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Thursday Morning Praise … Let My Words Be Few Thursday!


A while ago, over a year, I tried to create my own blog link up. Few Words Thursday. But I didn’t have much of a following. That being the case I love the thought of that concept. A day of Few Words, just pressing into the presence of God. Being still and waiting on Him. I want to do that today, and maybe each Thursday, again. I want to create in quiet … honoring Him.

So here’s what I have for today. Join me if you want to, I’d love that. At first just share with me, in the comments, your best to God in the shortest and most concise manner: Words, Prayers, Poems, Worship or Praise video, pictures or however you need to express your desire to spend this little bit of time quietly, in the Lords healing arms. And when I am moved by God I will ‘reblog’ your offerings here, on Friday or Saturday, for others, like a guest blogger. =) Then if there’s enough response, I’ll create the link up.

But until then I’m going to spend my Thursday quietly with Father. And if the following doesn’t come, then I’ll know that this is my special time with God, alone, and I will post when I am moved to.

Blessings to YOU, my friendly readers.

 

Don’t make rash promises, and don’t be hasty in bringing matters before God. After all, God is in heaven, and you are here on earth. So let your words be few. Ecclesiastes 5:2

A Few Words Thursday @ HOPEannFAITH

A Few Words Thursday @ HOPEannFAITH

In my day to day I’ve learned to be quiet, at some point, and listen for God. Whether that moment is one of peaceful waiting or crisis,  I long to hear only from God. On my worst day, in the darkest shadows, I come to know, and expect, that God will speak and guide me in that time, whether it’s for hours or just a moment.

I expect and long to hear from God, alone, for He is GOD alone. So this morning I started with praise music entering into the expectation of His presence for today. There’s no immediate crisis, only the wide unknown in front of me as The Hubs and I wait for him to be accepted into some clinical trial or for the tests to show what we already know. That God has healed Him. I long for the doctors to tell us that The Hubs is healed, but they’ve almost vowed never to tell us that.

So instead of waiting on the doctors with this longing, I choose to wait on God to prove to them that He is the Healer! With that let me stop my words and praise Him.

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Thanks for reading and listening. If you’d join me, I’d love that. =) Leave it in the comments.


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Renew the Mind ~ 31 Days of Focus #4


Hello again. Here I am at 10:30 at night getting in my DAY 4 Post for 31 Days of Focus.

My focus today was skewed, as it is sometimes. Got to bed late last night and slept in too long this morning, so I spent an hour praying and thanking God for the day. A good start to a delayed day, I’d say.

Though I prayed my day remained disjointed. I couldn’t shake the funk, so I called my sponsor and she firmly (to my aggravation) told me to stop feeling the way I did about a subject, before I could get my thought out. Well I don’t have this problem with God …

Now don’t get me wrong, my sponsor is an amazing person and has put up with much from me; there was much to fix in me and she was the first to truly work through all of it with me. But … she’s human, and whether she wanted to get me to the point quickly so we could move on or she felt it was the best choice today, that doesn’t work for me.

Sometimes I just need to be heard.

So I was trolling Facebook today and ran across a status from a Pastor on my friends list, it caught me because it sounded like Psalm 91 (my favorite scripture) and I found it inspiring for a day, when once again, I’m not feeling this life of mine.

“I will follow Him one step at a time and that is all He requires of me. If He leads me up a cliff He will equip me thoroughly for the strenuous climb. He has given His angels charge over me, to preserve me in all my ways. I will keep my mind stayed on Him and enjoy His presence regardless my present journey. I will walk by faith and not by sight, trusting Him to open up the way before me. He is God.” ~ Gale Alverez

I copied and shared this as my status today, and it remained my focus.

God is God and remains on the throne and Lord of my life no matter what I go through.

A tornado slams a tree into my house … God is on the throne.

I have high blood pressure and feel physically bad … God is on the throne.

I’m not feeling my life … God is on the throne.

… and he has prepared me for my journey that day!

