. He’ll be there again.

And I know this because God and I met in worship this morning at church. I started the day very worried about my sweet boy, who hasn’t been so sweet these last few days. He was sick and in pain and irritable. I mean who wouldn’t be when they felt sick; I certainly am not fun when I am ill. But this is different.

There’s nothing I can do. And if I do something I am jeopardizing his life by enabling him. He has to walk out the withdrawl himself. He has to want to feel better. He has to choose between sobriety  and oblivion.

Unlike the cancer his father battles, the boy chose his illness. Chose oblivion over the demons of something he had no say in and I had no knowledge of. The demons who continue to tell him it was his fault. The demons that tell him I should have known. The demons who tell him he’s superman and he can live through the dangerous choices. The demons who tell him no one loves him because he’s unlovable now. This monster heroin quiets the demons I imagine. But then they begin to rustle again and bite … I cannot fathom the pain, though I experience his pain and suffering while he battles the withdrawl and fights for the breath of air that sobriety brings him.

As I sang praises to God today. As I worshiped the Father that promises to heal us. I cried out and from the depth of this mother’s heart and soul I sought my God’s assistance for my sweet boy. And God assured me that with that relinquishing, once again, of my boy to His care, that the boy, the man, would be healed.

During this song, as the lead singer of our worship band and assistance pastor sang this favorite, God met me in my aching for my sweet boy. I quieted and prayed for him and for The Hubs and was assured that He had them, that their healings were imminent, promised. And I quieted into the precious peace of the music, in Father’s presence.

You see, I’ve realized that the enemy has put a hit out on this family. Two of my men are battling grave illnesses, and the boy does not know the promises we believe! So I, WE, as a family must believe for him. He does not know that heroin addiction cannot kill him, as his father knows the cancer cannot kill him, though we tell him.

The boy does not know, as the father does, that because we believe, he is saved from his illnesses and cleansed of his sins, sins that are not even his own, but believes to be. The boy doesn’t believe that Jesus loved him so much that he took the heroin needle for him to the cross and died there with that illness upon Him! So we must believe and pray until the boy understands his worth to the Father.

And what mother, father and brother wouldn’t do this for a boy, for a man?

Oh how I wish the boy believed that he would live. Oh how I wish the boy believed he is loved beyond his mother’s ability to put it in words. Oh how I wish he knew the joy I get when he is well and smiles and is a participating member of this family. A participating member in his own life.

So I leave this post as another prayer to God. It holds no scripture, only a song of worship and praise to our Father God expressing my love and honor to him. I leave it as proof that I acknowledge His response to my need, my boy’s need, this morning. And I thank him again and again, without end that my sweet boy is starting to feel better and is two or three (I’m not sure) days back on the road of sobriety.

To every parent of a child who battles the illness of addiction, or any illness for that matter, I sing this song for you and your child. I pray that God vanquish this demon and send it to hell from whence it came, and I put the enemy and heroin under the feet of Jesus.

We are healed. Our children are healed. Our land is healed. In Jesus’ name. Amen.

Thanks for listening to this outpouring of a mother’s heart.

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The sweet boy’s mom. =)


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Seek He tells us. I will God.


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He tells us to seek His kingdom first. Matthew 6:33

He tells us to seek His righteousness. Matthew 6:33

He tells us to seek Him with all our heart and soul. Deutoronomy 4:29

He tells us to seek Him in the morning. Proverbs 8:17

He says if we seek Him and pray to Him He will hear us.

Jeremiah 29:12-14

He says if we seek Him we will want for nothing good. Psalm 34:10

He says that blessed are those that keep His testimonies and seek Him with a whole heart. Psalm 119:2

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I vow to seek Him in all things. It’s all I’ve got. It’s all that works. Life today is not doing what I want it to and I stand before Him disappointed in what I see and hear. I seek Him for solace and for serenity in this testing journey my love and I are on. I seek peace and comfort in what is. I seek calm and patience in what I have no control over. I seek Him to strengthen this faith which He works in and through me.

I’ve been told that God has done all He is going to do for us. This is taught from the pulpits. But it’s deeper than that simple and frightening lesson. He’s not done. He sent Jesus. He gave us the Holy Spirit to guide us. He is the trinity; He is Jesus and the Holy Spirit. A triune God who does not leave nor forsake His children. He is the quintessential Good Father. The father who never hurts, never leaves, never condemns. He is Abba Father. He is Daddy. He is Creator. He is Infallible.

