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Focus: I’m Praying On It … 25 of 31 Days


My job is to be obedient to God, to apply His Word, and to walk according to His ways—not according to the world’s suggestions. ~Lysa TerKeurst

Honestly I had a problem with this … on the last legs of co-dependency my “taught” nature is to people please. From my parents to my children my job WAS to keep the peace.

Today … not so much!

Praying on it …

My goal is to focus on God, totally. We all quibble about those people [Christians] who say that they are going to “pray on it” … they seem to go to God for everything … big, little, good, bad and indifferent. The consensus, for those of us who judge this to be avoidance, is that they just don’t want to be apart of the group that does the work of the kingdom. In all of our highfalutin-ness we believe they just want to sit in the pews [chairs] and soak in God then go home to their lives.

Well it’s just as much their job to be obedient to God and walk in His ways for their lives as it is ours!

I’m there … Prayin’ on It! Don’t get me wrong … I have a full schedule of responsibilities, much of which is Kingdom related, then when a season, like the one I am at the end of, gets stressed … it is then that one either grows or withers.

Like our sweet pastor said on Wednesday … We were given faith … we aren’t supposed to wither. Yet we feel as though we are withering away with the stresses of this life … we were built of sturdier stuff!

We were built to weather the storms of this life … We were given salvation and faith so that we could stand, unhindered by what would come against us in this existence.

As for everyone who comes to me and hears my words and puts them into practice, I will show you what they are like. They are like a man building a house, who dug down deep and laid the foundation on rock. When a flood came, the torrent struck that house but could not shake it, because it was well built. – Luke 6:47-48

However, we cannot remain that foundational rock when we are focused on what the world [others] suggest. Even the most loving Christians make the mistake of assuming they know best for someone else.

I’m referring to myself here.

The storms of this season I’m in have ravaged me. I feel tired and spent, but God … OH YES … but God! Even feeling the emotional and physical fatigue that I do I remain calm and I understand what is going on. There is no confusion … no chaos, just the comfort of knowing I don’t have control here, and God is bigger than my circumstance. A comfort really … almost no responsibility … yet the world [others] would/have judged me differently.

I’m focused upon God … obedient to Him alone, if I cannot back up, in the Word, what I’m being guided to do by others I’m not doing it … if I can back it up I’m praying on it to be certain that God is directing me. No more biting off more then I can chew because I feel obligated or because I’m afraid to say no … or even because I feel I need to please someone so they will love me still.

No, in obedience to God, I’m prayin’ on it!

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

– Matthew 6:33-34

My days have joys and troubles of their own, and no one knows them … So I’ll pray on it. 🙂

My faith doesn’t rest on the Wisdom of men but on the Power of God.

~ 1 Corinthians 2:5

Blessings.

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And I found it through Lisa-Jo Baker ~ tales from a Gypsy Mama
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Focus: Praying Continually … Day 23


Day 23 was a busy day!

My God

Worked this morning, and had a Cardiologist appointment in the afternoon.

There was much to pray for today … my boy who is persevering in his struggle with his affliction … my appointment where I expected a good report, and I wasn’t disappointed! And God used the fasting for blood work to intensify that expectation.

Prayer moves God’s hand … and I was able to see that today. Fasting clarifies things and God’s answers … and my prayers answered, my countenance calm. It was a good day for this prayer.

Blessings =)

Welcome to 31 days – the beautiful brainchild of the Nester who inspires us to spend the month of October writing every single day on a topic that might inspire a community.
And I found it through Lisa-Jo Baker ~ tales from a Gypsy Mama
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Perseverance in Prayer … 22 of 31 Days of Focus


“Focusing on the self is the opposite of focusing on God. Anyone completely absorbed in self ignores God, ends up thinking more about self than God. That person ignores who God is and what he is doing. And God isn’t pleased at being ignored.” Romans 8:7-8 MSG

But focusing on others in prayer is touching the heart of God!

A large part of this 31 day focus for me is praying for others … when we do this God is freed to repair what is broken and tattered within the prayer!

This focus thing is really taking off. And tonight I am trusting that …

God’s Mercies

I have a son who suffers an affliction that is trying it’s hardest to kill him. And any mother knows that to watch your child suffer is one of the worst tortures known to man.

