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Prayer … Just an example …


Day 4

God gave us an example of prayer … remember, it’s an example!

Matthew 6:9-13New King (NKJV)

9 In this manner, therefore, pray:

Our Father in heaven, (Addressing God in His sovereignty.)PrayerHabakkuk
Hallowed be Your name. (Praising and acknowledging His name and His Holiness.)
10 Your kingdom come.
Your will be done
On earth as it is in heaven. (Acknowledging Him for His hand to move in our lives.)

11 Give us this day our daily bread.(Acknowledging Him as our provision.)
12 And forgive us our debts,
As we forgive our debtors. (Asking for forgiveness as we promise to extend the same to all.) 
13 And do not lead us into temptation,
But deliver us from the evil one. (Acknowledging Him as our protector.)
For Yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever. Amen (Giving Him the Honor and Glory for all things!)

This prayer outlines how we should pray, when we pray continually. We should be acknowledging, honoring and glorifying God in all or our prayers.

This said … this is God template for prayer. All prayer is personally ours, individually. The way I pray is different from the way you pray; and that’s perfectly fine. God built each of us differently and He knows us personally. So there is no ONE way to pray.

I have several prayer books … The one I use regularly is …

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However, I use these as templates … they were originally someone else’s personal prayers according to God Word. So they make researching the scriptures for God’s will in my prayer life ultra easy. But I rarely pray the prayers directly from this, or any other prayer book, because my needs, while similar are vastly different from what the people who wrote the prayers in the books for themselves at the time of their need.

I encourage you to find examples that fully acknowledge, honor and glorify God in prayer to help you to pray more effectively in your life!

Lord,

I thank You for the examples of Godly prayer You have provided for us! I pray I (we) always remember to give you the proper Glory and Honor and Acknowledgement in all of our prayers. And I thank You from the depths of my heart for all of Your faithful and loving answers to prayer. Let us always remember that You always hear us, always answer us and never forsake us.

In  Jesus’ name I pray, amen.

Thank you, my reader friends! You’re in may prayers. God bless you!

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Healing in God’s Timing … An Inspired Post | 29days of 31days of writing


Day 29 and I didn’t think I’d be able to get this post in today! But inspiration often comes from the amazing writing of fellow bloggers!

Karen Beth over on Find the Grace Within broached the subject of that young woman who plans to commit suicide on November 1st. because she doesn’t want to lose the control she will possibly lose due to her terminal brain tumor.

Well Karen Beth wrote about God’s Timing and it’s a blog post that should not be missed! Check it out {HERE}.

I am not going to expound upon that particular subject as Karen Beth was thorough and I don’t believe I could do her post justice, and my comment is self explanatory.

What I am going to discuss here is God’s Timing and our Manifest Healing.

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YOU

God did everything in the picture … and it was all about YOU.

He did it all in His timing and for His purpose, for YOU.

Even the hardest, especially the hardest!, of lives, He allowed because His message through that life is vital to getting someone to the kingdom.

Yes, my suffering a heart event and battling the underlying cause, Obesity, for these 5 years (I didn’t fight it before that.) is a testimony to His glory. I am alive. I didn’t take to a wheelchair like my grandmother did at my age because of CHF.

I do what He wants me to do, everyday, and get up and live my life. It’s to His glory and faithfulness that I am alive and active in this battle. It would have been easy for me to sit in a wheelchair and just exist … but He gave me life and He sacrificed His Son so that I could live a full life … not just an existence. And not for one moment did I want to end it.

Like I’ve said a hundred times {ok, maybe 29 times} in this series …

God’s provision for the healing of our bodies and the forgiving of our sins were just two of the benefits we receive when we accept Jesus as our Lord and Savior. Your forgiveness and your healing were secured for you, by Jesus, whether you’ve made that commitment yet or not.

That Healing is waiting for you to accept the miracle of Jesus’ sacrifice and the Love of God!

God says to the prophet Habakkuk, “For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end—it will not lie. If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay.” in chapter 3 verse 5.

God has a vision and if we give up He will not force his will upon us. He will be a gentleman and we will miss that appointed time! We need to wait for His timing … giving up, no matter how we do that, will stop that vision God has for our lives!