And He loves us.

I seek Him.

I seek Him with all my strength. I seek His face continually.

1 Chronicles 16:11

O God, You are my God; early will I seek thee: my soul thirsts for You, my flesh longs for You  in this dry and thirsty land, where no water is; Psalm 63:1

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He says.

See, I set before you today life and prosperity, death and destruction. For I command you today to love the Lord your God, to walk in obedience to him, and to keep his commands, decrees and laws; then you will live and increase, and the Lord your God will bless you in the land you are entering to possess.

Deuteronomy 3:15-16

I seek life according to God’s will. I do this in light of what we go through in this life of ours. In light of what we are being told. I grasp onto His Word, His commands, laws and decrees. I seek life for us, in all of this talk of medicine, treatments, clinical trials. I seek life despite the negative reports of what they see as “professionals”. I seek life in God the Father, in our Jehovah Rapha, our healer.

I will fight to seek … turn my eyes to see His face.

I seek God. Nothing else.

I am looking up.

Within God is all that I seek. Within Christ is healing life and salvation.

Thank you for reading. Blessings to you.

Thank You for Reading. Andrea

Thank You for Reading.
Andrea

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Praying Healing Psalms For a Friend and All Things | FMF & 31 days: day 17


God is LIMITLESS Love

God is LIMITLESS Love

Today’s Prompt for 5 Minute Friday: LONG. Go.

The Psalms are filled with {mostly} David’s desperate cries for help, healing and deliverance! We often long for God to help us, heal us or deliver us. Be for all that longing we neglect sometimes to pray … to cry out our petitions.

David, before and after becoming King David, was one of God’s favorites. Even, as He sinned, in his human-ness God referred to this son of His as “A man after My own heart.”

Well I am here to tell YOU that that is true of each one of us today. We are His favorite, You are His favorite, I am His favorite!

“How?!”

You ask.

Well, it’s because He is LIMITLESS … His very essence is LIMITLESS … His Love for us is LIMITLESS!

We, in our human-ness, put God in a box. A box infinitely smaller than God, in all of His LIMITLESSNESS.

Like small children, we cannot fathom the limitlessness of this Omnipotent, Omnipresent, Infinite God; nor can we fathom that His love for us has those same qualities.

But He DOES!

He DOES!

I find deep and visceral comfort in that. I long for you to feel this, too.

I am writing this particular post after being inspired by a good friend’s struggle today. By this friends perseverance in staying in God’s Word and His presence, today.

This person is struggling with something deeply tragic and emotional; and while that is going on they are doing their level best to stay in God’s Word and presence, today; while feeling like they cannot even breath for the pain and fear. I wanted my friend to know that God LOVES them and while the circumstances are what they are, and regardless of the fact that they cannot seem to feel Him as close, today, that God is, in fact, right there with them.

This is one of those Jesus moments for this friend; that test that reaches within one, viscerally, and actually, when all is said and done, proves within one’s Spirit and Mind that God’s is ALWAYS faithful to His children and His promises.

I have experienced this Jesus moment on several occasions just this year. So I know it is what my friend is experiencing right now. My friend has described, in short, feelings and emotions and fears that I have felt many times this year.

Yet, I came to a place where when my limits on God were destroyed, I became assured of the vastness of His love for me, deeply and permanently. I want that assurance for my friend; for all my friends and loved ones. For everyone.

That place? True Serenity!

The psalmist realized the limitations of man and recognized the limitlessness of God. He expressed these concepts in Psalms 139:7-12: “Where can I go from Thy Spirit? Or where can I flee from Thy presence? If I ascend to heaven, Thou art there, If I make my bed in Sheol, behold, Thou art there, If I take the wings of the dawn, If I dwell in the remotest part of the sea, Even there Thy hand will lead me, And Thy right hand will lay hold of me. If I say, ‘Surely the darkness will overwhelm me, And the light around me will be night,’ Even the darkness is not dark to Thee, And the night is as bright as the day. Darkness and light are alike to Thee.” (from: God’s Limitlessness).

So, as I cry out to God for my healing, { You changed my mourning into dancing. You took off my funeral clothes and dressed me up in joy so that my whole being might sing praises to you and never stop. = healing} I’ve added my friend and others in intercession …

I cried out to you, Lord.
I begged my Lord for mercy:
“What is to be gained by my spilled blood,
by my going down into the pit?
Does dust thank you?
Does it proclaim your faithfulness?
Lord, listen and have mercy on me!
Lord, be my helper!”
You changed my mourning into dancing.
You took off my funeral clothes
and dressed me up in joy
so that my whole being
might sing praises to you and never stop.
Lord, my God, I will give thanks to you forever. {AMEN} — Psalm 30:8-12 

Stop!

