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Growing in the Moments of a Life …


Here I am again … two in a row! Joining my dear friend Karen over at Finding The Grace Within for her GROWING blog link up ~ Tuesday at Ten.

A Word Prompt is given and we have 1 full week to use the prompt word to our liking! You can use the word in any way, past tense, or as an action, use the word to which it fits you best. Whether it be just writing a story behind the prompt word, or being as creative as you wish using photos, poems, art, or graphics – whichever creative way you choose. We have 1 week to write and link up our blog at the bottom of this page so that others can link up with you. Be sure to visit your “link up” neighbor and spread the joy of connection! We can even stay connected by visiting the Tuesday at Ten Facebook page for weekly updates and more! Remember  – it’s not about being perfect, it’s about being YOU.

Our soul remains open and limber; available for GROWTH, development and discovery.

… 0ur soul remains open and limber; available for GROWTH, development and discovery. ~ Shane Hipps

I’ve mulled over this prompt since Tuesday [It’s Saturday!] and I thought it might be about marriage for me … but it’s wasn’t, or was it? IDK.

Life is so much more intimate these days. Deeper within me; sorting out the important and the unimportant.

In a life we often grow so complacent choosing the wrong things as important; leaving open a chance for regret and closing off the Spirit within us that allows us to bloom where we are and grow and develop and discover LIFE itself, in it’s intended form … raw and achingly beautiful, even in the pain.

As always, for me, this thing … this writing and baring clean my soul [you know the soul is your mind right? that it is the Spirit within us that is eternal, not the soul; right?], a purging, if you will, a pruning of thoughts taken captive so that the Spirit of me, my truest self, can dig deep my roots and grow forth in the MOMENT of this life.

Right Here … RIGHT NOW.

This thing … It’s about Me and God. It’s always about God.

Ephesians 4:9-16

But to each one of us grace has been given as Christ apportioned it. This is why it says:

“When he ascended on high,
    he took many captives
    and gave gifts to his people.

What does “he ascended” mean except that he also descended to the lower, earthly regions?  He who descended is the very one who ascended higher than all the heavens, in order to fill the whole universe. So Christ himself gave the apostles, the prophets, the evangelists, the pastors and teachers,  to equip (to grow) his people for works of service, so that the body of Christ may be built up  until we all reach unity in the faith and in the knowledge of the Son of God and become mature (grow), attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ.

Then we will no longer be infants, tossed back and forth by the waves, and blown here and there by every wind of teaching and by the cunning and craftiness of people in their deceitful scheming.  Instead, speaking the truth in love, we will grow to become in every respect the mature body of him who is the head, that is, Christ.  From him the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work.

We will grow to become in every respect the mature body of Him who is the head …

So how do I grow in the moments of this life? When, in fact, this life seems to be in a dry and barren place.

A place and time that would beg me to begin the mourning of my most loved one. How does one grow when they want to freeze time to squeeze more out of each second they are graced with?

FAITH … we grow by faith. We do all things by and through faith.

Like I said in the beginning of this post … I’ve grown to a place where the importance of a thing, an act, a situation is very transparently evident. I no longer [have the time to] worry at those things that are temporal or petty.

I no longer have the time because I have grown, in this MOST IMPORTANT situation, my life, to know that TIME is short and is for the cherishing.

But do not forget this one thing, dear friends: With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day. ~ 2 Peter 3:8

I’ve grown to understand that because I am SAVED, because I was chosen by our Father Creator, that I do not live in time as those of the world do. I live in God’s time. And that my dear and friendly reader is a literal BLINK of the eye.

So precious. So intimate. So minute. So fragile.

I’ve grown so very much in the last 18 months that I honestly don’t recognize myself sometimes.

I forgive more. I love more. I serve more. I listen more and better. I mull out my thoughts before I speak, wanting only to impart truth and love and genuine emotion what I offer to my … listener, reader, confidante. There is more but I can’t find it right now …

This is the maturity I’ve grown into in just a very short time … That Blink of the eye …

How does one truly grow in the moments … the hard moments?