God said to the prophet Jeremiah, This is what the Lord says: “When seventy years are completed for Babylon, I will come to you and fulfill my good promise to bring you back to this place. For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.  Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.”  in chapter 29 verses 110-12

These are clear instructions that God has a particular timing for our lives. And I don’t believe we have the right to usurp that authority, despite that free will thing. We must wait on God for the our lives to come to fulfillment in His plan.

I think about this often lately. My husband’s battle. Looking back on the last 13 months it seems we simply lived our lives. From the beginning he spoke only life in this situation! He chose NOT to let lung cancer overtake him! He spoke his refusal to succumb to this disease. He would deny his courage and say that he simply wouldn’t give it a foothold … he would tell you he was not valiant in his fight. He would tell you that he simply trusted God and lived his life. And that would be true.

Though I stand in awe of his courage and strength; that character was his before he ever fell ill. His strength and integrity are a big part of why I love this man. They didn’t rise from the adversity of this illness, they are his nature, always,  and there when he needed them.

It was God who rose up and said no to this illness overtaking our lives. It was God who said this is My boy and he will astound the doctors, and he has.

Does anyone reading know what the lifespan is for someone with lung cancer? Let alone when that cancer moves? I do, but we don’t speak those words of death in our home.

My husbands progress is a testimony to why one should never give away or end this life that we’ve been given.

Our healing is promised. Our healing is secure. Our healing is ours to manifest when we trust in a God who says …

“He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” Psalm 46:10

Be still in your circumstance, trust that God will work that healing in you. Whether it be physical, psychological or emotional. God will reveal Himself to all in your healing. But we must trust.

You see I cannot explain, in worldly terms, why I am well or why my husband never suffered the well know side effects of chemo, or why his lung is working at full capacity after being completely closed with a tumor 13 months ago; if not for God. If not for Grace.

And to us and our church family, we have no doubt.

We are still … and He is being God. Keeping His promises and glorifying Himself with the miracle of healing in our lives!

Thanks for reading. Blessing to you.

 

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Trust: Words that Move me to God Thoughts |Tuesday @ 10/ 31 Days of Writing


index2Here it is … Tuesday again and the 29th day of the 31 day writing challenge. I must say that near the middle the 31D challenge truly challenged me! I fell significantly behind; but Wheww! I’ve caught up!

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Finding the Grace Within’s Karen Beth brought a really good prompt today! To join us in this blog link-up just follow the link in the picture to the left and get the skinny on how the link up works.

TRUST … Certain words and subjects bring me right to the subject of God in most conversations. Mainly because I’ve come to a place in my relationship with God that I know these subjects are His domain.

Trust is most definitely one of them.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;” Proverbs 3:5

We’ve all had our trust broken by people. Most of the people who break our trust are those closest to us, this wounds deeply and leaves inner scars that we hide and rarely heal. That is if we do not seek for them to heal. But when we finally do seek to heal from our inner wounds it is God who heals and rebuilds that trust; but not in man.

He teaches us that humans are fallible; incapable of the absolutes we seek in them. That absolute trust is only held true in God; simply because He is unchangable, unlike humans. People are easily swayed, their minds and opinions change with on each direction of the wind and with those changes come broken promises and vows and trust.

But God. He says …

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. Proverbs 3:5

For some reason “our own understanding” is that a person, those we love and trust, are infallible. They are not. Like I said above they change, sometimes on the smallest of whims. We, too, are infallible; our word, promise and vows are just as fallible. I would find it suspect, at best, if there were anyone reading who hasn’t broken someones trust; purposefully and with intent or not, we’ve caused someone, somewhere not to trust us. And you and I both know regaining that trust takes a lifetime.

Again. But God. He says …

Forgive as I have forgiven you. We must …

Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you. Ephesians 4:32

And know we embark on the “but!!!” … How do I forgive some of the most heinous wounds? Well to be perfectly honest in and of myself I know that I am incapable of that! I’m almost 50 and I spent way too much of my life harboring deep resentments and wrath against those who harmed me. And that harm was SOUL DEEP. Permanent scars, or so I thought! When I came to the realization that I had to forgive I was far beyond mad. It incited rage within me! I felt forsaken, by those who had hurt me; the very people who were supposed to care for and protect me and now … yes, I felt forsaken by God!