What is it today that you need God to heal or deliver you from; what do you long for? I encourage you to pray God’s scriptures; pray what He says about your situation today. I have found and can testify to the fact that praying God’s scriptures to Him never fails.

HE.NEVER.FAILS.

God bless.

Thank You for Reading. Andrea

Thank You for Reading.
Andrea

 

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31 Days Journey to Healing

31 Days Journey to Healing

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Release …


Five Minute Friday.

So, here’s the skinny: every Friday for going on four years now hundreds of people have joined a kind of writing flash mob. We write for five minutes flat, all on the same prompt.
No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation.
Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

Release! Go!

I am angry today. I was embarrassed and hurt and angry yesterday.

Breaking Through to the Other Side of It ...

Breaking Through to the Other Side of It …

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The bible, in Ephesians 4 says: “In your anger do not sin”: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry,and do not give the devil a foothold.

Well my night was fraught with angry dreams, despite falling asleep in prayer.

Yesterday 2 doctors called and gave me information that wasn’t encouraging for both my husband and myself. I am not so concerned about the disappointment of my doctor issue; however my husband is tired. We are only one chemo round into this second go round and his blood counts are low and the doctor has ordered a medication that causes pain and discomfort, particularly at night.

Pain and discomfort. Depression and discouragement. How does one release these?

The renewing of the mind releases these things from the spirit.

Romans 12:2  Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

So today I am working on renewing my mind. Replacing the reports of the doctors with God’s word and releasing the negative thoughts, fears and anger that they instilled from my spirit … because I know that this path I am on is a journey to the good and perfect will of Father God for me.

STOP!

What do you need to release today? Be sure to replace that space with God’s perfect will for your life. After you’ve cleaned house make sure you fill it with the beauty of God’s word as advised in Matthew 12 43-45.

 


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Testing … Testing … 123 … Testing {with a new linky tool!}


Good Thursday Morning Loves! ♥

Here at HOPEannFAITH we celebrate A Few Words…together.
A bit of thought and a little converstation…quick and to the point.
No real WORD COUNT applies…just say it as concisely as you can…make us think…inspire us to write.
Let My Words Be Few is a Writing Prompt.
It is a whispered prayer.
It is a kind word and a hand up…Thursday is for encouragement, friendship and love…so write with me. Make me ponder my life in reference to your perspective!
Once you have written your blog post…you can now link up with the linky below! Yea for me I figured it out!
We look forward to your joining us! Blessings Loves
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Perseverance …

 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. James 1:4

Why do we have trials? Trials are tests that God allows so that we will grow mature in Him.

Christians love the Scripture Jeremiah 29:11 …

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

Yet when the trails roll in we forget that God has plans for us … we question, we doubt and then we make the dire mistake of attempting to handle the trials of this life on our own. I know I do … I completely forget there is a plan.

And YES! this is the plan … all of it …

Consider it pure joy whenever you face trials (the testing of your faith) of many kinds…because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. James 1:2-3 

Trial = A Testing of Faith = The Developement of Perseverance = Perseverence Developes Character = Character Builds Hope!

There are going to be trials in our lives, we know this. God allows trials (which are different from temptation, btw) so that we can be victorious.

My trials are a testing of my faith. The testing of my faith developes perseverance. And if God has allowed this test in my life then God has already given me the ability, and the tools, to pass this test.

I firmly believe that God has all the circumstances of my life in hand … todays trials and the tests to come tomorrow … and if I know that then I must … I MUST … I must believe without doubting.

Am I being tested in my life? My yes! I am! Then aren’t you too?

Does God have this? My yes! He does! And He has yours too!

So my friends I am going to consider these trials all joy, as I walk in the will of my God as best I can. And as I face these trials in this life of mine I am going to ask for the wisdom to handle the trials in the way God intended me to handle them.

He gives me no more than I can handle in this life! He knows what I (YOU) are going through right now.

I am perfect for that which God has called me.

The testing of my faith causes me to persevere and grow in maturity which grows to completeness in Christ.