In Gale’s status she has the line “He has given His angels charge over me, to preserve me in all my ways.”Which is actually line verse 11 in the 91st Psalm. It’s the line the drew me in … not because of the angels, but because I recognized Psalm 91 and I knew He was guiding me on this day of numbness.

I honestly don’t know what’s up. I’m depressed and I truly don’t know why, nothing overt is happening. The trials and transitions in my life, while difficult, are the same as they were yesterday and a month ago. Plus, with sponsoring and God I am quickly working through them.

I’d like to share my favorite part of Psalm 91 with you … it’s the end. The very special thing about this is that it is a personal letter to us from Father God … that’s write, just put your name after the Dear in the letter and sign it on your heart from Father God … it’s for YOU!

Dear Child,

Because you loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue you;
    I will protect you, for you acknowledge my name.
 You will call on me, and I will answer you;
    I will be with you in trouble,
    I will deliver you and honor you.
With long life I will satisfy you
    and show you my salvation.

Love, Father God

This should be our focus … When we focus on the love God has for us … the love that causes Him to answer our call … the love that causes Him to honor us …honor us! When we focus on this we can not help but shine His love to the world.

And when I am loving the world around me all of a sudden the numbness wears off and I can feel this life again.

Renew the mind … not with worldly knowledge … rather with the knowledge of God and focus. 🙂

Blessings.


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31 Days of Writing on One Subject ? {Day 1}


Welcome to HOPEannFAITH … the blog about the journey of my life … I think everyone’s personal blog is about their journey, don’t you. Deep inside of each of us is a story that needs to be told, and this one is mine.

My journey is about life, faith and wholeness. I don’t always write about these things, sometime I write about the frivolous and the trivial. Gosh some may feel that my musings in word are always frivolous, that’s okay, because this is my life.

I’ve joined the many writers who use the 31 Days of October to write on one subject, telling their stories.

Welcome to 31 days – the beautiful brainchild of the Nester who inspires us to spend the month of October writing every single day on a topic that might inspire a community.
And I found it through Lisa-Jo Baker ~ tales from a Gypsy Mama
Continue reading for my day 1 post. And check back each day to see what comes of this series I’m attempting.

I’ve chosen FOCUS for this series.

September proved to be a taxing month of one crisis after another. Yet in it all (except for maybe one area) we were able to appreciate God‘s presence and His hand on our lives.

Of all the blessings we’ve enjoyed as a couple and a family it is my overwhelming feeling that the best of all God’s blessings is to be able to immediately know God is there with you in the fray and feel His hand upon your life as your life is seemingly coming apart.

The peace therein is the Focus of today’s post.

I’ve enjoyed extended joy in my life … specifically from May to June of 2002; my first truly joyful experience (a story for another day). I have enjoyed many momentary joys … the true moments when the presence of God simply swells within you.

But peace … I want true peace. I believe true peace is a state of being, where nothing that is happening in the midst of a life moves one past that knowing that God is with you.

Like I said September proved to be taxing on our lives and family.

The one occurrence that  affected me most profoundly was the Tornado. We actually had a tornado in NJ … Nor’Easter-s and Hurricanes are the norm, but a Tornado! Who knew, and it passed right up the side of our home, uprooting a huge 100+ year old swamp maple  that hit our house.

God was here; minimal damages, no one hurt and we had peace. PEACE!

Immediately it was evident that God was here, and he remained. There was no panic, no tears; just an overwhelming sense of numb peace. I call this the Grace Bubble. He just slips us into the bubble and we are able to allow him to do the work.

I need a grace bubble! I’m not one to immediately allow God to control things. This is where focus comes in.

I am naturally a worrier and I want answers and solutions instantly! I want them so immediate that I will turn to man for answers and we all know that that particular act will limit God’s Hand at the least, if not stay His Hand completely.

Well I’ve been diligent about FOCUS this year, September has not been the only hard month. There are many areas in my life and the life of my family, which are in absolute transition this year. So I will use these 31 Days to focus on God and the things of God.