By faith my sweet friends, always by faith with God by our side. Because when you begin to feel the growth being stunted in a spiritual way, even the most staunch atheist will reach out to the God they so publicly deny. It’s innate within us to call on Him, we are ultimately and infinitely apart of Him … we are all, each one, built to search for our source; and there’s no denying that God, the creator of all that is, was and will be, is that source.

A blogger photographer I follow wrote this:

~ I believe every moment is worth living ~ and remembering ~ even the hard ones. If you look for joy, you’ll find it in the most unexpected places. ~ Kelly Sauer

I’ve grown to ascribe to this sentiment. To the depth of the truth of her quote.

Every moment is worth living – and remembering – even the hard ones.

So I’m off now to live and grow in the precious fragility of this life of mine. To cherish each ache and pain that comes with the stretching of my spirit, my very core, and to gather these memories to my mind and heart so that each word and gesture is extended with gentle wisdom. Conveying only the most intimate heart truths to the ones I love so very much.

Thanks for reading, once again. Your friendship is a blessing and a necessity to me today … and always.
Thank you. Thank you, sweet reading friends of mine.

God bless.

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In the face of fear …


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I’ve been away from my virtual journal here for the last several weeks; and I’ve been feeling it! I’ve searched for words and phrases to inspire the words to flow, but they would not come. Writer’s block? Nah.

FEAR … I’ve been literally battling fear; so when I saw Karen’s prompt on Tuesday I shrunk back in trepidation (nice 50¢ word for fear); alerting me to the fact that I was, once again, indulging in fear. And as you can see it took me three days to be able to get this moving ….

So here we are again … my Tuesday @ Ten post on Friday at 9:30. But … thank God that those words, so backed up in my heart, are now flowing; at least for today!

So … the thing about fear … it’s a liar. The biggest liar that you will ever encounter! The creativity of a fearful mind rivals the greatest story tellers of all time, in my humble opinion.

When in a full blown state of fear, the kind that comes with the unknowns of this life, the mind can conjure the ugliest, most desolate and crushing scenarios of ones imagination. And that’s the thing … it’s the imagination!

Don’t get me wrong, there are true tangibles in life that warrant a certain self preservation form of fear, but that is not what I am referring to here. I’m not talking about the fear that stems from wisdom; that fear is called caution. I’m not talking about the natural fear we have in reference to something that is dangerous; that fear is reverence ie: I fear the lion over there.

NO … I’m talking about the fear that stems from circumstances beyond our control; fear of the things of life and death …

Fear of the things and outcomes only God controls.

Can I play my broken record here? Just for the edification of those who might not read this blog regular.

What are Hopeannfaith’s fears?

Cancer. Addiction. Loneliness in Alone-ness. Deafening silence. Loss. There are so many, we all have a list!

This post is now being written through a lens of tears! I told you … I realized with the e-mail that announced this week’s prompt that I was in a state of fear, again!

Fear is a thief! It steals my hope, my faith and my peace. It robs me of God’s presence in my day to day.

It’s the constant whisper of dread to my heart’s ear and it convinces me to give up, slowly, without knowledge … I just give in and indulge like a glutton hosting her own pity party. Curling up into the outward silence of my own isolation; unknowingly, once again, seemingly protecting myself from harm, while dying slowly in the arms of the thief.

But God …

Yesterday Lysa Terkeurst posted this gem to her Facebook wall:

Soak in these words tonight before you go to bed:

– God is the solution for every single one of my troubles.
– God is within me and perfectly equips me to know what to do.
– God is with me therefore there is nothing I’ll face alone.
– Evidence of His constant work is all around me if only I will choose to see it.

And I did … I wrote it down and I brought it to bed and I chanted it a few times before I went to sleep.

A prayer.

One that was answered this morning … New Mercies!

To me, walking in fear is a sin … it quiets Holy Spirit in me; oh, I know He’s there and I am comforted in an odd way, while continuing not to trust … I can hear the dim, muted whisper but not make out His Words as He calls me back to Him. So then He yells … using Lysa, my friends, music, whatever He has to to pull me, one of His most stubborn girls, back from the pit. And I thank Him for His Awesome Faithfulness to me.

