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How God Assures Me He’s On It :: A Much Needed Sunday Healing


Sweet, Sad Eyed Boy

Sweet, Sad Eyed Boy

This is my sweet boy. My youngest. My sad little guy. And OH how he had reason for that sweet, sad look. And OH how I sometimes, still, ache for my blindness.

The Man

The Man

 

 

 

 

 

 

This is the man… angry and battling his demons. Very scary demons. And OH how I dreamed of reaching that sweet boy who was hidden in that angry man. I was incapable of reaching into him, to the boy. He wouldn’t let me. I wasn’t, still am not allowed to even hug him. It’s truly heartbreaking for me. And I’m sure his heart is broken. But He battles daily with his illness, his addiction. Heroin. And even when he stumbles, slips and falls flat out; he gets back up to battle. He’s superman in his head. He still thinks he needs to be I think. Because, I couldn’t protect him, because he couldn’t tell me … until they did, when they were barely in grade school … and the man (teen) you see above hid the sweet boy. Seemingly forever.

He fell this week. Wasn’t able to recover from an apparent stumble and now he starts over again. And my heart is broken watching him be sick. Very sick as he starts to stand back up to this illness, this craving, whose whole intent is to kill that sweet boy he has hidden in his heart.

Shane light editThis is him at the beginning of the last run of sobriety. Tired but strong. He’ll be there again.

And I know this because God and I met in worship this morning at church. I started the day very worried about my sweet boy, who hasn’t been so sweet these last few days. He was sick and in pain and irritable. I mean who wouldn’t be when they felt sick; I certainly am not fun when I am ill. But this is different.

There’s nothing I can do. And if I do something I am jeopardizing his life by enabling him. He has to walk out the withdrawl himself. He has to want to feel better. He has to choose between sobriety  and oblivion.

Unlike the cancer his father battles, the boy chose his illness. Chose oblivion over the demons of something he had no say in and I had no knowledge of. The demons who continue to tell him it was his fault. The demons that tell him I should have known. The demons who tell him he’s superman and he can live through the dangerous choices. The demons who tell him no one loves him because he’s unlovable now. This monster heroin quiets the demons I imagine. But then they begin to rustle again and bite … I cannot fathom the pain, though I experience his pain and suffering while he battles the withdrawl and fights for the breath of air that sobriety brings him.

As I sang praises to God today. As I worshiped the Father that promises to heal us. I cried out and from the depth of this mother’s heart and soul I sought my God’s assistance for my sweet boy. And God assured me that with that relinquishing, once again, of my boy to His care, that the boy, the man, would be healed.

During this song, as the lead singer of our worship band and assistance pastor sang this favorite, God met me in my aching for my sweet boy. I quieted and prayed for him and for The Hubs and was assured that He had them, that their healings were imminent, promised. And I quieted into the precious peace of the music, in Father’s presence.

You see, I’ve realized that the enemy has put a hit out on this family. Two of my men are battling grave illnesses, and the boy does not know the promises we believe! So I, WE, as a family must believe for him. He does not know that heroin addiction cannot kill him, as his father knows the cancer cannot kill him, though we tell him.

The boy does not know, as the father does, that because we believe, he is saved from his illnesses and cleansed of his sins, sins that are not even his own, but believes to be. The boy doesn’t believe that Jesus loved him so much that he took the heroin needle for him to the cross and died there with that illness upon Him! So we must believe and pray until the boy understands his worth to the Father.

And what mother, father and brother wouldn’t do this for a boy, for a man?

Oh how I wish the boy believed that he would live. Oh how I wish the boy believed he is loved beyond his mother’s ability to put it in words. Oh how I wish he knew the joy I get when he is well and smiles and is a participating member of this family. A participating member in his own life.

So I leave this post as another prayer to God. It holds no scripture, only a song of worship and praise to our Father God expressing my love and honor to him. I leave it as proof that I acknowledge His response to my need, my boy’s need, this morning. And I thank him again and again, without end that my sweet boy is starting to feel better and is two or three (I’m not sure) days back on the road of sobriety.