When I saw the invitation for this series I struggled with actually participating.

I’ve been feeling like I don’t belong in the Bloggosphere because I was not an amazing young mother and what I brought to the table was not good enough because I am older with a grown family. So while others are struggling with small children and the concept of being REAL writers; I am struggling with the life of an older woman (who wasn’t the wonder-mom that these amazing women are) and a grown family while battling seeing myself as a REAL writer.

So I just jumped in … and as you can see this post isn’t all that FOCUSED! How funny is that. So for some inspiration for this project I will be focusing on my daily life and musings through Psalm 91 and Philippians 4:8.

“Finally, sisters, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.” Philippians 4:8

Blessings. 🙂

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


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That which concerns me…#Trust 30


Speak Less by Laura Kimball

What I must do is all that concerns me, not what the people think. This
rule, equally arduous in actual and in intellectual life, may serve for the
whole distinction between greatness and meanness. It is the harder, because you
will always find those who think they know what is your duty better than you
know I.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

I once received a fortune cookie that read: “Speak less of your plans, you’ll
get more done.” What’s one project that you’ve been sitting on and thinking
about but haven’t made progress on? What’s stopping you? What would happen if
you actually went for it and did it?

(Author: Laura Kimball)

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 Hey Loves…Its Thursday again…and here we are sharing in the Shortest post as possible…no rules, just our hearts and words that move one another. You know the route, click-through the pictures to find out what each prompt is about and join us! We would love to share this space with you!

Let My Words Be Few..

I, once again, have a different view of this profound quote by RW Emerson. Do the authors creating these prompts not see God in Emerson’s words. Do they not see his faith, as peculiarly as he states such? Do they not see both the light of spirituality as much or more than the light of profound intelligence?

Ah, but I digress…my interpretation…

What I must do is all that concerns me, not what the people think. “

Each one of us has a calling on our lives. A dreamy thing we do, well, excellently, something we love to do and would do as much and as often as we could. Yet, we often hear, first from parents, then from those in the world who don’t understand or frankly would rather we not succeed; that we cannot do that thing, for several reasons that these nay sayers promptly list for us to prove their point.

It’s frivolous, you’ll never be able to support yourself, and much worse, you’re not smart enough, or you’re not good enough … and to think these are people who love us, people who think they are helping us. Uh, who needs a nemesis when we have friends and families, right?

What I must do, implies that we do not have a choice, that we are compelled by this particular task. It appears more a desire than just a tedious task… What I must do …

I could say: What I must do is what concerns me … we are shown in the bible that only God and ourselves know what our calling is. The fact that there are those who would tell me what I am to do with my life does directly conflicts with scripture … and I live my life by the scriptures of the God who created me.

“Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters,” Colossians 3:23

Upon reading Emerson’s quote here, this scripture was my first thought.

“This rule, equally arduous in actual and in intellectual life, may serve for the
whole distinction between greatness and meanness.”

“…equally arduous in actual and in intellectual life.”

Doing your work for the Lord is an act of faith and passion.

I believe I have been called to write. Yet, it is hard to reconcile in my mind. I hear those who profess to know my duty better than I. And I hear me … agreeing with their worldly assessment of my calling, my desire, my compulsion to please this inner voice that tells me, now, louder than the worldly voices, that yes I can.

That I must … do my work unto the Lord and to TRUST Him wholly …and He will cause my thoughts to become agreeable to His will causing my plans to be established and to succeed. Proverbs 16:3

I have been lead to write a book on Psalm 91 … I suffer from the magnitude of this assignment and the voices that tell me I am not a good enough writer. Worse, I agonize in a fear of success; the fear that success would mean uncomfortable changes, complications in my life. I am by nature a creature of comfort and complacency; character defects.

Fear stops me …

What would happen if I took a step of faith and did this thing?