There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear … ~ 1 John 4:18

Fear is the opposite of faith … and when I am out of my faith walk I begin to wither and die; we all do, I believe. So I’d like right now to give you some of God’s Word to ward off the fears that you may encounter today. For me it’s called renewal of mind and spirit … putting God’s Words in place of my own thoughts. Maybe you know it as taking each thought captive. It is that and so much more …

God’s Word is Salvation! It rescues us from the pit of hell, which is a very real place and destination.

How do I conquer the fear? God, The Word, Worship …

Take Courage … take it today and indulge there, in God’s Word and promises.

For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you. (Isaiah 41:13)

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. (Deuteronomy 31:6)

For God gave us not a spirit of fearfulness; but of power and love and discipline. (2 Timothy 1:7)

The Lord is my light and my salvation–whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life–of whom shall I be afraid? (Psalm 27:1)

So we say with confidence, “The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can Man do to me?” (Hebrews 13:6)

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. (John 14:27)

He left us peace. God’s peace vanquishes all fear!

Are you fearful today? If you are, I encourage you seek out God’s Word on the subject. Not the subject of your fear, rather the subject of fear itself … you see the subject or circumstance of the fear is not the point, the spirit of fear is the point. It is the spirit of fear that paralyses us, controls us and causes us to separate ourselves from God our salvation!

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As I pray fear away, I am praying that all fear be vanquished today. For you, for me, for all.

God bless and thanks, as always, for reading my dear faithful reading friends.

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My Journey


Hi. Welcome to Hope*ann*Faith blog where I share my day to day journey.

TuesdayToday I am participating in Tuesday at Ten over on Karen Beth’s blog. {Follow the link in her logo to the left.}

T@T is a word prompt for Creatives, each week where the writers, photographers, artists share their interpretation on a single word prompt. Karen can correct me if I’m wrong here … The prompt she gives us each week is to stir in us a heart post based on our lives and experiences. Karen and Finding the Grace Within blog are all about healing and getting connected. So join us, using any creative style you like and share your heart.

This Tuesday prompt is:    Journey.

So about My Journey. The journey to continuous Hope and Faith.

My Journey is probably my most used Category and Tag on this blog, because blogs are simply a virtual diary of one’s life, and life is certainly a journey.

So much is involved in one’s journey through this life. Mine is no different from yours. However the circumstances of our journeys are unique, giving us the illusion that my journey might be more intense than yours.

I. Think. Not.

There is a misconception among Christians that God will not give us more than we can handle on this journey. This is not true. I believe God does give us much more than we can handle without Him so that we choose Him.

The following scripture is often misunderstood/

“No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.” 1 Corinthians 10:13

Nowhere in this scripture does it say God does not give us more we can handle. Like I said, I believe God gives us more than we can handle each day so that we will Call upon Him!

My journey has certainly come to a place where my pride {though it often rises to say, “you got this Andrea”} bows to God and I call upon Him daily; many times a day.

My walk, my journey is with God. When I remember to walk with Him, that is.

So if you’re new to my humble little blog here you may have an idea of what my journey is today. Me and mine are being tested in many areas of life these days, hard and simultaneously. We deal with normal things in life like:

Family – Bills – Jobs – Lack of Jobs

But we also deal with some extra things like:

Cancer

Heart Issues

Heroin Addiction

Extended Family Issues that deal with: Age, Mental Illness and other addictions.

Sounds rough, yes?

It is. No doubt, but we rely on God and He has been faithful.

Recently I was reading Psalm 23 … an oft used Scripture for those who are on harder journeys. And I saw something in verse 4 that I hadn’t truly understood before …

A Psalm of David.

23 The Lord is my shepherd;
I shall not want.
He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside the still waters.
He restores my soul;
He leads me in the paths of righteousness
For His name’s sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You anoint my head with oil;
My cup runs over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
All the days of my life;
And I will dwell[a] in the house of the Lord
Forever.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil;

Our journey is not through the valley of death!