He sat by me, like he never does, and I saw him small again, and I asked if he needed Mom and a single tear dropped as he shook his head while I told him I loved him no matter what … and THE hardest thing I’ve dealt with in a long time (including family issues, tornadoes and uprooted trees and health issues) is having my son be in enough pain to ask me for money to feed his affliction.

And as I said, quietly, NEVER! I entered into prayer for my son like no other time. It was calm, it was peaceful and it was continual.

As he left, in search of whatever he needed, with that threat that these afflicted souls always leave those who refuse the demon, I prayed hard still. Within minutes he was back, unsuccessful or may my heart be still, having reconsidered, without what he was in search of and he laid down and slept, fitfully slept, my tow headed, blue eyed boy!

So I go to bed praying, as throughout this night I will wake to the battle his body and mind is enduring and my reasonable duty to God and my son is to persevere in prayer as my boy perseveres in his fight, and hopefully his prayer.

I know from experience that even the unbeliever prays to God in such times. I hope … I pray he calls out to God now. Amen.

Blessings.

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Focus … 20 & 21 of 31 Days


Sometimes I don’t do much writing on the weekend.

Saturday is about time with my husband and the boys {if they’re around}. We treat errands like a date … enjoy dinner and a movie, usually on-demand, and just enjoy a simplistic, layed back day.
The TV rarely even gets turned on until the movie in the evening. It’s just quiet and reflective and comfortable.
On Saturday, in the quiet, I pray a lot. And lately those prayers have fixed a great many things … my words, my thoughts and meditations, and my attitude overall.

At the End of the Day …

Sunday is about God … God’s Word and Family … church and proper.

“but the seventh day is a sabbath to the Lord your God. On it you shall not do any work, neither you, nor your son or daughter, nor your male or female servant, nor your animals, nor any foreigner residing in your towns.” – Exodus 20:10

So … often, I do not write on the weekends … because those two days are about honoring  #1 and #2 on my list of importance …

God and Family!

Blessings.

Welcome to 31 days – the beautiful brainchild of the Nester who inspires us to spend the month of October writing every single day on a topic that might inspire a community.
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A 5minute Look Within … 19 of 31 Days of Focus on God Things


Now, set your timer, clear your head, for five minutes to just write without worrying if it’s just right or not.

1. Write for 5 minutes flat – no editing, no over thinking, no backtracking.
2. Link back here and invite others to join in.
3. And then absolutely, no ifs, ands or buts about it, you need to visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments. Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this community..

Oh and Ahem, if you would take pity and turn off comment verification, it would make leaving some love on your post that much easier for folks!

OK, are you ready? Won’t you please give me your best five minutes on:::

Look… {19 of 31 Days of Focus on God Things} … an introduction:
My post is already written and it really did take little more than five minutes earlier today during my Fix Andrea Day … which occurs most every Friday! My friend/sponsor and other like minded women get together and work on improving ourselves from the inside.

We’ve begun our own workshop from the book The Right to Write by Julia Cameron … having already finished Love is a Choice. {so glad that one is done}

This one focuses on the Writer/Artist within … the writer at each one of our cores {Spirits}.
My 5 Minute and 31 Days post came from the first assignment in the book … a free writing exercise about a look at where we are right now and how we feel …

I wrote it with the 5 minute rule in mind! And because God is an awesome God it fell right into my 31 Day Focus. 😀
So Lets Look! Go!

I feel good today. I’ve felt good since I prayed on Sunday that God life the angst, oppressive ache in my heart concerning people, places and He did! He lifted it instantly, because it wasn’t of Him, it was contrary to Him.
All the while thinking I was focused on Him and trusting Him!
Oh! the codependent mind, how it deceives a soul, clouding the glorious reality of the spiritual being.

I think I feel joy – mild as it is. But i think, maybe, joy – real consistent joy is like a smooth fullness, lingering tangibly in the spirit of a person. making the view of the outside a serene picture show no matter the script.

Feeling like this I can handle a wind uprooted tree lying against my home – my safe place, seeing it as a blessing. Knowing that my spirit is filled by God I can look on this tragedy of the eye as the beginning of a solution. A better sollution than the physical eye can see.

Tree lying on my house!

My broken house.

My broken house. 🙂

This state of being, alone, is joy. That tree fixed things even as it broke the physical house!

It’s about perspective. It’s about attitude.

Attitude is much like putting on glasses – when I wear my glasses I see things clearly and more crisply. I can decipher the images one from another. But if I wear your glasses the perspective is blurred, clarity is replaced by the indiscernible. And if I wear none I may not see at all. Confusion and fog blocking the path on which I travel.