I would please my Father God. I would fulfill my calling, or at least the beginning of it, anyway. I would be fulfilling a lifelong dream.

I would succeed, as I know I would, if I would only do my task with the faith that God has given me. His faith … and the things born from God’s faith do not fail.

If I did this thing … I would be helping others to find TRUTH and TRUST in the promises of God. In this I would find the blessings of God in my life.

Faith is the direct opposite of fear … When I write this book I will have conquered fear.

Here’s to knowing that the things that Concern me are perfected by God! Psalm 138:7-8a

Blessings Loves ♥


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Be Quiet…Hearing the Lord (FWTh)


Let My Words Be Few Thursday…

Happy Thursday!  Here are my Few (hahahaha) Words…

 
Hearing God takes training…
          In our FAST and FURIOUS lifestyles we rarely take the time to slow down and just QUIET our minds, STILL our bodies…REST IN THE LORD.
 
…then we wonder why we are so stressed, why things don’t work.
 
Do you know God’s voice?
Have you listened for Him..have you WAITED on HIM?
 
Be still and know that I am God…Psalm 46:10
Lean not on your own understanding…Proverbs 3:5-6
 
The consequences of thinking are…worry, reasoning, and anxiety. We know that these can be things that are good or bad…but the world views them as “normal” everyday thing…
 
Not so if we take God at His word according to the scriptures above…
 
In the original Hebrew the word Worry is translated from the word Thought.
Worry means a divided mind, an interest in, a matter of consideration…a concern.
 
To decipher God’s Word properly we also need to know that the words soul and heart often refer to the mind.
 
Leb – Heart in the original Hebrew refers to a concept of the mind.
Psyche – Soul in the original Greek – also refers to the mind.
 
Concern becomes worry…and when we worry we cannot hear…deep worry drowns even our everyday thoughts, not to mention any chance for us to Hear God!
 
To learn to be STILL…to be QUIET…we must filter our thoughts through the Word of God…
To learn to HEAR GOD and properly DISCERN HIS VOICE we need to filter our thoughts through the PROMISES OF GOD.
 
FYI: there are 750 promises from God in the New Testament! …follow the link above!
FYI: the fullness of all of these promises can be found in the gift of Psalm 91; in their entirety.
God speaks to us through THOUGHTS. Our THOUGHTS… this is an issue because there are many voices throughout our lives…
TV…RADIO…INTERNET…PEOPLE…
                                                                          OURSELVES!
 
We must be able to discern God’s voice from all others…
God speaks to us at ALL TIMES.
Always…
GOD, the HOLY SPIRIT speaks to us from within us; where He resides.
He is our INTERCESSOR.
 
INTERCESSION IS A RESCUE MISSION…Romans 8:26
 
We must put OURSELVES ASIDE  to be able to hear God.
 
We must be QUIET…We must be STILL
WE MUST BE WILLING TO LEAN ON GOD’S THOUGHTS…not our own understanding of a thing…
this is where we often miss it and misinterpret whose voice we are hearing…
Often we ask for an answer and decide immediately on the easiest and quickest likely solution. Often this is us and our own reasonings and desires in a circumstance.
On the humorous, or ironic, if you will, side of the coin, God’s answers and solutions are rarely what we would reason or desire. So if it feels good and comes too quickly…consider WAITING ON GOD…
 

Habakkuk 2 in the Amplified bible – says it well..

 [OH, I know, I have been rash to talk out plainly this way to God!] I will [in my thinking] stand upon my post of observation and station myself on the tower or fortress, and will watch to see what He will say within me and what answer I will make [as His mouthpiece] to the perplexities of my complaint against Him. And the Lord answered me and said, Write the vision and engrave it so plainly upon tablets that everyone who passes may [be able to] read [it easily and quickly] as he hastens by.Habakkuk, seeing where he has missed it, changes how he listens for God…

This change is not an easy task for us…but with a quiet time of praise; maybe in the early morning, when it is easy to be Quiet, more natural a time to be Still…we can make time to listen for God…

…and in time we will be like those found in…

John 10:27-28 (Amp)

The sheep that are My own hear and are listening to My voice; and I know them, and they follow Me. And I give them eternal life, and they shall never lose it or perish throughout the ages. [To all eternity they shall never by any means be destroyed.] And no one is able to snatch them out of My hand.