On our journey we travel through the valley shadow of death! A shadow is just an ether … it’s harmless, unless we add fear giving the shadow body and the ability to harm us, because we allow the shadow more power than it is capable of without our permission.

This scripture assures us that God is with on this journey. He is there before we know Him, protecting us. He is there when we decide we are going to do these things on our own, watching over us and waiting patiently until we call on Him for rescue. And He is tangibly there when we trust wholly in His constant presence in our lives and on this journey.

Dear God

Dear God

My journey is a rough one. One that often requires me to pray in a warring fashion against fear, because I refuse to give that shadow any power.

My journey is about endurance, as is yours. We all battle and war and endure, but I encourage you today! DO NOT tolerate that which is not of the Lord.

It is said of journeys:

The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step. ~ Lao Tzu

Peace is a journey of a thousand miles and it must be taken one step at a time. ~ Lyndon B. Johnson

The only journey is the one within. ~ Rainer Maria Rilke

The second two really speak to me on the spiritual level. I truly believe that the journey, though it feels as if it is external, is truly one within. I believe there are tests in our lives that build our faith and endurance . Let me remind you of my beginning Scripture …

“No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.” 1 Corinthians 10:13

God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear … though we will be tested beyond what we can bear … because God is faithful and will provide a way out, so that we can endure the test … with His assistance.

God knows the end of our journey from the beginning of His time … we are equal to the challenge of our personal journey in this life; we just need to trust God and rely on Him, then we will not be overtaken.

Because, in all these things we are more than conquerors

through him who loved us. ~ Romans 8:37

Thanks for stopping by and reading. Blessings to you.

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Patience: The Reality of a Believer


PrayerPatience:

Not one of my natural traits. Frankly I am convinced it is not a natural trait for any human, and I’ll tell you why.

Because we ALL have a plan in our head and when that plan is usurped by someone or something we lose our patience; whatever infinitesimal  patience we were born with or taught.

Naturally, humanly, we do not have much patience.

We live in a fast food, right now, instant gratification world; like veritable infants. We want what we want and we want it now!

Correct me if I’m wrong.

Over the last 13 years I’ve learned and studied a lot about patience. Studied my live, other people and God’s word.

Really early in my walk with God I learned NOT to ask for patience … Why, you ask?

I learned quickly that if I asked for patience God would quickly give me an opportunity to use what patience I thought I had. And when I say quickly I mean immediately!

I learned I had very little patience.

The Merriam Webster definition of Patience: :  the capacity, habit, or fact of being patient. (Not very extensive, you see). The people, in the world we live in today, simply have little to no patience; and the definition has little or no information.

The biblical definition of Patience: The quality of forbearance and self-control which shows itself particularly in a willingness to wait upon God and his will. Believers are called upon to be patient in their expectations of God’s actions, and in their relationships with one another. (This is just the first sentence of the page!)

In the last, going on 16 months, one of the trials or tests, if you will, that we’ve gone through as a couple and a family, and as individuals was a testing of our patience.

And today ( or the last week!!!) has been NO different! I have written, erased and rewritten this post multiple times, seriously! Talk about impatient! I have been trying to write this post since Thursday of last week, and that was after pondering where I come from in light of the prompt. Then the weekend changed where I was coming from!

That’s just the way of life. All those desires, wants and needs that we believe are for RIGHT NOW change. Who and what I was last week is vastly different, again, than right now.

Amazing wonderful things happened over the weekend! Our dearest friends and mentors became the Pastors of our church! Big things are ahead in the Kingdom of God!

And others are leaving. Our pastors of the last 4 1/2 years are onto new things in the Kingdom, as are some very important others in my life. It makes the celebration bitter sweet and wears on the patience a bit.

It’s a difficult thing being patient in times of growth and loss. I want the good of the growth to begin and I want the pain of loss to STOP!

Change wears on my patience. It sometimes renders me paralyzed for a short time, like today.

Right now my one overwhelming desire is to know what’s next. I don’t mean with the ministry; we’re on board with the good changes, though they can be overwhelming if I try to think ahead of myself.