To every parent of a child who battles the illness of addiction, or any illness for that matter, I sing this song for you and your child. I pray that God vanquish this demon and send it to hell from whence it came, and I put the enemy and heroin under the feet of Jesus.

We are healed. Our children are healed. Our land is healed. In Jesus’ name. Amen.

Thanks for listening to this outpouring of a mother’s heart.

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Healing Sunday the Medicine of Praise! … 31days:day26


I think I’ve said this before … I find healing within my praise time with God. I find the catalyst of the music the easiest way to enter into the presence of God, where I believe we are automatically in the condition of the wholeness God intended us to be.

Praise is my medicine.

Our Youth Worship Band brought us into worship today and it was amazing. {They sang the song below … perfectly.}

I also believe that since I’ve lost a significant amount of weight I was able to physically participate actively in my worship. I found myself refreshed and worked when we finally finished with our praise and worship time.

Heal me, O LORD, and I shall be healed; save me, and I shall be saved: for you are my praise. Jeremiah 17:14

This particular song washes over me and I’m with my Father God and He responds to me, and that response heals me to my core! This song is a prayer of praise and love. I pray you will listen and allow God to respond to you in your praises … because He is your {our} praise.

Blessings to you and thanks for reading.

Thank You for Reading. Andrea

Thank You for Reading.
Andrea

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The Point of Contact … the hem of His Garment | 31 Days


31 Days: Day 20

She suffered for many years with an issue of blood. She was not supposed to be out in public, she was considered unclean. Yet she said to herself …

 

“If I only touch His garment, I will get well.”… Matthew 9:21

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A point of contact and radical faith. She reached out, breaking all the rules and touched the hem of Jesus’ garment and was healed. At her wits end, with nothing left to lose, she did the unthinkable in her society at that time in history!

She created a point of contact with Jesus for healing. Believing, using all the faith she had been given what she had heard, that He would heal her.

The story goes on to say that Jesus felt something leave Him and asked who had touched Him … Jesus turned and saw her. “Take heart, daughter,” he said, “your faith has healed you.” And the woman was healed at that moment.

We sometimes suffer without the confidence that He will heal us. Sometimes we cannot wrap our heads around the faith we have been given and just receive; so we continue to suffer.

Lord, I thank You that in the midst of my Praise and Worship of You I have found a point of contact. That etheral touch that I feel as I enter in and You respond to me. Oh how wonderful that Fatherly response feels to this emotionally fatherless daughter. That point at which I allow myself to feel, sense, the manifestation of wholeness within the core of my very being. Oh, but I ask, Oh Lord, that You teach me to retain that feeling, that permenant knowing that I am completely healed and whole. My Salvation gift of grace from a father thrilled with our reconciliation! All the glory and honor to You, my Lord, as my healing manifests within and without me. In Jesus’ name, amen.

Do you need a point of contact today? Do you know when you are in the presence of God the Father? If you do that is your point of contact. I encourage you to soak in that; whether it’s prayer, or a quiet time or praise and worship – where ever it is that God meets you, meet Him there and bask in that healing, until that healing is a permanent reality! God Bless.

Thank You for Reading. Andrea

Thank You for Reading.
Andrea

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Healing Sunday {3} A Reaquainting with the Jesus of the Bible ** 31days of Healing Scriptures


On this 19th day of this challenge we had a much loved guest preacher in and OH how God confirmed and worked; from praise and worship to the prayer time at the end it was ALL about …

Jesus

The Jesus of the Bible and His finishing of what He had come to do! Quickly let me share with you the confirmation {for and about my lil’ Sis), instruction, a video and what I came back home with.

The Confirmation: 2 Timothy 1:7 ~ A well known and used scripture!

For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.