What trials are you enduring today? Stop, if you will, and say this prayer with me …

Thank You Father God that you have given me all that I need to succeed in this circumstance in my life today. I humbly ask you now for the wisdom needed to come through this trial victoriously, glorifying the work that you do in me this day. Amen.

Blessings Loves ♥




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…delighting myself in the Lord…


We had Praise and Prayer Friday at our church this evening, and it was good.

Lately I have been battling something … someone … me, and I didn’t know why. I still don’t, except to know that it is a hormonal thing.

But, Jesus died for that! So why?

Because I gave in to the overwhelming deluge of hormonal waves? Easy I guess as one does not actually feel this physically, it’s more of an emotional physical occurence, I guess.

All things positive in my spirit seemed to have been arrested. Strange, because outwardly nothing happened, all things were good; a status quo. Life was rolling smoothly and steadily along. Yet, there I was with a sense of foreboding, emptiness and angst.

Not the usual “little ball of sunshine” as my husband teases! Not myself.

Usually by Friday I am done. Looking forward to a Saturday with my hubby, hopefully, or at the very least a day that is not consumed by the needs of others and the world at large. So having to go out on a Friday night does not usually cause me to be joyful.

However, tonight, I was looking forward to Prayer Friday. No, more like EXPECTING GodI was entirely prepared, having done my level best to be prayed up and in; to be released from this overwhelming emotional upheaval of this week.

God was faithful!

The music that we began prayer with was not to my usual taste, however, it was calm and flowed like the warm waves of a calm ocean on a breezy summer night. I began to feel the Holy Spirit wash over me, caressing my spirit, soothing my mind.

Our Pastor Scott lead us to leave our cares of the week and day behind us and follow the Holy Spirit to the throne of God, blessedly I felt this and entered in.

Then our Pastor Santhosh lead us to this scripture …

Psalm 37:3-4

3 Trust in the LORD and do good;
dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
4 Take delight in the LORD,
   and he will give you the desires of your heart.

And there it was … my solution. Dwell in the land and enjoy safe pature…Take delight in the LORD.

I was not dwelling in the Kingdom!

I was no longer enjoying the safety of the pasture.

I had ceased to delight [myself] in the LORD!

You see we do this to ourselves! While indulging in the ravaged, hormonal and emotional upheaval my body told me I couldn’t do anything about, I wandered from the path of Peace, Love and Delight.

David delighted in the LORD during some really bad times! Lions, Giants and Wars, O’my! So why can’t I?

The bible says that God inhabits the Praise of His people! I was praying, but all of my, other, usual routines were passed by with the attitude of “I don’t care”, “I don’t feel like it” and “I can’t”.

I was ignoring devotionals and I was not praising God. All things I know to be vital to my personal spirituality. My relationship with God hinges on these things, it’s how I spend intimate time in the LORD.

I wasn’t doing the things I knew to do. I was actually avoiding them! Talk about a back slide!

Ah, my natural character defect; my worst enemy, me, got loose and decided a week of frustrated depression was in order! And the spiral to hell and hellish behavior began.

Then God …

In all His love and faithfulness He remained by my side to teach me something. Seriously, He must have thought…Child if you’re going here anyway…

Let me teach you Quietude…

Quietude or Serenity … though it did not begin serenely, I remained oddly quiet. Throwing some of my closest friends and loved ones.

Quiet is not a description anyone who knows me would use! 🙂

I guess God decided if I was not going to Praise Him, if I would not delight in Him, He would teach me quiet.

I can’t say it was a good time, or that it was true Quietude. It wasn’t peaceful, but it was oddly calm, like before a storm. And the storm did come, this was a physical occurrence, after all. But I was quiet, though I could not hear God or sense Him physically (I enjoy both the audible and physicality of God) I knew He was there.

He does not leave or forsake us, thank goodness.

Now, exhausted from the emotions and angst of this week, I feel released from it all. I have been forgiven my rebellious nature, as always, and I write this to guide, to teach, to share in what I learned.

Pray through…

Praise through…

Ignor the feelings of NO feelings. He is there and He will lead, you just continue to move forward, speaking the Word…doing the Word, until you willingly return to the path of Peace, Love and Delight; all the things God is, and none of the things we are without Him.

How are you? What do you do to return to the path of Peace, Love and Delight in the LORD?

What scriptures or songs lead you back Home to Daddy’s throne room?

I’m going there now, why don’t you read the Book or play that love song to God that you love so much and join me. I would love to share this release with you.

Blessings Love ♥