Yet when everything happens all at once {and my life keeps doing that} I get the overwhelming need for control!

I feel an uncontrollable need to please the people around me, no matter what they are doing right or wrong [in my opinion] and handle everything I can on my own! In this way I’ve lost my patience today.

In this time of total im-Patience I’ll certainly get things done, but I’ll be exhausted and spent and possibly ill for the next few days. And ain’t nobody got time for momma to be ill!

So how do I stay in that Biblical definition of patience?

I do my level best to remain still and wait for God.

I. Pray. {and I know I’ve exhausted that one, but it’s the only real way to deal with all of this!}

I. Pray.

Intentional Prayer: Sitting still and quiet and praying in tongues. Allowing Holy Spirit to take my petitions to the throne of God untainted by my impatience and control issues.

I. Pray.

God’s word.

Reminding myself and God of His promises of Life and Life More Abundant.

Reminding myself that I am more than a conqueror! Thankfully praising God that He’s given me His peace and that I’m to hand Him my burden.

I. Pray.

Reminding myself that God’s plan for the situation that is causing me to be paralyzed and impatient is far better than anything I can even fathom or devise on my own; and as always, it takes me {too much} time to remember to do that!

God says: “Andrea! Cast your cares upon me, the Lord of your life. My yolk is lighter.” and I say, quietly, even meekly: “But … God, Father … please …”. And He remains patient with me, when I cannot even remain patient for a second for Him when I get this way.

He waits for me …

TO GET STILL, in Him. {It’s the only place I can remain still and at peace, I’ve found. And I think that is true of all of us.}

TO BREATH and wait on God’s PERFECT timing.

Here’s what keeps running through my mind today …

Change … It’s going to happen!
Best to smile and endure until everything feels right again.
Because it’s God’s plan and He knows what’s best.
{Me.}

Jeremiah 29:11-12 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you.

{You see that in verse 12 of Jeremiah 29:11 there is something to be done while we wait on God. Pray.}

Romans 8: 28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

Psalm 46:10 He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.

Psalm 55:22 Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken.

So where are you today in reference to Patience? How are you handling your day? Share with us over on Tuesday at Ten at Karen’s place!

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The Patience of Waiting on God … A Healing Thing | tuesdays @ ten


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Waiting … Patience … Perseverance

“If you are going through hell, keep going.”
Winston Churchill

And there it is … the truth! True patience and perseverance.

Romans 5:3-8

Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.

You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous person, though for a good person someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

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So shouldn’t we be patient and wait on God?

Patience is the ability to accept and wait or suffer on something or someone without becoming angry or upset!

Be still and know that I am God … Psalm 46:10-11

10 Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.

11 Jehovah of hosts is with us; The God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah

Selah means to sit quietly and meditate on this … in other words have patience and wait on the Lord to reveal the meaning to you. Not your understanding, but the meaning of what God is saying to you, individually, right now, about your circumstance.

Waiting on healing that the Word says is already complete is a conundrum to say the very least. To understand the promise and to manifest that promise are two very different things! And it can be frustrating.

Yet, Patience says we must suffer that wait without that frustration. Even though that frustration can only delay, not stop, that manifestation.

So how do I have patience enough to endure the process. How does one accomplish this ethereal task within themselves?

” … suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God has been poured out into our hearts …

I believe this is about us and our response to God in the hard situations. Circumstances like cancer and heart failure and addiction.

Because at “just the right time” when we are truly powerless and surrendering all to God … God then demonstrates Himself: LOVE, for us, to us and through us. Even as we are still sinners.

Like I said this morning in a scripture status on our favorite Social Media vehicle:

You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness. – Ephesians 4:22-24
* Note: WE were TAUGHT … it’s a walk, a process. WE MUST read and learn and fellowship and CHANGE the attitudes of our minds. As wonderful as it all is the Love and Grace of God … we are human in a fallen world and we must LEARN and be GUIDED to this place of TRUE righteousness and Holiness in God.

It’s all a process, in patience and perseverance, to Righteousness and Holiness … to getting what we KNOW down in our Spirits for true Understanding.