My sister has something going on health wise, and RN or not these things frighten her; whether it’s herself, her children or just anyone she cares about. She’s frightened of dying, I think, and of other “health” issues that are prone in our family. So she shared on everyone’s favorite social media outlet and asked for prayer and I answered. She knows God is with her and she knows that He’s always taken care of her; but like many of us in these situations she wondered if she might be asking too much this time, again, I believe. This time she has a specific fear: the side effects of Chantix, the quit smoking drug. She’s trying to get healthier and the drug touts some interesting side effects.

My response was: You’re going to be fine. YOU know God is with you! And I shared with her 2 Timothy 1:7.

Well the confirmation that I had ministered to her correctly was today’s sermon and the Scriptures used; including 2Tim 1:7. Gotta Love it when God let’s you know you’ve done well like that!

The Instruction: Getting to REACQUAINTED with The Jesus of the Bible! The preacher said that years ago he had started to do something specific. When he was feeling aches and pains or downright sick he would go to the New Testament and read the stories about all those that Jesus had healed, and in no time he would be well again.

Jesus Cross

Instruction: Say, Pray and Read what God says about your illness, malady or just that little bout of sniffles.

The preacher’s message was, It is Finished.

John 19:30 When Jesus had tasted it, he said, “It is finished,” and bowed his head and dismissed his spirit.

Jesus’ last words from the cross. You see Jesus came to finish something … He came to destroy the works of the devil, and He did! Healing is a result of that finished work!

With it He gave to us “not a spirit of fear; but of POWER, LOVE and a SOUND MIND. Study that out sometime …

We have the authority and Power to overcome illness!

We have have the Love of God within us and are called to give that back out!

And …

We have been given Soundness of Mind to do ALL of this.

Do you want more and more of God’s kindness and peace? Then learn to know him better and better. For as you know him better, he will give you, through his great power, everything you need for living a truly good life: he even shares his own glory and his own goodness with us! And by that same mighty power he has given us all the other rich and wonderful blessings he promised; for instance, the promise to save us from the lust and rottenness all around us, and to give us his own character. 2Peter 1:2-4

Do you want more? Then join me and get to know Him better … Follow Jesus to healing by reading about all the healing He performed in the New Testament. Read, follow and pray how He healed and receive that healing yourself! The more we know Him and His character the more we receive His great power and everything we need for life and godliness … then receive more of His own character!

The better we know Him, the closer we get, the more His character becomes apart of us!

Press in andGod will respond to you, Manifest Healing comes within that response.

And now a video of the fabulous song we sang in worship of Him today! Wish you could hear our worship band playing this … it was amazing! One of young ladies has an incredible and anointed voice and she sings this with such moving emotion, I can’t even explain it in words, it must be felt. =) May this bless you!

We are not shaken, we are not moved …. We wait upon you Lord! Let this song wash over your spirit and I promise you will feel the healing begin as He responds to your praise! ❤

Thank You for Reading. Andrea

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Andrea

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Looking Forward to Spring … Venting vs. Complaining


Looking Forward to Spring

Looking Forward to Spring

The rough in our lives is abrasive these days and I feel like this blog has gone from being positive to a place where I complain in the guise of venting.

What do you think?

Seriously, let me know in the comment if you feel as though I complain too much here.

After all this is supposed to be about Living Positively On Purpose!

“Do all things without grumbling or questioning,”~ Philippians 2:14

That being said and asked what is the difference between venting and complaining.

Complaining and venting look very similar, however they are vastly different.

Venting is blowing off steam. The goal of the vent is to get rid of the negative feelings about a situation and can be done alone. Venting does not require an audience; many vent through prayer, music outlet and, or  physical activity, etc.

A good vent helps the person refocus on positives in their lives and keeps the mind focused on a solution. The result of a good vent is that the person feels mentally, spiritually and emotionally better.

Complaining, on the other hand, is a destructive pattern that requires a captive audience to dump on. Complaining has no clear goal for release and the person doesn’t feel better when they are done.

I am finding with this post that I am venting. Whewww! I was really concerned, because my goal is to find peace in this life, we have here in Hutchland, no matter what the circumstance. And I must admit, that at least within myself, I have felt some definite strife. Again, it’s a matter of controlling my natural desire for things to be about “me, me, me”, for once and calming that strife with the Word of God and good counsel.