 

Please enjoy this video…a song that helps to quiet the mind in praise…

 Blessings Loves ♥

I pray you hear God’s Voice in your Quiet time today!

I’d like to thank, with all of my heart, our Elder/Pastor John Augustine for the inspiration for this post; from his sermon last night April 27, 2011. Love You Elder John.  ♥

 

Please go over to Holly’s Blog and check out her amazing contribution to this weeks Few Words Thursday! And Withoutado…hehe 


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OF BECOMING…a year of death and Psalm 91 in 365


2002, September 9th…I was water baptised.

Better than that so was my oldest son.

Even better, my husband, who had no intentions of being baptised that day, walked into the baptismal pool {a church family’s pool}; fully clothed, jeans and all, and put to death his flesh and rose again, cleansed by the baptismal waters, in Christ!

We, as a family, chose a life in Christ…

We were no-longer the walking dead, but were ALIVE again, in Christ! Our lives began to change that day…all three of us. Our hearts hoping that the 4th one of us would follow, soon (our youngest son); sadly we still wait for him…

2010-11 ….

A YEAR of DEATH…{well just about}

Since that chilly September afternoon in the pool small peelings away of the flesh have occurred in all of us,

It seems a lifetime…all in God‘s timing!

I read  Figuring Out the Cross-Centered Life, at a holy experience.com, and But Will He Conquer My “Death”?, at Proverbs 31 Ministries, this morning, and got these revelations…

“My identity is not about figuring out who I am – but ACCEPTING Whose I am…”

….there has been a multitude of death in this last year.

“I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.” Galatians 2:20

I am a woman of firm faith, I claimand this body…this heart…is new and whole by faith!

“The Christian is the walking dead – ALIVE ONLY in Christ.”

….with each loss I have hidden and survived, only, in the shadow of the Almighty~Psalm 91. I would have perished in these deaths otherwise.

“…The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God,” Galatian 2:20b

Christianity is a lifetime of becoming who I really am.”

….a LONG year of transitions, losses, deaths, changes…OF BECOMING…

My sweet Uncle passed {my perfect father figure}…

My heart died {and God revived it, ME, on His terms}…

My church closed…My Pastors ~ Spiritual Parents moved away…Church family left, went as they were called, as the our church transitioned with a new pastor and a new name…

friendships changed…

family relationships changed…children matured…

children back stepped and regained momentum again…

Life did what life does; and all the while I died a little at a time, while new and sometimes uncomfortable growth began…BECOMING…

                                     …the peeling of the onion, the becoming of the Andrea God created.

“I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.” Galatians 2:20c

This is how it is for me…I wake each day and read devotionals and God leads me to a revelation…an understanding of what is BECOMING of me.

How does one BECOME after a death of self…after the death of who one thought they were…after the loss of those loved and needed…after the death of the innocence of a child…their inner child~so long ago ~ and then watching that same loss in their own child?

What becomes of a soul after death?

…dirt and worms…devoured and recycled into new lifefeeding the Spring…

LIFE…

NEW LIVE

HOPE RESURRECTED…

“Praise to God for a Living Hope

 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead,” 1 Peter 1:3

It truly has been a year of death…and a year of growth. It will be a year in the beginning of June 2011.

I mark it such, because that is when I began to realize the physical part of this death of the old me. Somehow I was accepting and understood the mental and emotional death of Andrea; the rendering {to cause to be or become} God and I and JR worked diligently on that…still do. Yet it was the physical death that startled me.