I simply need to remember that my Manifest Healing was completed the day I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior, and that I must wait patiently on my human-ness to catch up with my acceptance.

True Serenity.

We call that “Speaking those things that are not (in the natural/the flesh/what is tangible to us here on earth) as though they are. Speaking FAITH; because what we KNOW is promised must be KNOWN in the heart …

That short 18 inch trip from the head to the heart.

And that takes Patience and Perseverance … so I fight the frustrations and do what I know I should do and wait, patiently on God.

Trust me I know this is hard, a LOT. We all live it. We all struggle to be patient in this instant gratification world of ours … but what is it you need to hand to God and be patient and trusting for Him to complete today? Know you are not alone in this virtuous struggle with Spirit and Flesh.

For me, today, I’m handing God the obesity and asking that He conquer it … even as I set out to start Nutrisystem so that I can get my dietary lifestyle under control.

It’s letting God work in me, while I do what I know to do … leaning on Him and not my understanding (or anyone else’s understanding) of what NEEDS to be done to conquer this underlying and deadly dis-ease within me.

Thanks for forgiving the length (this went just a bit over 5 minutes, didn’t it!) and for reading, my faithful friends.

Andrea

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Change … The New Things


Tuesday at Ten again! Follow the Link at the end and check out the rules … there aren’t any really =D {It’s also day 7 of 31 Days of Writing.}

Just follow the word prompt where it takes you. Write … take pictures … sing us a song … whatever and where ever the prompt goes.

Let it lead you by your heart!

Today’s TT Prompt: Change!

Farewell Summer

Farewell Summer

Change.

It often means a farewell to something. The change of seasons, both in nature and in ourselves. Ah, what season is this?

Autumn. It’s literally Autumn here at the Jersey Shore {my favorite season} and it’s autumn in myself, I think. A little over 3 months and I reach the big 50. No drama in that, just a weird sense of, “how did that happen”. =)

I do not feel 3 months from a half century of life!

 

Other changes in this sweet Autumn of mine …

Went to the oncologist yesterday and the cancer on The Hubs’ liver continues to shrink. I know I’ve told you all that Hubs had decided to quit chemo. Well conventional chemo has been stopped! Yay! He’ll start to feel better and his hair will grow back. His hair falling out really bothered him, to his own surprise. It’s already returning.

The Doc did say things, again, that thing I didn’t want to hear; things we know to be false, with God! So we simply don’t accept that part of the report and continue with our life and choices in the faith of God.

We are standing on The Word of God; our indestructible foundation!

Heal me, Lord, and I will be healed save me and I will be saved,for you are the one I praise.” Jeremiah 17:14

 

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We are ever changing. We are not who we were when we drove to Hamilton yesterday for this appointment. The news was good! They are changing his treatment and sending The Hubs to find out what NEW oral treatment trial he fits into {and Miraculously The Hubs agreed! Praise God} … New technology in chemotherapy medication. Doc says he CAN’T ever tell us that this cancer will be totally removed. What they know of this type of cancer mutates … the doc says. My take: If it can mutate it can die … and it will die, because …

GOD!

Well what we say is this: Nothing is impossible with God!

For with God nothing will be impossible.” Luke 1:37

Nothing is impossible with God.

Nothing is impossible with God.

So what hasn’t changed?

Our faith has not changed. It has not wavered … because our faith is in God; not medical tests or even the doctors knowledge – though we do firmly believe that God sent us to the best doctor for The Hubs and God is using him greatly, despite the protocols and science that says things outside of God’s promises. We, in the faith of our God, believe that God’s promises are going to make changes in the doctors, for His glory!

I do so love watching the amazement they get when they see The Hubs living and thriving; God’s been working on these professionals for over a year now!

Our schedule has not changed … yet … but in about a month it should slow down to a more normal, livable pace.

So there you have it … Change as I see it, today. Obviously my vision of change will not be the same tomorrow, because I will have been molded more by the hand of the Potter. After all it is His plan and I am just the dust of the earth miraculously alive by His breath!