In all that time of tragedy, abuse and neglect I had never felt forsaken by God, but realizing that I had to forgive shattered trust … well I was beside myself. And I say that because I was a participating Christian when the revelation came and I didn’t have a clue how I could continue in a faith that required the impossible for me.

But God. Here I am explaining it to you, my friendly readers.

Trustworthiness is a characteristic that is in The Image of God. An integrity we gain through our walk with God. We are taught honesty by our natural parents; but it is usually their version of honesty. And inevitable they are the first persons who break our faith in the human race. Luckily God made it them who we could forgive because of our lifelong relationship with them … our first lesson in forgiveness. =) God is so amazing, knowing who to sacrifice so that each of us could come into our true being as His children.

It took me a very long time to forgive my shattered trust. That brokenness that caused me to guard my heart against just about everyone in my life. For me, as for many, it was truly a self preservation thing. A lonely road, really.

I relearned trust in my honest seeking of God and His kingdom. These verses, when applied to my life gave me a new perspective on trust, and how to trust others.

I can now trust others because I put my trust first in God the Father. I’ve learned to trust God that He works in anyone around me, whether it is their true nature or not, so that I am safe and protected. Man cannot break my Trust anymore, because it is based on the only Man in my life capable of absolute honesty … Jesus.

So here are a LOT of scriptures for you to get into your heart, so that when the subject of trust comes up in your life you too can be sure of where your trust comes from. Secure in the fact that God’s Word is true and faithful even when those we love the most cannot be.

Do you need to repair broken trust in your life. Is there a relationship that you need to repair when it come to Trust and Honesty? I encourage you to get into the Word of God and press into your relationship with God the Father and trust will follow!

And … YES. You have an existing relationship with God, even if you aren’t aware or sure of it. Father God is just waiting on you to reconcile yourself to His Love … because Jesus already reconciled You to Father. Jesus did the work … you just need to lean in and accept and TRUST that UNCONDITIONAL Love!

These scripture are the start to getting Trust into perspective in your life. They work for me. I pray them. They helped me learn to trust people THROUGH God and now they help me to stay in contact with God first when trust becomes an issue in my life. And …

I always … Remember – Trust God First!

Joshua 1:9 Have not I commanded you? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be you dismayed: for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.
2 Samuel 7:28 And now, O Lord GOD, you are that God, and your words be true, and you have promised this goodness to your servant:
Psalms 9:10 And they that know your name will put their trust in you: for you, LORD, have not forsaken them that seek you.
Psalms 13:5 But I have trusted in your mercy; my heart shall rejoice in your salvation.
Psalms 20:7 Some trust in chariots, and some in horses: but we will remember the name of the LORD our God.
Psalms 31:14 But I trusted in you, O LORD: I said, You are my God.
Psalms 56:3 What time I am afraid, I will trust in you.
Psalms 84:12 O LORD of hosts, blessed is the man that trusts in you.
Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart; and lean not to your own understanding.
Proverbs 11:13 A talebearer reveals secrets: but he that is of a faithful spirit conceals the matter.
Proverbs 11:28 He that trusts in his riches shall fall; but the righteous shall flourish as a branch.
Proverbs 28:26 He that trusts in his own heart is a fool: but whoever walks wisely, he shall be delivered.
Isaiah 12:2 Behold, God is my salvation; I will trust, and not be afraid: for the LORD JEHOVAH is my strength and my song; he also is become my salvation.
Isaiah 43:1 But now thus said the LORD that created you, O Jacob, and he that formed you, O Israel, Fear not: for I have redeemed you, I have called you by your name; you are mine.
Jeremiah 7:8 Behold, you trust in lying words, that cannot profit.
Daniel 6:23 Then was the king exceedingly glad for him, and commanded that they should take Daniel up out of the den. So Daniel was taken up out of the den, and no manner of hurt was found on him, because he believed in his God.
John 14:1 Let not your heart be troubled: you believe in God, believe also in me.
Romans 15:13 Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Ghost.
Revelation 21:5 And he that sat on the throne said, Behold, I make all things new. And he said to me, Write: for these words are true and faithful.
Thank you for reading.
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Healing Prayer … getting The Word In | 31 Days: 16


Rx - The Word of God

Rx – The Word of God

It’s October 16th and we have 16 days left in this challenge of 31 Days of Writing.