It was not until after my taking Jesus as my LORD and SAVIOR, into my heart, into my life, that I lost two of the only three men I have EVER trusted. Two men I loved without reservation, without fear of harm…{yet these deaths happened many years after I walked to that altar}, their passing marks a revelation, that I could trust in God, only, Alone. Not that I could not trust these men…my grandfather, my uncle, but that they were not God the Father, just the human representation of a God who loved me…and in their human existence they were bound, by this life itself, to leave me.

It was not until now that God could take my hardened and broken heart and replace it with a heart after HIM ALONE…{Ezekiel 36:26}

Oh how stubborn we, I, can be…that it takes us so very long to understand what God has ALWAYS had for us…so hardened that He had to give up HIS only Son to reconcile this rebellious soul back to HIS LOVE…

I have been crucified WITH (?)  Christ and  I (?) no longer live…until now those question marks haunted my heart. I would wonder…how dare I believe I suffered like Jesus, not even able to fathom the truths of what was done for me on Calvary…not even close to truly believing that it really had an effect on my life. And the I no longer live…well, quite frankly, that caused an echo of un-belief in my soul…the reality that I was actually, really, moving on the path, finally, that God had mapped out for my life just was not a reality!

UNTIL THIS PAST YEAR…

For the first time in this life I can see the changes in me. I can appreciate Whose I am…and Who I am, in Christ, even not yet knowing Who I will be tomorrow…

 In just a few days I will sit with my family, minus one {and I pray…there is time and he might sit with us, still…the missing him and the hope bring my heart to tears…}, and look to the Cross, celebrating Good Friday with loved ones. Then on the …

Third Day…

The LORD your God is with you,
   the Mighty Warrior who saves.
He will take great delight in you;
   in his love he will no longer rebuke you,
   but will rejoice over you with singing.” …..He certainly does in this video {you should hear my son sing this! O’ my mother’s heart when he does…}

…we will celebrate His resurrection and the truth of the sacrifice that Jesus made so that I could spend this last year DYING… BECOMING His, all the more.

Blessings Loves ♥

 

 

 


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Few Words Thursday ♥ Wisdom from the Spirit


HOPEannFAITH is attempting to get the most across with the least words, on Thursdays.

To join me, just leave a link to your personal post, or leave your Few Words in the comments. Join me for this adventure toward profound posting!

I encourage you to read 1 Corinthians 2, in its entirety.

Essentially it speaks to the wisdom we receive when we are Mature in our Christianity. However, this seemingly short, easy read of a Scripture holds so much more than the simple idea the world has of wisdom!

This speaks to the intimate relationship one has with God when they’ve reached the maturity in Christ where one just knows, beyond any and all circumstances, that God LOVES us and no matter what.

 He’s got this!

VS. 4-5 says: “My message and my preaching were not with wise and persuasive words, but with a demonstration of the Spirit‘s [of God] power, so that YOUR faith might not rest on men’s wisdom, but on God’s power.

He’s got this…all of it…

VS. 7  profoundly states: No we speak of God’s secret wisdom, a wisdom that has been hidden and that God destined for our glory before time began…”No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love Him – but God has revealed it to us by His Spirit.

Glory is defined here as the fullest enjoyment, admiration and honor of God; the object of God’s highest praise; ceaseless delight.

This states that God feels a fullest enjoyment and admiration of us…that God honors us…that He delights in us ceaselessly!

The last four verses of Psalm 91 states the same…that God honors us!

When we’ve reached that level of maturity in Christ so much occurs…we begin to understand the depth of Love God has for us.

We know God…enter an intimacy with Him where He reveals wisdom that He has hidden just for us…understanding, knowledge, Wisdom…the tools to know Him, Truth and His Love!

Blessings Loves

Please Welcome Holly to our “Let My Words Be Few Thursdays”!

I am Honored to have her join me…Please go and read her first “Few Words Thursday” Post and give some love in her comments!

Here’s Holly; Freedom @ withoutado:  http://withoutado.wordpress.com/2011/03/31/freedom/

Blessings Loves