“Yet you, LORD, are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter; we are all the work of your hand.” Isaiah 64:8

To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven …” Ecclesiates 3:1

Autumn Sunlight

Autumn Sunlight

Thanks for reading.

Andrea

Andrea

 

 

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31 Days: A Journey to Healing

 

 

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I Know Where My Hope Comes From*Looking UP | Tuesday@Ten


Nothing is Impossible in Him

Nothing is Impossible in Him

Welcome. Tuesday is the day I join the writers over on Karen Beth’s blog, Finding the Grace Within for her Tuesday at Ten blog Link up.

It’s simple, be creative with the prompt: writing, art or whatever your craft may be, you have 1 week to create and link up at that bottom of Karen’s page so that others can link up with you. Be sure to visit your “link up” neighbor and spread the joy of connection! Just follow the link above. Looking forward to your post.

Today’s Prompt ….

HOPE!

 

OH, how I’ve hoped these last 12 months.

Hoped and prayed and prayed and hoped. All the time knowing where my hope was founded. My hope is firm on the Corner Stone.

He is Lord … Lord of All!

I have vacillated though, back and forth, in my faith … forgetting to rely upon the faith that is based on the grace of God, but rather relying on the building of my own faith in my exhaustion. Forgetting that Jesus said to roll my works upon Him and to trust Him wholly. Proverbs 16:3.

You see we forget in our human-ness. We forget that He is made strong in us when we are at our weakest! Oh how the relief and peace of His tenderness cascaded over my physical and spiritual self when I remembered.

Amazing Love! Amazing Hope!

The Hubs shared something last night that I’ve been praying and hoping for! I’ve been praying that he would use God’s wisdom in his decision making about his treatments. I finally came to the place that all good and supportive and God guided helpmeets come to. I came to a place that allowed me to, no matter what, no matter how scared or selfish or heartbroken, support whatever decision he made.

You see he wants to quit the chemo, even if the doctor advises against it. He’s terribly frustrated and hates to be down and sick and tired. These things are his kryptonite. He says cancer isn’t killing him that the chemo is killing him and these things are products of the chemo.

His Laughter - My Favorite Sound.

His Laughter – My Favorite Sound.

And then hope … He gave me a glimmer of hope with what he shared last night. He said: “Stopping is my intention, we will see.”

Now let me give you the full picture here. The whole year, especially when they told us that it had moved to the liver, he’s been saying he was going to stop; and each time my heart would sink and my head would spin. I sometimes actually felt faint. I knew that this statement was stealing my peace, my sanity and my hope.

Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1

That statement was stealing my faith. I was forgetting. Then something woke me up. “The chemo is killing me, not the cancer.” The Hubs had decided from day one that this was not going to end him. He declared that and God heard him. But I had begun to fade … I was relying on my faith … not the faith I was given through grace. I was trying to have faith in my own power and I’d hear him say that he was going to stop and I would fade some more.

But then he gave me HOPE! God had heard my prayers too! He always does and he always answers often immediately.

Faith and Trust allow us to hope for what we see as impossible. We mustn’t let these things fade! We mustn’t forget about that faith we were given by grace. And we must not forget that Grace is a person!

I am grateful for Grace and for the hope The Hubs gave me last night! This is the last week of scheduled chemo and then there are some tests and the doc will return with a report.

My HOPE is that that report will come back as no further treatment needed, even as I cannot see it.

Because I know where my Hope comes from … My.HOPE.Is.In.The.LORD.

Psalm 121

I will lift up my eyes to the hills—
From whence comes my help?
My help comes from the Lord,
Who made heaven and earth.

He will not allow your foot to be moved;
He who keeps you will not slumber.
Behold, He who keeps Israel
Shall neither slumber nor sleep.

The Lord is your keeper;
The Lord is your shade at your right hand.
The sun shall not strike you by day,
Nor the moon by night.

The Lord shall preserve you from all evil;
He shall preserve your soul.
 The Lord shall preserve your going out and your coming in
From this time forth, and even forevermore.

What is your hope today? Please join us and share your hope today.

Andrea

Andrea

 

Tuesday @ Ten

Tuesday @ Ten