Yesterday I rededicated my focus on God and getting His healing Word in. Thinking about it more, I wanted to the next 16 days to be  full of scriptural healing prayers. Surrendering my doubts and fears to God and filling up on His healing words.

So I went about researching His healing bible verses and found this, on Belief Net.com: Healing Bible Verses. Researching bible verses has become easier with Google, for sure! But don’t forget, it is important to read before and after any scripture to receive full understanding. Full understanding of what God is saying is pertinent. =)

 

Lord,

I am Your child, I am and will continue to be attentive to Your words;
    to Your sayings I will incline my ear.
I will not allow them to  escape from my sight;
    I will keep them in the midst of my heart.
 For they are life to those of us who find them
    and healing to our entire body.
 With all vigilance, I will keep my heart,
    for from it comes the source of life. Amen

Proverbs 4:19-23

This is my beginning prayer, today.  I will continue to pray scripture, today, because if there’s anything I learned on this walk with my Lord it is that praying His Word never fails. These words are His will … they are His promises, unsullied by my thoughts or ideas or interpretations. It is the Word He inspired in Solomon {who is said to have written most of the Book of Proverbs} to share with us. As most know Proverbs are a guide book, depicting clearly the right and wrong ways to live this life. There is incredible guidance in this book.

I pray that these coming 16 prayers might get into your heart for healing. No matter what that healing is … Spirit {Heart}, Mind {Thought and Reasoning} or Body {Physical}.

Tell me, if you would, what healing do you need prayer for today … tomorrow? Let me know in the comments and I will share and pray healing prayers with you, for you, because I believe when we intercede for others our own healing is manifest.

I saw this quote recently, author unknown.

All Christians are called to prayer, for intercession.

Won’t you allow me to pray for you today. =)

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So Be It. | 31Days:15 ~ Share with me today … I would love to pray with you!


Courageous & Dangerous Prayer

Courageous & Dangerous Prayer

This 31 day challenge has been just that, a challenge, on many levels.

  1. The Challenge to Write.
  2. The Challenge to eek out time to write.
  3. The Challenge to see if I can get people interested and directed to my blog.
  4. The Challenge to get healing scriptures into my heart, permanently.

That 4th challenge was the original challenge and should have been the focus. But that focus changed from getting God in to getting ME out there.

NOT.GOOD.

Social Media, whether it’s Facebook, Tumblr, Google or even WordPress and other blog venues can take over. Often times they cause us to focus on us essentially distracting us from what’s important around us!

Social Media overload! So I decided a few days ago to Slow Down … being that I do most of my work online a total disconnect is not an option … however a conscious slow down is.

So I set about, today, looking to refocus my sights on the original challenge. To get HEALING scriptures into my HEART; for my HEART and for my family. And I visited an old page of mine: A Very Courageous Prayer; Dangerous Even!

I originally saw this prayer on Ann Kroeker’s blog. She is awesome and so is her blog. Go check it out!

It contains a very significant prayer by John Wesley. Shared on the page. This prayer:

Dear God
I am no longer my own, but thine. Put me to what thou wilt, rank me with whom thou wilt; Put me to doing, put me to suffering. Let me be employed by thee or laid aside for thee, exalted for thee or brought low by thee. Let me be full, let me be empty. Let me have all things, let me have nothing. I freely and heartily yield all things to thy pleasure and disposal. And now, O glorious and blessed God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit, thou art mine, and I am thine.

So be it.

And the covenant which I have made on earth, let it be ratified in heaven. Amen. 

This prayer is a dedication to and a surrendering to God the Almighty. A prayer which allows the prayer to enter into total and intimate communion with the Father. I continue to see this prayer as courageous and dangerous to the prayer.

Why?

Because, have you, even you Christians, truly, honestly and transparently, REALLY, surrendered all to God? Do you, do I, even know what that complete surrender means? Have we counted the cost of this surrender, or the surrender that Jesus gave on the cross for us?