My friend of good counsel does not allow complaining or self involvement. She does recognize that I need support, often, but does not allow the “woe is me” syndrome to take hold. And for that I am grateful.

“Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear” ~ Ephesians 4:29

So I vent … here and to my friend, and afterwards I can honestly say I feel better. I have worked with God and friends he has blessed me with, to get me to this place of venting and not murmuring and complaining about this life He blessed me with.

“Take good counsel and accept correction—that’s the way to live wisely and well.We humans keep brainstorming options and plans,but God’s purpose prevails.” ~ Proverbs 19:20-21

As the snow falls, yet again, here at the Jersey Shore, I am diligently seeking peace and quiet in my today. There are many who need my help today, I’ve already counseled 2 and while I feel a bit frustrated and put upon (because they are NOT venting!), I know that I have the tools and outlets to keep things in perspective.

How do you vent?

Do you feel better when you are done?

I encourage you today to examine whether you are complaining or venting. My go to solution for the circumstances here in Hutchland is prayer, worship and the Word, I find that these things bring both peace and solution to even the smallest of problems in my day.

God Bless.

 


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Praise … The Joy in our Hands… #Trust30


Call to Arms by Sasha Dichter

The secret of fortune is joy in our hands.Ralph Waldo Emerson

What if today, right now, no jokes at all, you were actually in charge, the boss, the Head Honcho. Write the “call to arms” note you’re sending to everyone (staff, customers, suppliers, Board) charting the path ahead for the next 12 months and the next 5 years. Now take this manifesto, print it out somewhere you can see, preferably in big letters you can read from your chair.

You’re just written your own job description. You know what you have to do. Go!

(bonus: send it to the CEO with the title “The things we absolutely have to get right – nothing else matters.”)

(Author: Sasha Dichter)

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At this point I am forced to believe that this “Trust 30” Challenge is a world view of how we humans are to become Self-Reliant.

I would have to do some research, which I someday may, on Emerson’s religious, spiritual views. However, whether Christian or Atheist, what I see in each of his quotes is a very clear and evident faith.

The kind, well-educated and well minded authors interpreting these lines of quote, possibly out of the context of the original essays, apparently do not see Emerson’s faith. Or, having seen it try to fit it into the too small vision of their world and this Trust 30 challenge.

God does not fit into any box, let alone one defined by the world view of today.

Todays quote speaks to ” the SECRET JOY in our hands” … their interpretation is this quote somehow equates to our being IN CONTROL of our profession.

…and they would be correct, but so off base by crushing this God concept into that world view box!

Our first and most important calling (what the world would view as profession) is to Praise and Worship our Creator.

The foremost reason we, humanity, were created was to praise God, to love God, to be God’s companions.

Revelation 4:11

“Worthy are You, our Lord and our God, to receive glory and honor and power; for You created all things, and because of Your will they existed, and were created.”

To quote a pastor I grew up under, “We were made by God, For God.”

So what is this “JOY in our hands”?

The Joy in our hands is our ability, our desire, to Praise God for all He has provided. It is Joy for us to Worship God in His sovereignty, giving Him the accolades of our reverence, honoring and glorifying the Almighty God for what He has done for this dying world in which we reside.

The Joy in our hands is the gratitude that drops us to our knees in the most trying of times, as well as the most joyous and victorious times, alike.

He is worthy to be praised!

So what of the “Secret of fortune” the quote speaks of immediately?

The secret is in the praise, in the worship. Our desire to Praise and Worship God, to acknowledge with loving reverence His Son and to follow the guidance of His Holy Spirit is the secret.

The fortune is derived from the obedience of our Praise and Worship of God. It is in our obedience to God that His grace is garnered. It is the obedience in which we operate our faith that garners the favor we receive in this life, and beyond, as His Children.