I asked God for clarity and He handed me His glasses! 20/20 vision in high def!

Love – just be grateful and love. Love the sun, love the rain, be grateful for what they provide. See the autumn colors in the scent of the breeze as the chill caresses your skin.

Be thankful in prayer for all things. This is a prayerful and thankful attitude that smooths the wrinkles of a day.

It is by my thankful request that God gave me the grace to see what He wants and thinks of me, through His eyes. It was by His grace that I had the tenacity to fight through the muddled fog of my own thoughts and efforts for resolution, that I came to this doorway of joy. And it is my responsiblity to walk this path to retain that comfortable, almost too full sensation of joy.
Might this be serenity? Might I have come to accept those things I cannot change and the courage to change Me?
By His grace have I surrendered who I am to who He made me to be?

All I know is I feel good today, things feel right and whole. STOP!

Welcome to 31 days – the beautiful brainchild of the Nester who inspires us to spend the month of October writing every single day on a topic that might inspire a community.
And I found it through Lisa-Jo Baker ~ tales from a Gypsy Mama
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“from the fullness of His grace we have all received one blessing after another.” – John 1:16


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May these words be pleasing … 18 of 31 Days of God Focus on a Few Words Thursday


} Day 18

I know I’ve been harping about thankfulness and gratitude and my Sunday release from my internal hell, and I apologize to those of you who are looking for more …

But …

That is what God has me focused on!

As I write these Few Words … trying for linear thought and composition. The fewest words to the most powerful point.

That’s what Few Words Thursday is about … and so not my style of writing! =D

So today I focus on Words … and what God says about our words. We are responsible for what comes out of our mouths, as well as what does not come out of our mouths.

Our commission is to go and TELL the nations!

Our mission is to tell, show, SHINE Jesus to a world who may not hear God or our words. Now I find it amazing that my mission field is the internet … for now, God could change that anytime … but I spread His Word and His love here and with my photography {which I write on!}. So my prayer focus this week will be …

My Words and the Meditation of My Heart

“May these words of my mouth and this meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer.”

~Psalm 19:14

Blessings!


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IN-Filled … 17 of 31 Days of God Focus


Thankful

{Day 17}

“The Lord will accomplish what concerns me” Psalm 138:8

Literally one of my favorite scripture verses. And it fits with the post for this day! God is faithful and while this post is for yesterday God made certain that I would find His intended words to explain how my focus on Him broke through days and weeks of mire and freed me to be once more INFILLED by His Spirit.

Church was amazing … after literally weeks of trudging through the mire of my heart just to milk a little from His Word to soothe my ravaged heart I was once again Filled … the indwelling of the Spirit of God was made tangible once again.

I posted this as my status after church

Refreshed at church tonight … God and I have been working on an attitude issue lately (mine of course) and Sunday I asked Him to lift a heart issue if it wasn’t a flag from Him … He lifted it instantly! Tonight church was amazing … I learned and revelation was expounded upon! So grateful that God gave me a tenacious personality, so grateful He taught me perseverance … so grateful for a teaching Pastor!

It’s amazing to look back, quickly, and see how God has worked on your behalf yesterday … It’s amazing how faithful and wonderful He is to His more stubborn children. It seems to me that He is kinder to us raucous kids, He uses a softer touch. Knowing the why of our choices, it seems He talks louder and comforts more tender those of us who get lost in old “safety” behaviors.

We, His broken kids.

I really decided I was not safe … and so I retreated into the numb and unfeeling. You see, then I couldn’t get hurt. But … that is not focusing on God! It is not trusting God!

I’ve found that when I isolate … when I refuse to feel … I separate myself from God, I create a chasm.

So what does God do? He reaches deep within me and whispers PRAY! And I did (am) and I prayed when I didn’t feel anything. I prayed through it …and

See … God assumes responsibility for accomplishing what concerns you in times of trouble. Your job is to believe that He will fulfill His purpose, His power is adequate, and He’ll keep every promise. When the trial has achieved His goal, He’ll remove it. Until then, keep walking with your eyes on Him.

I’ve heard it said that God has done all He is going to do … well … I am here to say that God works on my behalf daily … reminding, encouraging and loving me … even when I am my worst me He does for me what I will not or cannot do for myself.

He PERFECTS what concerns me … and He does the same for YOU!

Blessings!

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