I know I must not have, because I still suffer illness and doubt in my body and mind. Only my Spirit is truly and completely surrendered because that happened instantly upon my asking for and receiving my salvation through Jesus Christ.

It’s a courageous prayer because it means giving up EVERYTHING. to God … and if you say the prayer and your heart is pure God will, instantly, make clear to you what you must give up, sacrifice, for this intimate communion with the Father.

It’s a dangerous prayer because it means giving up EVERYTHING. to God … and if you say the prayer and your heart is set and pure on this commitment He will require that you give to Him those things  that you are comfortable, happy, connected, with and to. And those things that you believe you need to survive; to serve Him and become who He intended you to be in His kindom.

Let’s face it anything we do that is dangerous takes courage. Living in this fallen world committed to Christ is courageous and dangerous. And it stands that anything we do that is courageous is dangerous to who we are right now, because it will ultimately change who we are and what we believe.

We ALL were born with a purpose, for the purpose of serving the Kingdom of God; and the Kingdom of God is in US. So why is this surrender so seemingly hard and sacrificial for us?

I don’t have that answer, yet.

In that post, written just over 3 years ago, I vowed to pray this daily. I don’t know when I stopped. I used to have a paper copy of it just under my laptop for praying each day. But I did stop praying it.

Well today, in the interest of zooming my focus for this life of mine, and this challenge, on God and healing, I am going to attempt to use this prayer and more prayer, to strengthen that vow I gave to God and myself so many years ago. I honestly believe that I must offer myself more to God to receive this Manifest Healing I seek.

So tell me, Sweet Reader, what prayer are you saying today. What areas do you need to surrender to God to truly be healed today? Share with me, I would love to pray with you.

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Waiting … Patience … Perseverance

“If you are going through hell, keep going.”
Winston Churchill

And there it is … the truth! True patience and perseverance.

Romans 5:3-8

Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.

You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous person, though for a good person someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

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So shouldn’t we be patient and wait on God?

Patience is the ability to accept and wait or suffer on something or someone without becoming angry or upset!

Be still and know that I am God … Psalm 46:10-11

10 Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.

11 Jehovah of hosts is with us; The God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah

Selah means to sit quietly and meditate on this … in other words have patience and wait on the Lord to reveal the meaning to you. Not your understanding, but the meaning of what God is saying to you, individually, right now, about your circumstance.

Waiting on healing that the Word says is already complete is a conundrum to say the very least. To understand the promise and to manifest that promise are two very different things! And it can be frustrating.

Yet, Patience says we must suffer that wait without that frustration. Even though that frustration can only delay, not stop, that manifestation.

So how do I have patience enough to endure the process. How does one accomplish this ethereal task within themselves?

” … suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God has been poured out into our hearts …

I believe this is about us and our response to God in the hard situations. Circumstances like cancer and heart failure and addiction.

Because at “just the right time” when we are truly powerless and surrendering all to God … God then demonstrates Himself: LOVE, for us, to us and through us. Even as we are still sinners.

Like I said this morning in a scripture status on our favorite Social Media vehicle:

You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness. – Ephesians 4:22-24
* Note: WE were TAUGHT … it’s a walk, a process. WE MUST read and learn and fellowship and CHANGE the attitudes of our minds. As wonderful as it all is the Love and Grace of God … we are human in a fallen world and we must LEARN and be GUIDED to this place of TRUE righteousness and Holiness in God.

It’s all a process, in patience and perseverance, to Righteousness and Holiness … to getting what we KNOW down in our Spirits for true Understanding.

I simply need to remember that my Manifest Healing was completed the day I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior, and that I must wait patiently on my human-ness to catch up with my acceptance.

True Serenity.

We call that “Speaking those things that are not (in the natural/the flesh/what is tangible to us here on earth) as though they are. Speaking FAITH; because what we KNOW is promised must be KNOWN in the heart …

That short 18 inch trip from the head to the heart.

And that takes Patience and Perseverance … so I fight the frustrations and do what I know I should do and wait, patiently on God.

Trust me I know this is hard, a LOT. We all live it. We all struggle to be patient in this instant gratification world of ours … but what is it you need to hand to God and be patient and trusting for Him to complete today? Know you are not alone in this virtuous struggle with Spirit and Flesh.