In obedience to this prompt, here is my Call to Arms to the CEO, to the Staff, suppliers and customers…

to ALL who are to be laborers for the Kingdom of God …

Psalm 150

1 Praise the LORD.

Praise God in his sanctuary;
praise him in his mighty heavens.
2 Praise him for his acts of power;
praise him for his surpassing greatness.
3 Praise him with the sounding of the trumpet,
praise him with the harp and lyre,
4 praise him with timbrel and dancing,
praise him with the strings and pipe,
5 praise him with the clash of cymbals,
praise him with resounding cymbals.

6Let everything that has breath praise the LORD.

Praise the LORD.

…Lift your hands, Lift your hearts, Lift your eyes

and …

Let everything with in you, praise the LORD!

Blessings Loves ♥


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Peace~Quiet~Wholeness


“Let My Words be Few” Thursday

Here at HOPEannFaith I am challenging myself to be concise in my writing, and I invite you to join me. It is my hope to write spirit filled, inspirational posts touching our Spirits, not just our minds and flesh. I also hope this will improve my writing skill set, while deepening my spiritual walk. If you would like to join me in this challenge simply leave me a link to you ‘Let My Words be Few’ blog post or simply leave your post in the comments, and I will link your post into mine for that week. Your post can be about anything positive! The goal is to be inspirational while using the fewest words. You can see I’m still working on that, so there is NO word count requirement. You may use the Thursday if you like, but it is not a link…I don’t know how to do that! 🙂 I’m a writer not a techie! Just manually link the picture to my blog from yours and we will be good to go, and your readers will be able to join us.                                                                                                                                                                                                           Thanks  for reading Loves!                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     I welcome the company.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             Blessings ♥           

This will be a true “Few Words” post. Finally! 🙂

I’ve been working all day. I sit here now well into the afternoon as the winter light begins to shift into the uneasy light. That seasonal sensation professionals now call a disorder. It causes me to feel ill at ease…

Then I remember…

I was not given a spirit of fear…

That is what this uneasy light is really. Fear. So much causes fear and unrest.

Devotionals today were about righteousness…one was about rest, then I read one about righteousness which led me to the concept of quietness which can mean rest. 

However, what I got was Peace from both. 

Peace with myself…my work…my gifts…me…Peace.

“…the fruit of righteousness will be peace; the effect of righteousness will be quietness and confidence forever. ” Isaiah 32:17

Peace*Shalom ~ complete soundness {a sound mind….}, prosperity, Wholeness, quiet, safety, literally….

NOTHING MISSING OR BROKEN FROM MY LIFE.

The fruit of righteousness is Peace ~ My right standing with God will be Peace.

Where is this quietness in me? That undisturbed rest, safety, the peace to be carefree?

I wonder why I am tired often….My heart? My mind? My lonliness…

Then I return to my devotions…

“…for it is time to seek the Lord, until He comes and showers righteousness on me.” Hosea 10:12

“You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” Jeremiah 29:13

“Blessed is the woman who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is the Lord. She will be like a tree planted by the water…She will not fear when the heat comes, she will not be anxious in the year of drought (my desert!), nor cease to be fruitful.” Jeremiah 17:7-9

{Each link is my paraphrase, that is if it is not consistant with the NIV translation, and linked to the blog post devotional from which it was recieved.}

I find my rest…my peace…my Shalom is disrupted off and on these days. I am truly grateful that it is not continually dried up in that desert place I was for so very long. Although I do recognize that when my Peace is gone and I am nolonger the fruit of the righteousness God has given me that I have returned, somehow, to that desert.

My solution…SEEK God…CRAVE after GOD!

I bought ‘one thousand gifts” by Ann Voskamp; the book arrived today. I am going to go relax, rest and begin reading this treasure of gifts from God that Ann has given us to unwrap. I’m thinking of joining the book club…but it causes deep unrest in me. I want to belong to this blogging community. I want my gift of Words on the Whitespace to be profound and quoted. I want to be like these women!

I guess I’m comparing like the Bonnie @ Faithbarista said…

I write! I am a writer! It is both my calling and my gift! I want to honor God with this gift…I hope that I do…

Blessing Loves ♥