For me, today, I’m handing God the obesity and asking that He conquer it … even as I set out to start Nutrisystem so that I can get my dietary lifestyle under control.

It’s letting God work in me, while I do what I know to do … leaning on Him and not my understanding (or anyone else’s understanding) of what NEEDS to be done to conquer this underlying and deadly dis-ease within me.

Thanks for forgiving the length (this went just a bit over 5 minutes, didn’t it!) and for reading, my faithful friends.

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Belief and Healing | 31days:13


Uprooted

Uprooted

My motivation for this 31 Day Journey Through Scripture for Healing was and is to get God’s promises for healing – Divine healing into my head and ultimately into my heart. My true spiritual heart where I can continually tap into what I honestly see as truth in regard to healing.

My desire is MANIFEST healing, manifest health. I want to walk, not just in, as this gives me the ability to walk “out” of; I want to prove out Manifest Health. I want to be able to tap into the KNOWLEDGE that I am healed in Christ – inside and out.

Yet this desire causes me stress.

Because I’m not attaining it right now.

Because I have moments; many right now, when I realize I’m not hungry, and in fact I feel quite the opposite, yet I go and get that comfort food that my mind is telling me I want.

Because I need to move, yet I have no, absolutely no, motivation to get up and start what I know I must do to be healthy. Walk, move, do something, do anything!

Because, though I believe God at His word I must beg Him to forgive my unbelief … not in Him, not in His promise … but, my unbelief that I could be the recipient of Him and His promise of healing. I really believe that though I understand in my head it has not dropped those 18 inches to my heart.

My heart that that literally NEEDS to receive healing.

To my heart where The Spirit actually resides within me!

And God said we could …

Ask, Seek, Knock: Matthew 7

“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.

“Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10 Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? 11 If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! 12 So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.

There it is … helping the God information get from my head to my heart!

But am I asking? Or … am I sitting here, unmotivated, hoping God will look down on me and just give me what I should be asking Him for. This says that I must ask.

I.MUST.ASK. Maybe I do not have because I do not truly ask God to handle this. Maybe I’m doing this alone, on my own power … and I can’t, I really seem not to be able.

James 4

2b You do not have because you do not ask God. When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures.

The stress of knowing that this obesity I struggle with is due to some past harm within me; that this is the symptom of a physical or emotional wound is the same stress that blocks my ability to get well.

I believe this. So here it is … another layer of the onion that must be peeled away so that God’s Divine Healing can manifest within me.

I don’t have to rehash the harms and wrongs and wounds that I have truly dealt with. I now have to find that tiny shred of  “YOU ARE WORTHLESS” that I allowed to be deeply instilled within me.

No. That’s wrong … I didn’t allow the original instillation of self doubt and lack of self worth … what I allowed was the wallowing in and the coveting of that wound so that I could remain resentful by rights of those abuses. So in the time it took me to cultivate that crop of resentment (years) it was able to blossom in some deep and dark places within me that now must be rooted out and exposed to the light.

And this is where I agree that Christianity has a touch of brain washing to it.

I am human. On some of the harder days I forget I am chosen and loved by the Father Creator. It’s not that I cease to know this truth, it’s more that it fails to rise up in me to remind me. And this is because I am distracted by the hardness of the moment.

Let’s face it … during times of stress we humans forget things. Even us Christians forget and try to do things, figure things, that are not within our understanding.

What I need to remember: God’s Sovereignty.  I was made in His image. I have His DNA, we all do, and that is perfect.

But … I am not God.

I’m almost 50 years old here. I have never conquered this obesity. It’s roots were deep, I know, and God and I have worked hard to remove them … but like a tree that is cut down, the roots, underground must be destroyed, ground out, so that the tree does not begin to grow, again in that area again. The root must be destroyed, too, so that it will not move, underground, unseen, to rise in a new location where it blooms and grows anew.

Roots

Roots

 

Destroying the Roots

Destroying the Roots

 

 

 

 

He is God, alone. And I believe and I ask Him to take this remnant root and destroy it, once and for all, so that I may walk out that promise He gave me on that gurney 5 years ago!

Thanks for reading my faithful friends.

Andrea

Andrea

 

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